I was talking to Bff yesterday and we decided to go ahead and go out last night. We have been talking about changing it to a different night but we all just needed it. I told her that I may see if Mr. Responsible wanted to come hang out and asked if she wanted to meet me over by where I work at night. but we decided it was better to just go where we always go. I told her I would just pick him up bring him with me and take him home when we were done. I really didn’t think he was going to go but told her I was going to ask him.
Before I could message him he messaged me and asked what I was doing? I told him waiting for 10 and asked what he was doing? He said waiting on me to come over so he could make me a drink. I laughed and told him to come go out with me and told him I would pick him up. He asked if I would bring him home like I am going to go and leave him somewhere or something. I don’t know what that was all about. Then he asked if he had to shave and how nice he would have to dress. I told him it be nice if he shaved. That no one was dressing up, that I was just finishing 12 hours of work I wasn’t dresses up. I was in my jeans and a nice shirt same I would of put on had I been home and was going out.
He wanted to know where we were going he didn’t have much money and everything. I said look not much just get ready and go your fine none of us have much we just hang out. He said okay. That he needed money to get drinks and things. I said well if you want to get into what you have saved that is fine but you will probably bring it home with you. He said okay. I finally got off work and went to pick him up.
I headed to go meet everyone, he started talking. He said man I wasn’t even going to go out tonight I just wanted to hangout at the house. He said but you always come and hang out with me anytime I call you if your free your down to hangout even if we just go out to the lake or go have a few drinks or sit at the house you always come see me. He said I had to come. We got there and we were walking across the parking lot and he started saying something about my butt and talking about when we use to go to church together and things. We were all laughing when we walked in and found them they were looking at us. He started to say something about it after we sat down and he stopped he was like oh wait I don’t know if you want me to tell them that or not. I said I don’t care you can tell them and laughed I said there is nothing bad.
He said she use to come sit in the pew at church right in front of me and then she would be standing there during service and rock and sway and taking care of them babies. He said her butt was just right there. He said here we are sitting in church my wife is sitting right there and her husband I guess you can call him was right there. He said but i couldn’t help it, you can’t not notice when she is standing there swaying and rocking with them babies. They were laughing.
Bff and sleeping Beauty were the only ones there. Her aunt wasn’t there, she was at the fair and called later but wouldn’t come out. On the way over there I said I am not sure who all is going to be there. He said what do you mean? I said there is a group of us that go but I don’t know who all out of the group is going to be there. He said wait Bff is going to be there right? I said yes but I don’t know who else. He said well that is all that matters is that she is there. I know she is your Bff he said she knows how things are between you and me or what is going on right? I said yeah she knows it isn’t a big deal. I wasn’t even sure if Sleeping Beauty was going to be there or not. He had said he was but we all know how that is and Bff had said something about talking to him when he got home I figured even if he was going to he may not after that.
We ordered drinks and sat there and talked. I ordered a salad and then a tea. I couldn’t even drink my drink when I got it. Mr. Responsible said something about me needing to drink my drink or something. Sleeping Beauty said on no she don’t either and something about me drinking. What would happen or something. He said she drinks those when she is with me all the time. Her drink I said that or jack and coke or screw drivers. He said she be alright. Sleeping Beauty said moonshine Blackberry moonshine all I got to say. I said oh no I’m not drinking that shit no more I done told you that kind or any kind.
Him and sleeping Beauty got along pretty good. They are talking about going camping and fishing and when we can all get together and go. I don’t think Mr. Responsible really understands or knows who sleeping beauty is or what. I said something about it when we left but he been drinking wasn’t getting it. I don’t care it don’t bother me. I just don’t want something coming up later him saying I didn’t know this or that why didn’t you tell me or what? I don’t think he would but you never know with guys.
It is about 25 miles or so from where I picked him up and the place we all go. We talked on the way. He ask if bff knew how things were between us and things. He said good I’m not ready for a relationship I am working on me and I got a lot of work to do. He said I’m not asking you to wait for me or not talk to other guys or nothing like that. He said we know what we are doing. I like you I really do but I don’t want to hurt you and I would because I need to fix me.
