In To Deep

I think Sleeping Beauty is in to deep this time. He keeps messaging saying he can’t come get his stuff. He told her the other day something about not having a toothbrush and things. Then today he told her he didn’t have one still or deodorant and hadn’t eaten in a day or two. He didn’t have a ride and just got up. That was at 10 or 11 in the morning.

I said well mommy could give him $5 for the stuff he needs and the store is a mile or less from his house of they won’t take him. Why hasn’t he eaten in days? Mommy has food in the house. And would give him a ride to her house to get his stuff.

She said he isn’t staying with his mom he is staying with a friend somewhere because it is closer.

I said a friend his crack body he took your truck to the other night. And closer to what? He hasn’t been working. He has nothing else to be close to.

She said she didn’t know there or his gay friend he stays with. If he was there he been up earlier because he complains there is no where to sleep there, they always fight and up all night he don’t get to sleep when he is there. She said she didn’t know what he was trying to be closer to.

I said his next fix because he is in to deep this time. In the 2 or 3 years I have known him I have never seen him this bad at all. The things he has said to her I am blown away. On top of all the other shit he is trying to pull. I said wow he never said that kind of shit to me or pulled that or tried to. He told her he hope she died or was dead today.

She said she was trying to get the title back still. She said it don’t run. I know she took the battery out and one of them did something else to it. I said if he didn’t give me the title it wouldn’t be running at all or anything going on with it. I said if it don’t run how is he going to get it? He don’t have money for a tow or anything? She said he was going to get his bosses trailer and truck.

I said when he does that he still wouldn’t get it. I would call the police on him as soon as he came around the corner tell them he has no licenses and driving a company truck. They will take him to jail and deal with his boss or impound the truck and trailer.

Like I told her he isn’t going to do anything he threatens because he don’t want any dealings at all with the cops. He has nothing and has more to lose than the rest of us because he don’t want to go to jail. We have more on him than he could ever have on any of us. So he can talk all he wants he is all talk no action. He is to scared to get into a confrontation with anyone as well. This is why he don’t want her there when he gets his stuff.

I told her it would not be a surprise at all to hear something happen to him or he overdosed.

Most the time this all blows up he leaves with mommy they enable him bandage it up and life goes on. But he didn’t even stay at his moms more than a day or so and come back down here. Normally it’s months before he comes back around. It is sad but that is what it does to you.

Back To Mommy’s House

So Bff called me last night and said that Sleeping Beauty had been there with his mommy and they had gotten into it. She said she heard his mom say what did you not pay rent again? He told her he had paid rent and she was crazy and this that and the other like he does.

She said she was saying things and he was trying to close the door and telling her to hush and not tell his mother that. Shhe said she told him no she needed to know. He hurried up and got the he’ll out of there. He took the title to the muddy truck she bought. Told her he would go back today to get his stuff why she was at work. That if she changed the locks he could kick the door in and come in. If she messed with his stuff then he would have her arrested. I said nope can’t have you arrested and he don’t want that close of interaction with the police he isn’t calling them on anyone.

She posted something on line about friends and family who you can trust seeing people’s true colors and things. Everyone commented on it. I did was nice told her she knew who cared about her that we were all watching out for her and the kids and things. Everyone was.

Well Sleeping Beauty commented and said wow all you people are all fucked up and she needs help. Oh wrong thing to say. I commented and a friend commented. I said to her well this is the problem he uses this that and the other and put it all out there how he has nothing but talks about everyone uses everyone and wants to give advice on kids and dont support see or have anything to do with his own. Me and her are single moms have house vehicles jobs and all that he has nothing and a grown man with no one to pay for or worry about but does this to people.

He uncle liked my comments and said Sleeping Beauty is pretty funny messing with family and right here in our town and going to run his mouth. He better watch out.

I was surprised Sleeping Beauty never said anything else.

Bff messaged me today said he told her he just wanted her to know he didn’t go to work today he was home. He been up sick all night over all this and in out of the bathroom all night over it all.

I said yep withdrawal does that to you and stress from knowing everyone is against you and mad watching for you because of the way you have done people.

