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{August 6, 2019}   I Color To Much

For someone who has two jobs and all the other crap I have to deal with. My oldest showed me these apps that you can download and color pictures. They are color by number.

I don’t know why I do them other than they are a distraction something to keep my mind and hands busy. The racing thoughts at bay to a point. They creep in but then I can push them out quickly most the time.

I use to play this block game like tetres but it gets old after a while. The coloring does to a point but I finish a picture pretty fast and move on to the next. There are all different ones from hard to super easy to people animals holidays art and more.

I was doing then at my night job to pass time when there is nothing to do. Now I find myself doing them more and more during the day at that job. If they did not cone out with a handful of new ones everyday I would of probably ran out all ready.



{February 4, 2017}   Found It

I finally found the living room set that I want it is the same one that I have wanted for a while but didn’t want to pay the price that it was. I was looking for something less at the time. I ended up with the set with all the recliners and things in it that I had to give back when Father of the year stopped paying. I stopped at the store here by me that I got it from a few years ago and he said they didn’t have any that he thought he was getting one from another store for their tent sale. He called and said no they didn’t have one. I don’t know if he called the store I went to or a different one. But he said if I found one it would be pretty old because they had stopped selling them but was just starting to get them again. He told me he could get it for me new I asked him to look it up tell me a price, when he looked it up they have changed it. It is black and gray now not just black. I did not like it at all.

Today when I picked the kids up I decided to go pick my guns up and to look at a few stores up in that area. I started at the store like the one here by me that I get stuff at a lot of times but they didn’t really have anything at all I liked. They are remodeling and didn’t have a lot either. I then went to another store I found out about up that way that I have bought from in the past and like. The lady said they have been there for 60 some years in that location but I had never seen them there before at all. I use to be up by there all the time but they are kind of hidden and They don’t even really have the name of the store out there. They are on a little side street. I found a love seat marked down that I liked there but they still wanted a lot more than what I was paying for the set I just got rid of for it and the couch. I was going to look at the store over by Father of the Year and see if they had the couch on sale if I could get one from one place and the other from the other and get it for about half of what she was asking for the two so I told her I may come back and tomorrow. I didn’t tell her what I waned to check.

Then I went across town to the other store that I do not like dealing with but are the only ones that carry the set that I like. I did not expect to find it at all but thought I may find something else that I liked. I really don’t want to settle again. I told the three to stay in the truck I was just walking in the door looking around and running back out. My oldest ran in with me. As soon as we walked in the door there set my set I wanted and it looked like brand new. Looked like it just came off the truck and had been unwrapped new. I kind of gasped said that is the set I have been looking for!! My oldest said really it is? Because she don’t remember us having it before and what it looked like. I looked at the price and it was more than I wanted to pay by a lot. The lady came over and started talking to us I asked her about it. She said it came in a set the two sides, the foot rest, tables, lamps, rug and other stuff. I said I don’t want all that. She said but it’s all a set together. I said I don’t need or want all that I just want the couch and rest that is it. She said I can see what I can do and if I can get a price for just the three pieces like she had to sell it all together. I just said okay, because I now that if you just want the couch set they sell them like that all the time. They are just trying to push you to buy more to make a bigger sell.

In a few minutes she told me a price me and my oldest were talking it over, I wanted it really bad but I just didn’t know if I should put myself out for so much. But like I told her I have twice the money to fix my truck set a side so that would be a chunk of money I could put toward it, I am going to try again to sell my set and think that with it being tax time that between now and march I should be able to sell it. People were stopping and looking at it left and right and thought it was a great price. But it was so close to Christmas that they had to do that instead. Right now is when a lot of people get new stuff. I think only hold up might be them holding tax checks until the end of the month almost. But I have time to pay on this and money to pay on it right now so it should be good.

Anyway, me and her were talking about different stuff and if I should do it or should I just wait and things. They said they have the 6 months same as cash but that would run out August. We went back and forth I wanted it so bad and know that it is worth it compared to what I have seen and the prices I am getting for used stuff and it was new. It’s like here buy this set that is pretty faded or warren for $200 or buy this brand new set for $$350. It was really a easy decision to make hands down, but my thought was maybe I would get lucky and find something cheaper like maybe $100 or $150 (of course not really figures just for instance). But I knew I really wouldn’t and if I didn’t take this one I was going to pay the same or close to the same for something I didn’t like as much and it would be used. She said this one was but for a really really short time. If it ever left the store I would be surprised because it looks like it has never been sat on. Knowing they changed it and were not even going to make it and that if I decided to get it in a few days and it was gone that was just it I couldn’t even order it at that point as well.

