I am having a lot of very conflicting feelings about a lot of things right now in life, with everything going on. I am feeling very restless with this new job and the new year approaching. With the new year coming up fast it brings with it decisions to be made. The biggest one being moving or renewing my lease. That brings up the question of if we move are we moving away or just to a different house in the area? If we aren’t going to move away do we really want to put effort into just moving to a different house? Is it worth moving to another house if we are not going to leave the area? What are the pros and cons of moving to a different house if we stay. Why are we going to stay and not move away? What are the pros and cons for that?
As much as I want to move away I feel that life is finally coming together and somewhat settling down for us for once. I have this new job and even though it isn’t enough to cover everything I have my other job and it is what it is for now. Most are working two jobs or have a roommate or something to get by it is what life is for most people right now and I am happy with both jobs I have right now if this is the way it has to be. I feel that maybe this is what I have been waiting for in order to get things together and be able to move on the terms I want to move on. Having money to go, being able to save money to go on and all that. That this is my time to get everything and everyone paid off, my truck gone through and the things big and small fixed on it or to just sell and get something else. To research and visit some places and check them out not go blind. These are all things I wanted to do but haven’t been able to do because I haven’t had the job or jobs to do it.
Then comes the fact that okay if we stay my lease is up do I stay in this house or do I try to find something different if I stay here? Pros for this house are it is under $1000 a month, it is 4 bedroom, it has a big yard, it is 3 doors down from the little kids school, I can have the dogs, it isn’t a horrible area, I am only 5 miles from one job and 10 from the other. Cons are the rent is going to go up at least $25 to $50 maybe more but I hope not. I will still be under $1000 but not to much under and could be at $1000 if they raise it more. They fix things but not everything since this new person has taken over. The yard is not fenced in at all so I have to have a pin for the dogs and they don’t have much room to get out since they have to be in it. The guy across the street that has been seen messing around my house and been in trouble. I am ready for a change.
I have found some houses that are 3 bedroom that are nicer and under a $1000 or right at it. But the kids would have to change schools and they wouldn’t be so close to walk. Them being able to walk is a big one so that the older kids can get them to and from school so I can work. I will be further from both jobs. As for rent I will be paying about the same in rent as I will if I stay where I am and rent goes up, maybe a little more but not much. I feel that if I am going to be working my ass off and paying almost the same then I should get us a nicer place and maybe have more room and I would not move if the yard was not fenced in. So the dogs would be able to get out like they should and the kids could go out even if I wasn’t home. I don’t like them going out now when I am not there because of people that walk and drive around there and the fact that they are always running off the road into to peoples yards into their cars, fences and everything else. The little ones are just that little and don’t always think or will run after the dog or a ball or something if it went out into the street. I don’t want the dogs getting away when I am not there.
At the same time I feel like would it really be worth it? Even if it was nicer, fenced in and close to schools and met all we wanted it to or close to it. Is the hassle of packing moving and all that really worth it? If this works why not just stay and keep plugging along. I just feel it is time to move on from here one way or another be it move off or just move to another house in the area. I have felt this for a while, that we are not supposed to stay here anymore. That we need to get out as soon as we can. I don’t know how to explain it. It’s like this chapter is done whatever it is or was and it is time to start a new one and it wasn’t meant to be here. I have even thought about trying to buy something here if I stay to get my payments down lower and to get into something else. Then if or when I decide to move sell it or rent it out. I would give my sister first option at moving in it if she wanted to with her family. If not then I would consider renting it out if I could find a good renter that wanted to sign a lease for a few years. I let BFF rent it if she wanted to and my sister didn’t. Other than that I wouldn’t probably rent to anyone I knew. I would have someone local that would keep and eye on the place go over check it out do a walk through every so often and things like that. Just to make sure it isn’t being messed up. Because I know when people know or think the owners are not in town they feel they can get away with more than if they are in town.
I just need to decide because I need to figure out and let them know something at my house if I plan to move and I need to start getting ready and start looking for places or checking with agents to try and find something. If I am really looking to buy I need to start that process now because anyone that has done that knows it can take months. I think maybe I will talk to an agent and see if there is a chance at buying or if that is something I should just forget right now. Then decide from there.
I don’t want to move away either because I just started this new job and love it and they love me and it is what I have been looking for and I hate to in a few months go oh sorry I’m leaving. Leave them stuck looking to hire someone new again and train them and things.
I don’t know I just feel that at this point in life if they keep me and I keep my other job and things that this is where I am supposed to be and this is what I been trying to get so that I can get everything in order to move away like I wanted to. I just have to really feel the time is right and not like I am just jumping and going with little to no resources and things. I feel like that I have not hit that point yet. This is going to give me the time to do that. Think I am going to go look at houses for sale and rent see what is out there.