I told her she better not let him come back or feel sorry for him either. She said oh no he was out not coming back. I told her I think he is in worse than ever. I don’t think it is going to get better. This just put the bandaid back on it for a bit. He is to close to it all and its to in his face he dont want to get another job he won’t ever be out of it. He needs somewhere to go away from it all. She said she told his mom he needed help. That something bad was going to happen to him if he didn’t get it. He was telling her shut up dont say that dont tell her that.

I told her he has his issues he is dealing with until be seeks help and deals with them right he wont do anything but get worse. He needs to deal with his mental health problems.

All Ready To Be Picked Up

I got a call from the vets office a little while ago telling me the the dog would be already to go home around 4. I told them I would be there around 6 that I was working until 5. They said that was fine. I said so everything went okay and her test came back negative? They said yes everything came back good and she did great during the surgery.

I have to pick her up and go to work for awhile. I hope that everything rolls out of Boston early and I don’t have to be there very long although I need the money and should stay as long as I can. But I don’t think she is going to be good for to long. I just hope she does good and don’t cause a problem and I have to leave right away. Sometimes she does great with people other times she don’t. But most the time I have the problem with her is at home. She wants to protect her house. She did great at the office today in the waiting room and in the car at the little store why I got gas and my drink. She just watched everyone out the window and laid down.

The Storm That Took my Bumper

So Friday I left work two hours early to go to the ssi office, as soon as I went to leave it started pouring. The bridge right by work was backed way up that means an accident most the time. I decided to take the back road to the other side of town to take the other bridge over since it comes out a few miles from where I needed to go.

I got about a quarter of the way down the back road and the street was flooded I thought it was low enough I could get though, other cars were making it. I hit something halfway through. It stopped me at first then I was able to go. I figured it was a tree branch or something, with the rain and the windows fogging up I had a hard time seeing. I could see the cars behind me going around something but still couldn’t tell what it was. But figured it must be a tree or trash or they would of stopped and kept going as well.
I got to the other bridge and ended up sitting there for I don’t know how long because it was all backed up as well don’t know if it was just the weather or what was going on. The rain did end up being worse than I had expected it to be,, so it may have just been that.

I was lucky enough to get to the ssi office just minutes before they locked the door and closed. I left there and decided to go ahead and head to my night job and pick something to eat up on the way because the weather was so bad. I knew it was going to take awhile to get there. I went a few places trying to decide what I wanted to eat but I never got out because it was raining so hard. I ended up going through the drive through and going to work. I grabbed all my stuff and made a run for the door and went in once i got there.

In a little while I went outside to use my phone since it don’t work inside and it had stopped raining for a minute. I walked out and turned to walk over to the car. I will go out and lean against the hood or sit on the edge. The car looked a mess, The front was gone. The first few seconds I was like what the hell happen to my car? What did the guys do to my car? How did they do this? Why? at the same time I went it’s over on the back road. I lost it when I hit whatever it was. I was to far away to go look for it and figured I had already tore it up hitting it and that someone else probably had hit it by now it. It had been hours. I did what I had to do and went back inside.

When I got off I tried calling my sister and asked if she wanted to go with me to look for it. She was busy and her hubby wasn’t there from work yet. I went over to find it in the dark on this little two lane road with next to no street lights.

I thought I knew where it was but wasn’t 100% sure since it was raining and everything. Sure enough I got down in that area and there it was leaning against a street light. I turned around and pulled over so that I didn’t have to get out on the side of the road. I got out and grabbed it and put it in the backseat. I found a plastic piece I wasn’t sure if it was off my car or not so I grabbed it too. In a little bit my sister called and asked if I found it and got it okay. I told her I was on the bridge already headed home.

I messaged my good friend and asked if he was going to be at the shop the next day. He said him or his brother would be there. I said oh good I need someone to out my bumper back on for me. I went over the next morning and his brother was able to put it back on. It is on better than it was to start with probably. I am so glad he was able to put it back on because so much was exposed and I was scared to drive it that something would happen to something and it looked horrible.

I thought everything was alright until I started down to take the dog this morning. Now I feel this thumping under my feet when I start to take off from a stop or slow down and speed up. My friend says it is the cv axle probably. That is going to be another $150 or more. I swear I feel like I am on some kind of bad reality show that I haven’t been informed of. Oh well such is life I guess.