I asked her what if I go over the 6 months and don’t have it paid off? Do I pay the remainder of the lease agreement whatever it would work out to for 24 months or do they prorate it some how? The guy said no you pay off the full amount of whatever it would be for the 24 months. I said on I better wait then I don’t want to end up doing that. He asked why and I told him that if I knew I could pay it off by the end of September but wasn’t sure if I could pay it off before that. He said oh you just need and extra month? I told him I have money coming in from about three or 4 places but  I can only count on what I bring in myself and know I have arranged to bring in and that I can only use that as a factor into when I could pay it off. I said I can probably pay it off in the 6 months but I can’t say for sure that I can. He said no probably we will give you until The end of September and told the lady to note it in my account.

I said if they would give me until then to pay it off then I would take it because I knew I had money coming in then that I could pay it with. I filled out the paperwork the lady put it all in the computer printed up the contract and everything and said her GM had to go over it with me and have me sign everything. I am standing there waiting and out walks the guy that we had trouble with when I was with RC and then later when I first rented this set had trouble with at the store that is by me. I went to the store that is by me then to not have to deal with him and he had moved to that store. Then the last few times I was in there he wasn’t there I though the was gone. Nope he is now the GM and was up there. I don’t know if he knew who I was because the name was different and I cut my hair but I think by the way he talked he was trying to figure out. If he looked at my little one he probably was really wondering because he knew RC well so I am sure he could tell she looked like him. Maybe trying to figure out who for sure to. But he was going over the contract and then told me to sign here. I said is it in there that I have until the end of September to pay it off? He said no August 8th I think he said. I said no he told me I could have until the end of September. He said who I was holding my little one I said him because the guy was standing right there. He said who him? I said the guy right here I pointed to him. I said we were just talking about it. He asked him if he told me that he said yes. Then he wanted to know why he told me that? He said I just told her we would extend it a month like we do with everyone if they need and extra month or couple weeks to pay it off. He said yeah but she already has 6 we only do that because they only get 4 months. They talked a minute and he didn’t like it but he wrote it down then as 9/2 I said no he said the end of the month. He said what the end of the month? I said yes because I will get money in September I know I can get it paid off but I won’t have it until the end of the month or close to it. He said so she getting 8 months to pay it off! The guy said no still 7 from February to September is only 7 months. But I guess if you consider we are only at the start of this month and it is a short month, but he didn’t have to agree to do it. I just ask if I pay off early but after my same as cash deadline if I had to pay it all off for the 24 months or if there was a early buy out. The other places if you miss it they prorate it. He knew I was thinking about leaving it there for a few weeks and taking a chance of it being there to be able to pay it off when I needed to. That still wouldn’t have worked because if they only give you 4 months most the time then I couldn’t have gotten it at all because even if I waited a few weeks it would put it due the end of August or the start of September. I wasn’t thinking about that at the time. He just said yes it would be no problem. The GM was not happy but if he had said they couldn’t do I would have just told them to not worry about it. He wasn’t happy about it but he wrote down I had until the 38 th of September to pay it off same as cash and told them to note the account. I should have it the first two weeks of the month but just in case I like to cover my butt an didn’t want to have to worry about trying to pay rent, water, lights, and it all at one time around the first. Then he asked when I wanted it delivered and said we have something Monday and was starting to say more. I said he told me they could bring it tomorrow. He said oh boy they are not going to be happy tomorrow with him they have so much to do and wrote it down. He said between 10 and 4. I said 10 and 4 do you have any idea one way or the other that they will be there? I am a few cities over from them so I don’t figure they have other drops or pick up by me. Are they going to drop around town first and come to me or are they going to drop mine then go back that way. Was what I was getting at but he said they would call when they were about 30 minutes away. I just said ok because I plan to be here all day tomorrow other than if I have to run up to the store to grab something or to feed the chickens. If they really call when on their way I can be here by the time they get here. I pretty much plan to be at home after running the last two nights then having that coming tomorrow. My house needs to be cleaned good floors have to be mopped before they come and I have all my homework to get done because this week flew by. I was just going out to look for a couch and now I don’t have to. My friend is coming over in the morning to hang out she was going to run around with us but now we aren’t she still wants to come over get out of her house and hang out so that is what we are going to do.

