Kids are Funny

I am sitting here working on school stuff in my room why the kids watch tv and use the computer in the living-room. My little guy fell asleep on the couch as soon as we got in from school and running around about 4:30. He just come running into my room all up set telling me the older kids wouldn’t give him breakfast and he was really hungry. Then he looks at me with big eyes and says and school I got to get to school I need breakfast first. I looked at him and said it’s night time it’s dinner time. Poor kid looked so confused, he must have had a really good nap for that couple hours to think he done sleep til morning.


To Long to Get into a Routine

I have noticed that as soon as I feel that I have a routine figured out and starting to get classes under control it’s the end of the term or just about the end of the term and time to start new ones. Then the whirlwind of trying to get a routine down again starts. I can’t really keep the same one and just change what classes I’m working on because I don’t always take the same number of classes, they are due different days, some have two days stuff is due and some are due on days that I have other things and can’t work on them. So I have to see what days each one is due then if it interferes with something else set it up due early so that I can get both things done.

At least the next two terms the classes will be longer. This term they started mid May and will be done the first week of August. The next ones will start August and end the first week of December. Then January til May. Then I will hopefully only have one more of these short terms and I will be done. Unless I take the rest of the aging classes and have problems with my math class. Then I will have to do one more fall term. Right now I am not liking the aging part and thinking about not doing the other two classes for it and just get my degree in domestic violence. If I do the aging I will have a certificate in Aging matters. I keep telling myself that it is only two more classes but I still just don’t know if I want to do it. The one class I am taking now is part of the problems I am having keeping up with the rest of my classes. I think the same teacher has all three classes. I guess we will see.

Re:Shipping Delays

We thought we could put the bed up with what we had since we had bunk boards but that didn’t work. Lucky the slats came the next evening and we got it all up and they were able to sleep in them. I ended up having to look the beds up to see something about them while we were putting them together and the lady didn’t refund me because of Shipping Delays like she said. She gave me a refund because the bed had went on sale after I ordered it and before it could even get to my house. They would have refunded that money had I known and said something to start with. She says she is going to give me a refund because it was late. Oh well at least it got here and it didn’t cost me to much extra since the second one cost more than the first.

My Little Bitty finally went and got in her bed and slept after her friend got upset and left the other night. The next night I asked her how she liked her new bed? She said it was really cold. Their room is the coldest in the house. I told her to wear clothes to bed she wouldn’t be as cold and that I would fix the vent to see if that helped. She told me you don’t wear clothes to bed you supposed to sleep naked. She sleeps in her underwear. I told her no some people wear clothes to bed and went in there and showed her that sissy had clothes on. Well pajamas anyway. She said ok I gave her a shirt and told her to at least wear that. She still insisted on sleeping with me that night. I said I thought you liked your new bed? She said I do a little but I like yours too. But she wore her shirt all night I was surprised. She hates clothes she runs around in her underwear all time when we are home. If we go somewhere as soon as she gets in the door she strips she isn’t even home two minutes. I put her in her gown or something for bed and when we get up in the morning she had gotten up in the night taken it off and tossed it in the floor. I gave up trying to get her to wear something to bed. She has about 5 blankets scattered on her bed she sleeps all in and always covers herself up. Most the time she is covered from head to toe with her blanket. She has been that way since she was a baby. Her first night in her big girl bed I went in there she was had her head at the foot, her feet propped up on the pillow sticking from under her blanket and the rest of her covered up. I can’t say I blame her I don’t like wearing clothes either. I get dressed when I have to go somewhere that’s it, other than that at home I am in a night gown or some big t shirt and a pair of shorts or lounge pants. At least she did sleep in her bed last night without me having to let her sleep in mine and then moving her like the night before.

Missing Paperwork

Today I call the judge to get a court date and the JA tells me we do not have all our paperwork turned it. We need a marital settlement agreement. She says we did not turn one in, I tried telling her that the paperwork says that if we used this other form we did not need that and she insisted we need it anyway because without it the judge don’t know what we agreed to. If they would look at the rest of the papers they would know because it is all in there and if they would take 5 minutes to do their job and know what papers are needed with what papers they would know the other paper takes the place of what she is asking for. But instead of doing their job they force you to fill out and file extra papers. Of course it is not one of the ones that you can fill out online, I have to print it out fill it out. I also have to do a new child support guidelines worksheet because now he is supposed to have this job. It is the only thing I was really worried about holding the case up since we weren’t able to fill it out all the way.

