I think I am finally done updating on the last year or two, everything else will fall into place among other post. I updated the main things or big things for the most part, things that will come up in other post. You won’t be lost going wait when did that happen or where did that come from. I am glad to be with the updates, I am surprised how hard it was to remember what happened and when and details. But I know that is from the stress and trauma over the last few years. It is a lot easier to write about now than now and what happened.

I am so aggravated with myself, I had posted everyday since I started back, I was 19 day in posting at least one time a day. A log of times two or three. Now it has been 3 days I think since I posted. I thought I had things together and posting, I guess I was confused and they posted the day before. I had been doing good about getting at least my one post written up in advance and then doing the second one later if I had free time and felt like writing. I would take that time to get the next post ready before I wrote another for the day. But then got thrown off and it has been hard trying to get back into the swing of it. I am starting new today.

Me and JW have been spending more time together the last few days as well and that has been nice. My friend I had not seen in years was down visiting she leaves in a bit to go home so I made dinner and had her over and caught up with her for the last 3 or 4 hours. Now I am sitting here watching a movie with the kids waiting to pick JW up at 9 so we can go to bed to start this crazy week tomorrow. I figure I will post tonight to start the week off and start working on other post when I have my free time tomorrow at work. It is harder doing it there because it is on my phone but it seem to be when I have the time to really work on it. Thought about getting a tablet and try using that. I don’t think anyone would say anything or really notice honestly. But if I took my laptop and tried to work on that something would be said. If not said everyone would want to know what I was doing and all about it. I don’t care of them to know everything.

I have caught up on sleep as well, the last few days. Yesterday I slept in until after 11:30 in the morning. JW did too. I woke up earlier but felt bad for him and let him sleep. The baby was not wanting to sleep Friday night, I guess I fell a sleep on the couch sitting out there with them watching tv and things. He woke me up and told me to go to bed. I woke up at one point and heard him coming in the back door from outside. I thought I felt him get in bed but I fell right back to sleep. I woke up later and rolled over to put my arm around him and he wasn’t there. I looked at my phone and it was 4am, I knew he must be on the couch with the baby. I went and sure enough he was between the two and the baby was beside him sleeping. I woke him up and told him to put him in bed and come to bed. I knew he had been up late with the baby for him to have been sleeping out there with him and was really uncomfortable out there like that so I let him sleep in.

Once we got up we got some stuff accomplished. We took the kids down to the village and walked around the arts and craft fair. After that they wanted to stop at the library to check on setting up a DnD game there on the weekends. I had to go to the phone store so I dropped them off and told them I would be back by the time they closed if not sooner. It was only about and hour and half before they closed so not a long time. We went to the phone store and stopped by JW’s old job and talked to them for a bit because it is right next to the phone store. After that we picked them up came home and relaxed for a bit and went food shopping and came home and had dinner and just relaxed the rest of the night.

Today we slept in a little but not as late, then we ran to Sam’s to pick up the things we needed there and got gas. I dropped him off at work on the way home. Then came home put chicken in the crockpot for dinner for us and my friend and hung out with her ad the kids the rest of the afternoon/ evening.

{February 26, 2023}   Homestretch of Updates

We have made it to the Homestretch on the updates. I surely didn’t think I would get to this year so fast and was kind of worried. I was trying to figure out how to balance it out with now and updates and now I don’t have too.

I have January and February to get done and they should be done by Monday. Then I can pick up with here and now and roll right along. I may throw in an over all update about the immediate family in my house of I just skimmed over them in the other post. I also want to intrude everyone so if anyone is new and the old can put some real names with faces not just nick names.I will probably still use Nick names for some others.

I have a few things I want to touch base on that are very real and sometimes serious matters. As you all know I am open honest and share the not so desirable topics to talk about or the taboo everyone wants to sweep under the rug and not talk about. I know how it is for me dealing with them and going through them with little to no help or people who understand. I hope by sharing it helps someone else to feel they are not alone and can even reach out and talk if they would like.

There has been a few things on my mind that I want to write about but just haven’t felt I had the time that is needed to put into them. I don’t know I have the right words to adequately describe how things are or feel.

I am also doing most these post from my phone right now and need to get my computer out and a place to set it up so I can really type and and not just peck and hunt. It just takes so long. And there are so many times I have to go back and fix things. It’s much faster to do it on the computer.

I will have moved our whole house around and finally have a place for a desk to set the computer up. I just have to find a desk to fit the spot I have. I am looking for a decent roll top desk. I had one before but had to get rid of it when I was getting divorced. I don’t know why but I really liked it would like to have another. Funny thing was when I said something about wanting one having one before JW said I had one in Seattle I really liked too. So we would like to find one. The ones we are finding right now are priced way to high. People are wanting$200 to $300 for used ones. They are not worth that used unless you have an antique or something and most are not. I may just get something else if I don’t find one soon.