I don’t know why I like this set so much but I do it is really kind of plain it’s just a black corduroy type fabric an the bottom and arms are that stuff that looks like leather but I’m sure it is’t real leather. But it is nice even though it is kind of simple when it come down to it. Like I said last night I like color but at the same time when it comes to sectionals I like them in black not a lot of colors look good on on them I don’t think anyway. couch I do not like the billows that are on it but they come with it, when I had it before I tossed them in the closet. I want to find some that have the colors of my rug in them and put on it to just break it up a little bit since it is black. This is the best picture I could find on line of it but I like it and I like I can move the ottoman around and turn it this or that way and it will take up less room and it will work for extra seating for like the kids if I have people over. I can also put the little kids reclining chairs in the living room now for them to sit in since this will not take up near as much room as the other sets I have seen. This isn’t big and bulky to take up room in a truck when I decide to move. I think I will be a lot happier with it because it is the one I was debating about buying all along and I have had it and liked it in the past. I also think it is small enough I can put it on either side of my living room where as before I could only put couch and love seat on the same two walls all the time never able to move it around.

When the GM got done going over the papers and said they would be out tomorrow I asked him how much I needed to pay on it tonight he said first month or when I wanted my payment to be? I asked him if I could pay him now but make it so my normal payment was due in the middle of the month he said something. I said here how much is my monthly payment $90 something? Let me do it like this. He stopped me and said well no if you want to pay it off by September it would be and started figuring it all out. I said no I don’t want to double up or add on to my payments to get it paid off by then. I said I am going to pay it off by then but I am doing to do it different so I will just pay my monthly price he gave told me. I said I will give you $180.60 for two months then I will come back in and pay you and get my payment date taken care of then so it won’t be at the first of the month. He was just like oh well um ok. I could tell he got mad because I wasn’t going to let him double up on my payments or what to make sure it would be paid off by then. But that isn’t how it works you pay weekly, monthly, by weekly or whatever like that and if you pay it off by the same as cash great if not oh well better for them more money for them. He should be happy I don’t want to double up on my stuff. But he is just an asshole. He is the one that gave me nothing but run around the last time and who gave me and RC run around over turning in a tv he had half paid off because by the time he would have had it paid off it wasn’t worth it. He could have a better tv for less than what he had left to pay on that one and bigger at the other place. We ask them to come and get it, we told them we weren’t going to pay on it anymore and even took it there took it inside to drop it off and they would not take it and give us papers showing we turned it in. They ended up knocking hundreds of dollars off of it to try and get us to keep it. Pointless because they could have just re-rented it and got their money but they don’t want to show it come back in. I just want to get this paid off so I can get tables to go with it. I could have gotten some but I didn’t like any they had and I didn’t want to put my self out for more than I have. I need to buy a few rugs for the house too so I rather have them than tables and I can maybe find tables cheaper if I watch sales and things.

I am just happy I found my set I wanted and in new shape. I better go to bed so I can get up and get ready for them tomorrow. Maybe once it gets here I will take a picture and post if it looks better than that one.



{January 12, 2017}   Much Easier to Care For

When I dropped the little kids off at school today my Big Guys teacher and one of the kids in his class parents was talking about my hair and how much they liked it. Then when we got outside going back to my truck the other kids mom stopped me and was talking about it. She was saying how good it looked and how nice it looked on me. Then she said it is so much easier to take care of to you are going to love it.

When I sent the picture to my good friend he said the same thing it will be a lot easier to take care of now.

When I picked the big kids up the teachers and everyone were talking about it and how good it looked and how they liked it. They started talking about how easy it will be to take care of.

When I took the kids to therapy the lady at the shop down stairs stopped me and was telling me how good it looked and how it would be so easy to take care of now that it is shorter.

I started wondering did everyone think I spent a ton of time on my hair and styled it every day when it was long? Did it really look like I spent time on it and styled it? Or are they saying I didn’t spend enough time on it and didn’t style it and it was a hot mess all the time? I really think it was the first that maybe they think I took time to do it every morning because they say it will take you less time and will be like I would get a break now.