This week is a supper busy week, now I have to fill these out and get a time we both can go back to the court house or somewhere and get it notarized and turned it. If I can get it in tomorrow or the next day then I can get a court date for next Wednesday July the 6. He already said he is not going to come to court if he don’t have to and he will probably be working by then anyhow. He don’t want to have to ask for time off as soon as he starts. My sister said she would watch the kids for me so I can go. I don’t really want to go, I don’t like court rooms. I don’t know why or what it is, I can only think of three times I was ever in one. That was once when my mom was going to court over my sister with my step dad, once for jury duty and the one time I went trying to get this divorce settled. It isn’t like anything is going to happen, the judge is either going to grant it or deny it and tell me what I have to do to get it put through. But I would rather go take a test than go to court. Isn’t that crazy. I guess maybe because I want this done more than anything right now, I have had to do it all myself and get it put through and the last time the judge wasn’t very nice. He was but he wasn’t, he wasn’t happy I did it myself, that I didn’t ask for more and was looking for any reason to not grant it. I guess he is use to seeing these women in there who try and take these guys to the cleaners and I truly don’t care to do that. I just want my divorce, to be free from him and done with when it comes to us from now on. If he pays whatever they say he needs to pay or what that is truly fine with me. So I take him to the cleaners get all this on paper he has to do this, that and the other, it is not worth anything more than the paper it is written on if he don’t pay it or can’t pay it. Then I am back in court fighting to get him to pay it or doing without it just like I would be if I never was given it to start with. I rather not bother with it because i know he can’t pay it. I also have nothing to wear to court really. I guess I will wear my green shirt and see if I can fit into my black slacks or have to wear my black jeans. I just hope we can get this in tomorrow. But I am not sure how I will because I have therapy with one kid, and dentist with two while he takes my sister and her baby to the heart doctor. Tomorrow is the only day the lady is at the court house to do it so I guess we will see what happens.

Not What I needed

I thought the last few times I drove my truck it acted like it didn’t have much power and windows and things were going up and down slow. Well last night Father of the Year took my mom to the store and she asked if he would get my truck so they could move something. He called and said he didn’t know if he was going to make it back to her house with it much less get it back to mine. Lucky he made it to her house but there was no way it was going to make it home so I had to leave it there for the night. The alternator went out in it. I had to get one today to put on it. Luckly it is on and running again and not down long. I am glad it didn’t quit on me and the kids why we were out somewhere in it. I didn’t think about it being the alternator when it seem to run funny, I really wasn’t sure figured a coil pack and that the window motor was going.

I got online to look for parts and seen I had a message from a friend, she said she was coming to town for the night and wanted to know if I could babysit for her. I probably shouldn’t have but I told her I would. I have a tone of school work due tomorrow. But I need to make some of this I had to spend today back. It is going out faster than it is coming in right now. Not like it would be hard she just go along with the others and play. She stayed until about 12am they were all laying on the couches watching tv and she came over told me she needed me to call her mom. I told her mommy was going to pick her up in the morning. She said well I need you to call her now, I need to talk to her. I called and as soon as mommy got on the phone the tears came. So mommy came and got her. I had one crying she wanted to go home and one crying because she didn’t want her to go home. She wanted to have her sleepover. She don’t understand she is little too and not use to being away from her mommy and daddy and don’t know us well. I tried to give them half the money back since she didn’t say the night and things but they wouldn’t take it. So that was an easy $40 and I don’t have to get up with kids bright and early in the morning. I am not a morning person but I do it when I have to.

I am still haven’t done my work, I have three projects due tomorrow. It isn’t because she was here or anything like that. It is all me, I can’t sit and focus on it. It just seems like they go over board on the work they want us to do. Every lesson is answer these questions in a report and make sure your paper is formatted this way and you have this and that to go with it. I know we can’t just answer with a little short answer, but at the same time we shouldn’t have to write a page or two report for every assignment.  I have to interview someone and still haven’t done that. I have to call my friends mom and interview her I guess. I hate this one because I hate asking people about their personal lives and nosy questions. It isn’t a big deal but it still just bothers me. I’m not even sure if the questions I put together are that good but it will have to do. I am trying not to be to prying but get the assignment done.

