Is everyone like this? I can decide that I am going to change how things are and be doing really good, then something comes along and it all goes to shit. You just don’t do the things you were or even care that your not.

Before my mom came I was working on getting things done around the house redoing things and just a big clean out, clean up kind of thing. Since she has come I have done hardly anything at all. I don’t want to do it or deal with it. It is to much of a hassle with her there to do stuff and I don’t even want to be there with her at all. I can not stand her being there or being around her. Just knowing she is in the house is enough for me to not want to be there.

I don’t decide I am just not going to do this or that it just happens. I know I have stuff to do and I always just put it off and put it off and things dont get done. I want them done but I don’t have any modivation to do them why she is there.

When she said she maybe going to her friends house I was thrilled. I was telling the kids when she goes we are going to do this and that around the house get thisbdone and that done. All things I have wanted to do need done but don’t do why she is there.

I don’t know why I am this way, I have thought it was the depression but I don’t know. I feel like it isn’t normal but that it is normal for me because I have always been that way when backed into situations. If there is just nothing I can do about it then I just do nothing. No matter how much I want to I can’t seem to force myself to do it.

Is it just me or is everyone that way? Or is it the depression? Is it normal?


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