{February 22, 2023}   Update 18 May/ June/ July 2022

I am sitting here thinking about it and I can not think of anything of importance that happen during this time. Maybe a few things here and there that I have either already put in another post or that will be in another some where some how. We were just working, I was doing visitation. But I wanted to say something so you knew I didn’t just miss three months of the year. I will blame it on baby brain and lac of sleep. If I think of anything later that should be included I will do another update.

{February 20, 2023}   Morbid

I had to share this if you are into true crime you will love this pod cast. I found it a few years ago when I started doing billing. I would listen to it through the day to get through the day. I started from the beginning and of course am caught up.

If you start at the beginning you will see things change over the years. The equipment gets better and they add a few staple serries I guess you would call them. They have listener tales I listen to these sometimes. Sometimes I skip them and go back later when I don’t have other things to listen too. They were doing a haunted roads I listen to a few but can’t get into them I mark them as listened to so it skips them. Other than that they do stories from all over the place. Some more recent others from way back. It’s a good mix and well researched. One I found interesting is the Black eyed kids episode.

Go give them a listen and tell them I sent you. If you start at one and feel it isn’t that great or what it really does get better. try listening to some new ones. Once you do you will want to go back and catch up. Let me know what you think.

I got this from over at Therapy Bits.

1. How frequently do you post on your blog? 

Not as often as I would like between work, kids and over all life. Sometimes 2 or 3 times a day sometimes weeks go by.

2.Do you believe there are optimum posting times and days?

I have noticed if things are posted by 10 a.m they seem to get more views.

3.Do you like to schedule your posts in advance ?

If I am doing daily challenges or something like that so that I don’t fall behind.

4.How many posts and how far ahead do you usually schedule? 

If I am doing a challenge I try to do a week at a time. While I am doing them if I see easy ones to answer or do ahead of time I will skip around and do them too.

{April 9, 2020}   Drug and Rehab Centers

I forget to check my spam comments sometimes so it can be pretty full when I do. I get like the rest of you sale’s this, porn that, scams and so on. Your run of the mill colorful mix.

I am not sure how these comments come about how they decide what to post where. But today was interesting I went in and had 10 comments, rather lite considering I have hardly been on in a while. But then again maybe that is why. Again I don’t know what makes them comment or why or when. But for some reason today everyone I had was for some drug treatment center and rehab. I guess the spam bots feel I have some drug problem that it is time to go to rehab for. Like if I did an advertisement for one would convince me to go.

I have had this dream house in mind for years, I feel it would work great for me and the kids. Everyone laughs and thinks it would be huge. I think it would be around the size of most average size houses around now days. Back few years ago it may have been a little big compared to most houses but now houses are no less than 3/4 bedrooms two bathrooms then all the other extra rooms. I want simple what we need to the point that is it really, but i want it to be usable space. Not so small you can’t do anything in them.

I want three floors The first will be a big open living space, kitchen, dinning, living area that opens to a nice big porch. I will have a library and guest bedroom and a bathroom down there as well.

The second floor will be the kids floor, it will have 4 bedrooms and two bathrooms. The bathrooms will be in between each set of bedrooms. I want the laundry room up there as well just makes it easier than dragging everything up and down the stairs and through the house.  Either end will have a room one for the older kids one for the younger kids or just rooms for them to hangout with their friends.

The 3rd floor will be mine, I will have my room and bathroom up there.

I want each floor to have a wrap around porch so that you can come out of any of the bedrooms and walk out onto the porch.

Ideally it will be secluded with trees and paths and all that kind of thing around. I don’t want to be right on top of everyone around me. We will have a barn and animals as well.

I don’t know if I will ever get my dream house or if it will change once I get to that point since my kids are all getting older now and I will only have two in the house another 2 or 3 years. Who knows they may stay longer and I will need room for all the grand kids they are talking about having right?


I wanted to get this up and going the first week of the month but I have been a little distracted with life and all that comes with it. Some good, some bad but getting through and doing alright. That’s other post later on. But since I didn’t get to really start last week we will get the ball rolling now.

So what does attract you when it comes to love?

This was a hard one for me for a long time and I think I have just come to really figure it out and even out a little bit. I have never been one to really judge anyone where ever they were at in life if they were trying and progressing in some way. I would consider or give a lot of people chances. not because I’m desperate or can’t get anyone but just because I know what it is like to be in hard spots, fall on tough times and know how hard it is to claw your way out of them sometimes.