That feeling just won’t go away, the more I have it the more I feel like the things we are doing are trivial and are going to be meaning less compared to whatever it is that is about to happen. I was telling my friend about it last night when I was going to check my truck and things and my oldest heard me. She said it sounds like the end is coming and some will be taken and the others will be left behind. Later I was talking to Father Of The Year about the truck and some how it came up. I said I had this feeling that something large scale is about to happen and that whatever it was would be known globally and be big. But that whatever it was would be very quick just done and over before you really even knew what happen or that something happen. The first words out of his mouth were maybe it is the rapture. I thought it was odd that they both said that I had not said anything about anything like that. Just that something big was going to happen on a very large global type scale. I mean I feel like your not going to have to talk to anyone, read a newspaper or even watch a tv. Whatever it is when it happens you are going to know and you are going to know that everyone everywhere no matter where they are knows about it too.

I said well if that is what it is then I am not to happy about it, because I was still here and knew something was going on. If that is what it is then I want to go when everyone else goes. But I know that is not what it is because my kids are with me. I keep seeing this picture in my mind of us after whatever it is and we are outside looking around and looking into the sky. Something is going over but I don’t know what it is. I can’t see it just shadows like on things around as it goes over. But it is odd because I know we aren’t at our house either. I don’t know where we are.

Contaminated Water

As I said in my other post My New Hobby I bought a fish tank a couple days ago. Well my plant started to look bad it is turning brown and yellow all over all of a sudden today. I tested the water everything is pretty good but the ammonia is high. I put the prime in to take care of it and tonight it is just as high or higher. I read it said I need to do a water change of about 20% every few days until I get it to 0. I don’t know why but something said test my water before I did all that. I tested the tap water and it is high in it as well. It tested as high or higher than the water in the tank. So what am I going to accomplish by doing a 20% water change? I ended up going to get gallons of spring water and put 18 gallons in and it did nothing. I am hoping that it just needs more time to cycle through and mix since I did it not long after putting it in. I also put more prime in to get it out.

I got to thinking about it all and I then tested my tank in the other room that has no pump a fish, plant and some snails living in it to see how it tested out. It has not been cleaned or anything in at least a week maybe more. This was my test results. The first one is the fish tank and the second is my tap water.


The tap water is full of ammonia. A big thing came out about a month ago that the water company has been hiding stuff and the water had unsafe levels of stuff in it that could cause cancer and things. They say it is stuff the put in the water to treat it. I guess now they use ammonia and chloride of some type. I didn’t think you were supposed to mix the two but who knows. They say that when you leave it sit out over night everything dissolves out of it. I left some sit out over night and retested and it was just as green as before I put it there. They also say that if you get a filter it filters it out. I assumed that if this has been found out about and they are in trouble and being fined over it then they are fixing it. If they have just put to much of something in then they should be able to lower it and get it right and by now it should be fixed. But then talking with others I guess they haven’t and aren’t doing anything as of yet to fix it and it seems that it has gotten worse since not better. I been saying for a while now the tea taste funny and what they did different to it and things. Then I started noticing that when I drink it my mouth feels funny and kind of numb. The therapist said she researched it and it is bad to drink but even worse to bath or swim in. You shouldn’t have it in contact with your skin. So now I have to buy filters for the house because after seeing this I know they aren’t doing anything and probably won’t.

Moody and Shifting

I have been so moody lately I feel like I want to crawl out of my own skin at times and I don’t want to be around myself. I don’t know if you would call it a good mood or what kind of mood you say I am in. I feel fine until something happens or the least little thing bothers me then I’m just in a really bad mood and don’t want to be bothered or bother doing anything. I get snappy. But then the rest of the time I’m good. Inside I feel like there is something big about to happen. It’s so hard to explain. It’s like everything here at my house or with my house is good but on a much larger scale there is this shifting happening and something big is going to happen that effects everyone as a whole not just me, if that makes since. Maybe you would call it an uneasy feeling. Maybe that is why everything has been getting to me as well because I am just wishing whatever it is would just happen so we can all deal with it and move on. I feel that whatever it is will happen quick, it will be done and over with, but it will take a while to recover, it will be remembered from now on and we will have to move on from it and some thing’s will never be the same again. I feel like it is going to happen sooner than later. Everyday I feel like whatever it is, is closer than ever to happening. Like it could happen at any minute. It wouldn’t surprise me at all. It would be more of a oh so that’s it kind of moment.

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