Doom and Gloom Has Come Again

I don’t know what to think that doom and gloom feeling has rushed over me this morning. I got up early because I had to take the dog a million miles away to drop her off to be spayed before I went to work this morning. I got there at 8 to just drop her off. I didn’t talk to anyone until 8:45 or after. Then since she has had two seizures they wanted me to talk to the vet. She was scared of him did not like him at all. He listen to her and said she has a pretty good heart murmur. Ideally we would do a heart work up on her EKG and ECO and I think something else. But he said that is getting into a lot of money. He seem to think she should do good. But they wanted to do a heart worm test to make sure it isn’t that. He said he could do it why I waited but I told him I thought she was healthy and fine. That I really had to get to work that I would leave her and let them test her and if anything was wrong to call me. I think they told me before she had the murmur. She has only been to the vet once since I had her. She is healthy as I told him and she was quick to point out that she seemed that way but we really didn’t know. Even then I was okay and didn’t feel that anything was wrong. I did have the though before he said all that, that maybe I should just skip it and take her home. But know she needs to really be done she is so young and we don’t need puppies. I feel that everything is going to be okay but then I feel bad for just leaving her and not waiting for them to do the test. But it was almost 9:30 and I needed to be towns away at work by 10. I know that the test is going to come back fine and they are going to have to do what they need to do and I will pick her up at 6 and she will be great.

I think when I lost my bumper i messed up something under my car. I know I still haven’t told you about that either. I have been really busy getting nothing done this weekend and being told what a horrible mother I am and how sorry everyone feels for my kids. And dealing with Sleeping Beauty mess. But now I have to see what that is and get it fixed. I don’t even know if I should be driving it or what will happen if something happens. I don’t think I am supposed to have a vehicle.

Then I started thinking about my car the shit show I have with the one I just bought. I got an offer of $500 on my old truck why I was leaving the vet. I really need more but really don’t think I am going to get it at this point or after the fire and damage now. I have $500 worth of tires on it.

Thinking about all that is going on and the fact of doing it alone and just everything I don’t know what to think or where to go. It just hit me like hitting a break wall on the way to work doom and gloom something bad is going to happen. I still don’t feel that it is to do with the dog. I feel like it is something at home or with the kids. I have had that feeling about the house for a little while now but hadn’t really thought much of it or let it get to me. I keep telling myself everything is fine and that nothing is going to happen. But today is just hard and I don’t know why that is at the top of the list.

55+ Community

Friday night I worked later than normal and then had to backtrack over by my day job to find my bumper. That’s another post I will tell you later. But once I did that I went to my little store I normally go to so I could get my coffee on the way home.

I came out and there was a guy in a little red sports car backing out of the space next to mine. He stopped and was asking what kind it was and talking about what a neat car it was. Then he pulled back in and was talking. We talked for a bit about cars and different things. Then the question came are you married or have a boyfriend. I said no he told me he been divorced twice and things.

He proceeded to tell me how he was from the other county over and was on his way home from a POF date. How it didn’t go so great. There was no spark. He says I’m paying she goes all out orders this large thing with lobster. She could of just got a small. I’m just looking at him like your really saying this and trying not to laugh.

We talk a little more and he starts telling me about this great 55+ Community that he lives in!!! How they have 3 or 4 pools and a salon and barber and all this stuff there for them to do and use. How the kids would have so much fun if I wanted to bring them get away and come hang out for the day or weekend. I’m just grinning shaking my head and thinking. You think dinner tonight was bad because she oredred lobster and large. You have no idea what doing anything with 4 kids is going to cost. Not that I would expect him to pay but you get the idea. And does he really think that I am just going to load my kids up and drive 50 or 60 miles to spend the day or weekend with some guy I talk to one time in the parking lot of a little store? Even if there are “no strings attached” as he said. This just sounds safe in so many ways. For all of us, think I will jump right on that and make plans. As soon as I win the lotto.

My phone started ringing it was the kids. He said you have to get that? I said yeah I better get out of here I should of been home already. He said here I will give you my number if you would like to go out sometime give me a call. I said oh okay thinks took it and said have a good night got to go and left.

