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{December 7, 2020}   A Day Trip With Sleeping Beauty

Me and Sleeping Beauty have been talking again for a little bit now. Two weeks before Thanksgiving that saturday, I dropped JW off at work and decided to go to some yard sales and things. I had a few I was going to go to then just make my way around to whatever I seen after that. Some how I ended up on the other side of the county than where they were. I was going to go up that way to check something first. Don’t even remember what. I went to some sales up there and didn’t see much really.
Sleeping Beauty messaged me we started talking. He asked what I was up to i told him, and really just looking for something to do. He said yeah he wad bored. He said the flea market in a town or two over was open was pretty busy when he was up there few weeks before. I said maybe I would che k it out. He ask who all was with me? I told him I was alone. He said he would go with me if I wanted. I told him okay I would be there in a bit. I was about 20 to 25 minutes away from him the place was about that from him. I figured maybe we would find something else going on once we got there.
I had the rental car a little Elantra. I pulled up he was looking funny trying to figure out who it was at first. He got in we talk about the car why i had it. We were on our way. We just kind of talked about anything and everything. Wouldn’t you know it started to rain. We got to the flea market there was almost no one there. We walked through and checked out some cars in the parking lot and went to leave. I was waiting to pull out trying to decide what to do now because with rain there would be no sales anymore either.

I thought about it I looked at him and said you want to go to Daytona? He looked at me for a minute said really? I said yeah I have all day and no where to be or anything to do. We are only an hour away or less.

He said yeah why not he had nothing to do. So we were off to the flea market in Daytona. We knew rain or shine they would be open it is all inside for the most part. Some in side in mall like area. We must of walked around the place 5 times. We think we were dome and see ares we hadn’t been and then tried to find our was back to a booth where we seen some stuff we wanted. We finally said okay I think we have seen everything at least twice now if not we don’t even know we are missing anything lets go.

I said something about something why we were looking for the car. He jokingly said you want to go to Bass Pro Shop. I said okay why not. I was thinking of the one at home on the other other end of the county but hey nothing to do waste some time why not. We finally found our way through the maze of a parking lot and got on the street. He started telling me what way to go. It hit me duh they have one here too. We got there and seen a sign for Skip’s Western store so we decided to go there too. Then by one they had all these tents and things set up and music playing. We decided to walk over see what that was. It was a art show there were a few people with crafts, food and drinks. So we walked around and checked that all out. When we were done there we headed home. We were going to stop by the leather shop but I missed the exit and we were not 100% sure where it was. He didn’t know what I was talking about and I just remembered seeing it between his house and where we were almost two hours away. He messaged me a few days later and told me he found it not far from his house. I guess it is new up there we went one way there and part of the way back we went a different way.

We were on the way there or back and JW messaged me. We were talking i said something about it being him. He said don’t tell him I am with you. I said why? He said you don’t need him pissed off at you or us. I said no he won’t care. I already told him where I was and you were with me. He ask what he said. I told him nothing just be careful or what with wet roads and just being off away from home that far alone or what. That i told him he was with me he said oh okay.

Sleeping Beauty said he done get mad you talk to other guys or hang out with them? I said no he has met most my guy friends or knows them from when we were in school. He knows they all message me we talk and things. He knows I’m not out “running around”. I am just out with a friend just like if BFF was with me instead. He was kind of surprised.

But it is true he knows I am not looking to get with anyone else I am not like that. Even though he don’t like him he knows we are friends and we talk. I give him a ride once in awhile and things. That was the first time we have hung out in years other than when the group would get together and he would come. He isn’t the type to say I don’t like him you can’t talk to him or I would rather you not talk to him. He wouldn’t unless he really did something wrong or something happen he didn’t like.

After I got home I thought of the boardwalk. I messaged him and said we should of went. I was home by 330 didn’t have to be until 730 really. I didn’t have to be then JW would of gotten a ride home. But for me that is were I feel it is kind of crossing a line that shouldn’t be. I am doing what I want to all day be it whoever I am with, I feel I should at least be there to pick him up and spend time with him. But That is me. He tells me all the time do what you want to do don’t rush home because of me I can get a ride it isn’t a big deal. If I don’t have to work and I am there if I don’t wake up when he gets up or why he is getting ready for work sometimes he won’t wake me up. He will call his buddy to pick him up on his way in. Once I didn’t feel good and ask him too he rode his bike. I told him i would take him if he couldn’t he didn’t wake me and say he didn’t call him back. He knows I don’t go off like that all the time I always take him unless i have somewhere to be early. Like I said it isn’t like he says you better be here when I get off or gets all bent out of shape i am out or doing something. It is just how I feel about it.

With Father of the Year he would of been mad I went, he would of been mad who sent with me, and that he couldn’t go. Oh if i said I am going to be home later we are doing this or that or even hey accident we got stuck in traffic caused us not to get back he would be going through the roof. It is nice not having to be in someone’s ass 24/7 and them not think twice about and tell you don’t rush don’t worry about it i can get a ride. Oh you got out of the house today did something with a friend thats great glade you had fun. Wish I didn’t have to work but glad you were able to do something. Not someone who thinks you should sit in the house and wait for them to get home like the dog. All just because they have to work can do something too. It didn’t matter if i was going alone taking the kids somewhere or me and my sister doing stuff with the kids. I just flat shouldn’t be doing anything. But sitting waiting until he could go and until he wanted too.