Then again he started telling me how I am the only girl he talks to and hangs out with or has anything to do with. Something else was said. I said its alright I understand or know what you mean. I said I didn’t date or talk to anyone for 4.5 years I had to work on me and getting my life straight. I said don’t worry about it you don’t have to explain it to me.
At the same time he says all this its like he wants me to say I’m not talking to anyone else either or going out. Just the way he says it and things. I don’t because I do talk to other guys and date. If he isn’t into more then that is fine but I am looking for more than just someone to hang out with.
Like I told bff yesterday I don’t think I am really interested in more with him anyway. And I figured out that is the thing these guys all just want to hang out be friends or what and by the time they decide they want more I have seen enough that I’m not interested anymore. They have decided okay she isn’t playing games or like the rest. I’m over here like okay glad I seen this or that and found out about that before we did this.
If we were already in a relationship it be different it isn’t like I would leave over it. But it is like why get in a relationship knowing its there. Like with him he has really let himself go, he has gain a lot of weight, he has health problems that he won’t go get taken care of and he drinks a lot more than he says or use to.
He is talking about wanting to lose and get in shape. That is good but he still needs to do something about his health problems. The drinking I do not mind to a point. But I don’t like it when its to much all the time. I don’t like being around him after he has had so much. It’s no longer fun. If we were in a relationship it would be something we would be talking about but I don’t know that it would be any good to. That I really don’t if he would change or could. It could turn into a problem and be something I would leave over. The health problems we talked about a few times but he just makes excuses.
Some how money came up he said I have money, well I don’t have money but I have a little bit but I am saving it for my license. He said he had money on his card for the week but he didn’t want to spend that then he wouldn’t have any for the week. He said he got a little out of the safe. He said I’m not making a ton but I am able to put some up and save still pay what I need have money for the week and a little in my pocket for extra if you come by or me and my roommate decide to go do something. He said not like I have a lot and my savings i am saving to pay my stuff off.
I said I know what you mean I am working 60 hours a week and carrying a whole house with bills and 4 kids 100% on my own. No state help or child support. I may have a little extra now and then or be able to do things with the kids now but I still don’t have money. So I get it.
He said I know your not a stupid bitch. He turned put his hands up toward me and said your not a bitch. I’m not calling you a bitch. I think he thought I was going to knock the hell out of him. Then he said that’s why I like hanging out with you, you’er not stupid. You are down to earth you get it. Your doing it on your own you know how it is. I wouldn’t call you a bitch. He said you are just so cool and you are going places. He said I have watched you grow and you have come so, so far and you are going to go so much further. He said your so smart and you don’t just sit around you get up and you make it happen. He said you have dreams, man I love your dreams. He said just little bit of property some horses and things for your kids. He said so simple laid back. He said you take care of them babies and do so good with them and for them.
I said something about having to go and Sleeping Beauty said you drove all that way over here for an hour and your going to go? I said I still have to make the drive to take him home then drive it back home. I have to get home to the kids. Sleeping Beauty said something and Mr. Responsible said no she has to go home to them babies. We all had a good time everyone wants to get back together and hangout. Next time they are going to come down by where I am working and he lives so I don’t have to turn around drive all the way back down there and come back. We can hangout longer. Maybe we will just go hangout at his house have a fire and drinks or something or go play pool.
Mr. Responsible asked the waitress for his check when she came back around so that we could go. She asked how it was split up because they were there before us and then we came in and everything. He told her he was on his own. I didn’t think anything of it, I knew he had taken money out of his savings and things and I never expect him to pay when we go out, I always pay for mine when I go out on Wednesday. She went to get the checks and I told him I needed out for a minute. He asked why where I was going. I said I was going to the truck I had left my card out there. I don’t take my cards or money into work with me and I forgot to grab it when we got out. He said your card for what? I said I have to pay for my drinks and food. He said girl what are you talking about? I said I have to pay her when she gets back with the check. He said oh shit honey I’m sorry I wasn’t even thinking about your stuff put it on mine. I said no I can pay for it that isn’t a problem I have the money I just didn’t put my card back in my pocket when I left work. He said girl get out of here you know I have it. I would of told her to start with I just wasn’t thinking, I was talking. She came back up and he told her he forgot and to add mine onto his and he paid it.
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