Why can’t I find someone decent closer to my age? He wasn’t really someone I would be interested in, the one from work seems nice and decent but what 15 or more year age difference is just to much. Then what do I have to pick from these 20/21 year old kids or the stalker. It would be nice to have just one close to my age that was interested and I didn’t have to worry about coming up missing or losing my eyes or something.

Maybe I am just meant to be alone. I really don’t think I am asking for to much and most say I should be asking for more so go figure.

The Excitement Never Ends

Last night Bff called me while I was at work. I was able to answer and talk to her sitting there at my desk. I have horrible reception in the building and have to go outside most the time to use my phone. She starts telling me how old boss isn’t paying her or taking the kids, something about Sleeping Beauty and fighting with him. It was after 10:30 I clocked out to go home. The bosses son had come in to do something with the computers, there was nothing to do and the other guy that works with me had come back.

I talked to bff on the way home she tells me how she been fighting with Sleeping Beauty, how he didn’t have the money to pay her truck payment like he was supposed to. That he had been talking to his boss about trying to sell her old truck and get money and he was talking about selling the mud truck. That he took her new truck to go talk to his boss about all this. I said he WHAT? You let him TAKE your TRUCK? She said yes he was supposed to be back in an hour. He promised he be back he wasn’t going to steal her truck. Some how it came up that today is like the 3rd or 5th year of his dad passing. He passed right before or right after mine.

I told her he did not go to talk to his boss, that his boss would not of told him to come over to talk about what to do about her truck or lending him money. I said just like when he was talking to him two different times about my truck at night like this. He would tell him to send him pictures of it and that he would give him a price or tell him what he was willing or able to do and that they would talk more tomorrow. I said he went to get a fix. I said I bet he is sitting at that guys house or that girls house with her and her girlfriend. If he isn’t over on A lane getting him what he needs his self. She said no I don’t think so and he is supposed to be back in an hour.

She messaged him and they were going back and forth he kept telling her he was with his boss. I went by the guys house and there is a camper out there and a bunch of cars. There was a suv pulled up right by the camper and this guys truck. All tucked up in there. I went by a few times, but it was dark and I wasn’t able to see what make of suv it said it was or the plate. I told her that I was sure it was hers but it was in shadows and dark and I wasn’t able to see for sure. I told her I would come get her and take her by there she said no. Then she asked him when he was coming back he told her in an hour. Then it was in 30 more minutes. She asked where her truck was and where he was and that she needed to go to bed he needed to bring it home. He told her he was in in such and such town he be there in a bit if she was going to report the truck stolen he wasn’t going to drive it to give him a few minutes. They were going back and forth about him bringing her truck home her wanting to talk to him and things.

I went back by the house and the guys truck was gone. She was talking to Sleeping Beauty she asked him where her truck was and said she wanted it home she had to be at work and needed to go to bed.

He told her it was “parked” it would be in her driveway but he wouldn’t be there.

I told her yeah he isn’t with it, it’s parked because it is at his buddy’s house and they left in his truck to go get their stuff. He had no plan to bring it home in an hour when he left with it, he figured he just sneak home drop it off or sneak home go to bed you would get up and go to work in the morning and everything would go on as normal be okay. I said it is parked is not something you say when you have someone’s truck and they ask where it is, if you are with it. you say i’m here or there or it’s here or there where I told you or something like that. It’s parked to me means I’m not with it but it’s okay.

I headed to her house to get her she told him she would get a ride and come get it to tell her where it was. He said he would park it with keys in the gas lid but he wasn’t going to be with it he didn’t want to fight was telling her how it is her fault and shit. By the time he gave her an address I had done picked her up and we were a few blocks away from this guys house where I told her the truck was sitting. Sure enough he gave her that street. He pulled it out of where it was tucked in at and parked it on the edge of the yard by the road. I pulled in dropped her off. She was getting in her truck I rolled my window down and said and not time to go home and clean out the fucking house.

Then he told her he was going to call the cops on her because she was in his room and looked through his stuff. Before she could do whatever she wanted in there he didn’t care.