The longer I am away from him, the longer me and JW are together and things happen even as simple as this. I realize more and more how bad it really was with him.

Now that I have rambled on off topic i really need to get off of here. It is 4 am I have to be up at 645/7. It is now just a blink away I should get some sleep for work in the morning. I fell a sleep for a short time and was woke up couldn’t get back to sleep. Hopefully I can now. I will try to catch you up more later today. Until then good night, or should that be good morning?



{November 11, 2018}   Investor Needed

I need someone with more money than they know what to do with and who wants to invest in some worth wild causes. If not then I need someone with the know how to get grants and things to get some good ideas off the ground. I know there are all kinds of government grants, scholarships, loans and things that you can get to do all kinds of things but I have no idea where to start or how to get them. If I did there are so many things I could do that would help better things for me and in the long run a lot of others in my situation and more. It is just so hard when you do not have the upfront money and things. I can come up with the idea, get it in action and make it happen I just don’t know the other end of coming up with the money. I don’t even know where to start or who to even talk to about such a thing. It is frustrating because I know a lot and willing to put in the grunt work and handle it all but this one thing that I don’t know how to do or where to start is stopping me and there are so many scams and things out there I don’t want to try and go it on my own and figure it all out because I don’t want to get caught in scams and waste time and money I don’t have. Most people don’t want to talk to you if you don’t have a perfect credit score or a ton of money to invest as well. It is just so hard because I also have to work and things.

If I had someone willing to invest then I could just get to work on making things happen, getting the ball rolling on what we want to do. I could do that around my other work and things. Wonder if I place adds places if I would get any hits or takers. Where to even place the adds I don’t know. To bad I couldn’t find something that didn’t take a ton of money to start that would make quick money fast that I could do from home and around my other jobs.

All this free time at work has my mind all over the place and thinking about everything and and ideas. I don’t know if that is a good thing or a bad thing. I wonder if I should talk to my boss here at the escape room see how he got started and things, what advice he could or would give me or if he just think I was insane and crazy. I know he had a partner or has I think that he got rid of him not long ago I don’t know. But he got started somewhere to have this place and be opening another one states away. I don’t know how he got the money the idea the partner if he had money before or what kind of background he had before he done this. I may ask him and his wife if we could sit down and talk. It is hard to judge how he will respond how much or if any help he will be. It just all depends the mood you catch him in. I will have to think about that. It sucks because it seems around here no one is willing to really help anyone else even with just information because it might take a dollar away from them. Maybe one day I will find the right person and figure it all out. I just keep coming back to I need to I need to figure this out and make at least one of these ideas I have happen when I am thinking about all this and what to do and how to do things. That if I get one in motion then I can get others after I get me and the kids settled. I just don’t know.



{September 15, 2018}   Birthday Advinture

Today my little guy turns 8, not sure where the years have gone. When we were talking the other day about what to do he told me he wanted to go do something with just me and him. I wanted to go to the zoo and do the zipline and opsticalcourse over the zoo. But then I seen it was going to be closed the day we were going. He wasn’t sure about how high up it was either. So I told him they had the kayaks he said he would like to do them.

We were going to just do them and be done go home. We got there as soon as they opened to get in and out before it got busy or rained. We made our way back to them and they were not open for another hour. Then the girl running it ended up being someone I knew. We talked to her a bit and she said if you really want to see the animals the best time to do it was between 10:30 and 11:30. They would all be let out into their yards and things. So we walked around and seen the rest of the zoo. I wanted to go back at 11 but we got there late and missed it. We went to ride the train and it wasn’t going again for another 20 minutes then took like 15 minutes. By then we would of missed the next outting for the kayaks. We had went to do paddle boats before why we waited and they did away with them but haven’t taken them off the sighn. We decided we would wait and do the train after we were finished with kayaking. We went back over ther and I told him I would get him a icepop. I went to pay with my card they said I had to buy at least $10 worth of stuff. I got a water and told them to put a thing on there to feed the one of the animals. We had tried to feed it earlier they could not take my card at all so we went to the train. So he put that on the paper and I stuck it in my pocket. He ate his pop thing and we went on our kayaking tour.

We had never done this before. What an adventure that turned out to be. We were left by the others but finally got going once I got little guy to stop working against me. In a minute a older guy came up he said e was a volunteer there he gave us the tour. By the time we were done with out 30 minute tore turned 45 or more we were hot tired and ready to go.

We left without doing the train ride or feeding the animals that we paid for. Oh well he had fun and was excited. I got him cupcakes for tonight and told him we will get together with friends and family between now and his brothers beday and do cake and things for the two of them together. His bday is the 29th of this month.

I ended up having to come to work tonight I thought I was going to be off.



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