What do you think?

I think it is rather funny because I never styled my hair ever when it was long. I washed towel dried and sometimes got to brush it and went. I never put any spray, moose, gel or anything like that in it. I never thought it looked all that great but didn’t think it looked bad either. It was just hair and it was just there. I wasn’t trying to really do anything with it but grow it out. Kind of defeated my purpose yesterday when I cut it all off.



{January 10, 2017}   Cut it All Off

Today after counselling I stopped at my friends barber shop to see how she was doing. I hadn’t seen her since sometime last year around Thanksgiving I think. I went in she was slow and cutting on her hair. She decided to dye mine again. She did it a auburn color and then we cut it. My hair was down between my shoulder blades. We cut it all off really short it is not even on my neck it is just below my ears. She fixed it and things it looked good. I am not sure I like it. I have wavy hair and thought it would have more curl or wave to it. I don’t know maybe I didn’t let her cut it short enough in the front. I wanted to keep my bangs long because I hate short bangs. I just got home a little bit ago from the chicken club meeting. I took a shower and washed it to get the spray and things out. I wanted to see how it would look if it dried naturally. When she blow dried it it takes the curl out some. It’s not doing what I excepted at all. I am wondering if I had some moose and put in it or if I cut it shorter if it would curl more. I just hate the thought of having my bangs to short over my forehead.

I sent a picture to my friend he said um you cut your hair? I said yeah wanted to try something different not sure about it. He never answered. I said that bad he still didn’t answer. I think he is one that likes long hair.  My other friend ask what I was doing earlier I was just getting done I sent her a picture she said you cut all your hair off. My friend J said it looked nice I am sure she was shocked to see it too. Everyone will be because I have always had longer hair. One time back in high school I cut it off up past my ears. It was down past my butt when I cut it off then all at once. I just text my good friend pictures he said that was a big change. I hadn’t showed him yet either I wanted to wait until I washed it and played with it a little. I like it just washed and left to dry look better than the way she had it. I don’t know how I feel about it, it is not bad at all it really is a big change since I have only done this one other time and when I done it before it had no curl or wave to it. It was pencil straight so it is different this time than it was then and most of my friends now didn’t know me then other than my good friend. They are all use to me having it at least middle of my back. They all have long hair to so they like long hair.

I am still shocked my one friend didn’t say anything, I know he was shocked. I should have said um hey you shaved your head I’m not allowed to cut mine? Not like we are more than friends. I know he wants to be or thinks about being more but I don’t think we will ever be more than what we are or become more than what we have done. We see each other when it works out we are both free and can get together and that is about it. He wanted me to come over this weekend I was thinking about going but don’t know yet.

It’s just hair it will grow back sometime. until then I will get use to it. Funny thing is no one at all has said anything about the color change. They can’t get past how short it is. It is different for sure. I got out of the shower and I was holding my head back to put the towel around my back so that my hair wouldn’t lay on my back and be under the towel. I hate for my wet hair to be on my skin( I know I am Weird) and there was nothing there. I was like oh yeah. I bent over to wrap it in the towel and dry it. I had way to much shampoo and conditioner when I was washing it too because I am so use to washing all this hair that is gone now.



{August 12, 2016}   New Hair Cut

I stopped by my friends shop to waste some time while I waited on the older kids to get out of school because I didn’t figure I would have time to go to the DMV. After her customers left she got a hold of me. She cut and dyed my hair for me. We got the dye in and I had to run and get the kids and go back. Her shop is right across the street from the kids school. I just had to drive across and around a side street a block or so to get to the back of the buildings. Then I went back and let her finish it up. I don’t know if I like it yet or not. She layered it, got all the frizz, dead ends and things out of it. It is a little shorter than I would like I know but I know she had to go short with it to get it all off. I would rather just cut most of it off now and not have to keep waiting on it to grow and cut it over and over to get it all off.

Really it probably needed a little more cut off but but I didn’t want to cut it that short. But it won’t be that much to cut off later. It was about mid way down my back and is right no my shoulders now. I told her I didn’t have the money to get anything done to it right now she did it anyway. I will go by when I get my money and pay her and tip her well for doing it for me. She was a single mom too and knows how it is.



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