I told her he is bad, he has gotten really bad and now he is threatening cops. I said you need to change your locks tonight so he can’t get back in and you need to put his stuff on the front porch and tell your kids not to let him in for any reason at all. I said tell him he better come and get it and not come back around there. Tell him if he don’t give you the title to the other truck and takes t you will report it stolen. Go to the guy you bought it from have him write you a bill of sales and call the police and tell them he took the title and will not give it to you and now he is trying to take the truck. I said because the guy knows who gave him the money for it and as long as you have the bill of sales then it is yours unless he can show where he paid for it. My cousin bought tires for her ex boyfriends truck one time. They were splitting up and he did something to her and she slit all 4 tires. He called the police she said right here you see this I paid for them it is right here on my credit card statement. They are mine. They looked at him and said can you showed you paid for them? He said no but they are on my truck. They said the truck is yours the tires are hers she has proof of paying for them she can do what she wants to do with or to them. As long as you can show it is your property all it takes.

She got her truck she went home and I went home she went to bed I didn’t hear from her. I didn’t get to bed until like 4 this morning. I woke up at 7 and looked to see what time it was. When I seen 7 I said oh thank god I can sleep 2 more hours and rolled over. About that time the dogs started raising hell one of the kids was up and was getting them. Then I hear a knock on the door, I look out and it was a cop. I’m couldn’t figure out what they would be doing at my door and not at that time. I went and answered the door he was standing there.

I said can I help you? He said who are you? I said is something wrong? He again rude who are you? I told him my name and ask him if something was wrong. He said go get a piece of paper. I said what is this about? What is going on? Is something wrong? He said I told you to go get a piece of paper. I am really pissed at this point don’t come to my door this time of the morning wake my whole house up then start barking orders at me and demanding answers and you haven’t even told me why you are here.

The whole time I am thinking what the fuck has he done? Did he take her truck and something happen? Did he call and say we did something to him? Did he go home and something happen or him do something to her? This cop won’t talk to me tell me what is going on.

I at this point said something else and he says to me they found your car. I said found my car? My car is right there and pointed to the driveway. I am thinking “car” not a truck or suv when he says car. He says you don’t own another? I said a explorer and it is at X 50 miles away I know where it is what are you talking about. He starts writing something. I said oh I have a excursion as well it is at x over there. I know where they are so what do you mean they found my car? He pulls a pad out of his pocket and starts writing something down. Then he says here just call this number they can tell you more.

I called the number and no one answered so I left a message it was the sheriff’s office. I was on my way back down the hall trying to figure out what was going on when my phone started ringing it was my boss from my day job. He said that they called him and said there was a vehicle fire at the shop my truck was involved and damaged and they needed me to come down take passion of the vehicle. I told him I was going to get dressed and head over here. Somewhere in there I missed a call from the sheriff so I called them back on my way he said that another car had been on fire and my mirror melted on one side and something else. It wasn’t much damage at all. They just needed me to come over there.

I got there and someone had pulled a car up on the passenger side of my truck almost against it and set it on fire. They had just enough room between them to open the door good and get out. The car was burnt to the frame there was nothing left in the car. There was plastic melted on the mirror and the hood but not bad. The cop said it was suspisuse they couldn’t get a hold of the owners and he didn’t’ think they had insurance even probably. They were here for hours investigating and taking pictures and things. He asked if I knew the car or who’s it was, if it was here often or what. I told him it wasn’t one I knew or seen around.

I went to leave and called my boss who had called me and asked him if he knew who it was or what. He said no and asked me about the office upstairs. He said they told him it had been broken into. I looked up the door is right over my office door and you could see it had been. His girlfriend works at the salon at the other end of the plaza and she said she thought someone was living in one of the offices upstairs. I told them that she said she thought someone was living up there and who all I knew was up there and that one had just moved out last week. I don’t know if they ever got a hold of the owner of the car or what. They did everything they had to do and he tow truck finally took it around 11.

When they were talking the car a couple came by and stopped were talking to me. She said she cleans upstairs and things. She said that in the office they said they broke into there were chairs that were moved around and footprints on the floor. They thought it was odd because the chairs are never moved around up there and there is just personal files and records up there. I don’t know if they thought they were going to be able to get into the other offices or what. It seems they knew what they were looking for or where they were going because if not why not break into our office or one of the others down here. But why do that and then set the car on fire? How did they get away or what? Why did they park in the middle of the area you drive and right against my truck when they did it? Why wouldn’t they par it in a space or further over in the back?