But at the same time I think that I was maybe a little to understanding, over looked a little to much and helped make excuses. I do believe that everyone can move from where they are and move up if they want it bad enough and look in the right places. But you quickly learn that most are where they are because they are happy there and it is what works for them. Even if it isn’t that great. They have no desire or drive to have more. In order to have more they would have to put in more of an effort and get up and do something. Like maybe get a better job where they are working more than a few hours a week, or somewhere they make more money or they may need to get a 2nd job for a while.

It isn’t easy to pull yourself out of a bed spot. But when I look at where I was, where I have been, how far I have come and the fact that I have basically done it on my own, I can’t feel sorry for anyone or make excuses for anyone really. Because if I can do it then there is no reason a grow man not taking care of anything but himself can’t. I know a lot of single dads who are doing it as well who have their kids full time as well.

That is what really made it hit me one day. I was at the store and two or three grown men come up asking me for money. I am just looking at them like they have lost their minds. Most have nothing wrong with them but they need their next fix, you can tell. It made me mad I work my ass off they are doing this want want money. Then I started looking at others and where they are and what they are doing and where they were and how far they have or haven’t come and it is like is anyone really trying? It changed my views thoughts and opinion on a lot of things.

Anyway back to topic at hand here. What attracts you?

I am looking for someone that first and for most they have to have goals, ambitions or whatever you call them. I am always changing and always growing and always striving to do better, be better, have better. I like to do new things, try new things, change things up. I don’t want the best of the best, or feel like I need to be better than anyone or have better than anyone. I am happy with who I am and what I have at this point in life because I know it isn’t all there is and that if and when I want something different I can make that happen.

It is more about not being happy just existing, not being happy with just getting by or just mundane doing the same thing over and over again. You have to have a purpose in life or it just has no meaning. If someone don’t have that it is a no go for me. I can’t drag someone around or pull them up when they have no desire for anything more than what they are doing. I also can’t be happy just joining them where they are and sitting.

I want someone who is on level with me or damn near close. I do care where you are what you are doing where you came from how far you have come and what you are doing to keep going and get better do better have better or what.

I want someone that understands my kids come first and have to because I am all they have.

I need someone who is going to ask questions and wants to understan where I am coming from why I do what I do. Someone who I can have conversations with and get somewhere not just small talk.

I want someone who loves me for me not what I can do for them give them or have.

I want someone that wants a family not just a fling or girlfriend.

i wanted to do a 30 day challenge but could not find one that I liked so I decided to make my own list of topics and questions. As I searched the internet of list I took questions from different list and then expanded on them and added to them as I came up with my own questions. before I knew it I was up to over 60 topics and questions. As I thought about it challenges are great and fun at times but then you finish and fall back into your habits. If you are like me, I use them when I am in a rut or unmotivated to write. So I decided to keep adding to my list and skip the 30 or 60 day challenge and do a topic of discussion on Monday’s, Wednesday’s and Friday’s.

I will post a random topic or question for the day and give my take on it, then open up the floor for you all to weigh in on it. You can leave your answers in comments or make your own post and link it back to here.

Enough for the introduction lets get started with our first question/topic for the year.

Lets start with something lite and simple a get to know you kind of thing.

What do you collect?

I collect a few things, my main things are books and coins. My biggest collection so far is books. I have about 8 shelves full of books and books just randomly here and there and in boxes tucked places. I haven’t read near enough of them but one day I will. I use to read all the time before I had kids and when they were smaller and I wasn’t working had more time at home. One day I will have time to read again. Some I don’t know if I will ever read I just collect them because of the type they are or what they are. I collect biographies, auto biography’s, true crime all different ones.

My other collection is coins I use to collect all the time with my dad and even though I stopped he kept on. He left them to me when he passed. I don’t buy any or go out looking for them but I do collect change when I find old change. I collect anything from the 80’s and older. I toss it all in a jar one day I will go through it and see what I have. I have seen some things from the 40’s in there more than I would of though. I don’t know that they would be worth anything or not. I just haven’t had time to mess with it past from just dropping it in a jar.

So there you go topic of discussion Day one. So what do you collect?

{December 16, 2019}   The Really You Season 1—–Game 7

A little late but here is my answers for game 7 of The Really You


How Competitive or Ambitious are you?

I am pretty competitive, I hate to lose. And I don’t know if you would call it ambitious or spite but when I decide to do something I go at it full force. Most the time because something has made me mad and I am going to prove a point.

Do you ever simply stop and wonder ‘Where has time gone to?’ or is it something that never bothers you?

Yes a lot lately when the fact I am going to be 40 in a year hit me and I look back a few years to a time when I was happier.

If you had a warning label, what would yours read?

Funny but brutally honest.

et cetera
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