My boss said maybe because the cameras don’t get you in that area or something I don’t know. If there are cameras why don’t they look at them and see what they show? Did they tell the cops about them? I still wonder if it isn’t something to do with me and my truck too. But how or why, I don’t know anyone around here other than the girls at the salon. I really don’t know them we see each other and say hi and they know the guys bosses girlfriend works down there so they all really know each other. It’s all so weird.

It is crazy it all seems like a bad dream or something. I don’t know, you can’t make this shit up and it seems to always happen to me.

 

Should Not Write When I am Tired

I am sitting here at work looking at old post and I really shouldn’t post when I am tired or in a hurry. It comes out all messed up. And if I am using voice to text for get it. I try to go back and check but don’t always have time or forget.

I am sitting here at my night job bored out of my mind. I finished all my work by 6 or a little after and I got here at 530. We only had two trucks rolling out and they didn’t have a lot on them at all. Everyone has finally left it is just me. The other guy that works with me had to go pick some things up local here. I guess we were short a driver or something. Who knows. Maybe one cried and quite. I have never seen so many people cry about having to do their jobs. Imagain that, they are at work and we expect them to work. Of course they want to get paid for not working as well. They will tell you that notnlike they are trying to get by with something or sneak and do something.

I don’t know where I am going with this, I am way off topic but I guess that is okay. I think I will go watch something on netflix for now. I have2.5 hours at the least to go. I may leave when the other guy gets back I’m not sure yet. I should stay get the hours but at the same time its so dead and boring.

34 to 54 and Us in-between

Over the weekend when me and Bff went out and we were talking she told me about this guy at work who has been talking to her. She said but he is only 34!!!

I laughed and told her I almost went out Wednesday for a drink with a guy from my night job before I had told her I would go with her. But I didn’t because I am not interested in him that way and I know he is. The kicker he is 54 or around there. He told me he had his first son when he was 25 and his son is around 29 now.

Then there is me and her 38 and 41. She is freaking out because he is so much younger and I am freaking out because he is so much older. She said something about the guy at work and his name. They have the same name.

At least there is only a 7 year age difference between him and her. But I am with her he is still so young. He has no kids never been married. I told her it don’t hurt to have some fun but be upfront that she just wants to be friends. Nothing wrong with dating or going out as friends.

The one at work is a nice guy but 16 year age difference he is like my moms age. I just can’t go there. He been married, divorced and has kids, he works, has his own place and things.

On top of that we all work together. Well not all of us but the guy she is talking to works with her and the one talking to me works with me. I don’t want to go there.

Why can’t we meet nice, decent guys closer to our age that have their shit together?

RE:Ripped Off

I told you about buying a new truck, well new to me truck a couple weeks ago and that I am hoping that I haven’t gotten Ripped Off. But it is seaming like it more and more everyday. I sent it back on a tow truck Saturday and never heard from them to even say they got it. I messaged them finally yesterday after noon because I now want as much as I can in writing. I told him I was checking to see what they had found out about the truck. I never heard anything back until this morning from him. Saying he was out of town his mechanic told him it came in on a tow truck Saturday and he was going to go through it today and see what it needed he would let me know.

I didn’t say anything, I am going to wait and if I don’t hear from him about 3 or 4 this evening I am going to call him. If he answers I am going to see what he has to say and what all he tells me it needs.

Then I am going to say I also need some other information from you, my lawyer would like the name of your bonding company and we will need pictures of the heads and things so that we can see that they have been checked and if it needs a head job. When he starts about lawyer and things. I am going to say yes because this is almost two weeks, I have not had use of my truck or help getting it fixed and the use of my truck. All I hear is that your out of town all the time or some other excuse. It has been fixed up, doctored up or whatever you want to call it when I bought it. I am not getting it back that way. It is going to be fixed right and all everything it needs done taken care of. You gave me a warranty and with that also comes implied warrants. One being that it will be in usable condition free of major flaws. So it would be in your best interest to fix it fix it right and everything that is wrong if you do not want to hear from my lawyer. Then just go from there.