{September 7, 2018}   So Much To Say but Can’t

My mind has been racing like crazy today about anything and everything. I have so many thoughts and things that I am trying to figure out and want to talk about and I just can’t seem to get them straight and put into words.

I am sitting here at work have been for 3 hours now. Haven’t had a phone call or person walk in yet and nothing on the books tonight at all. I have 4 more hours to go and then nothing really to do but bring chairs and tables in shut everything off and lock up.

I am getting a few extra hours tonight but then I am not working tomorrow night so that kind of cancelles everything out. I got here and the boss and the other girl I was supposed to work with was here. Boss said she didn’t really want to close if I wanted to I could pick up extra hours or I could go home because I wasn’t needed. I told him that was fine I would take the extra hours and close tonight because I didn’t know if I was going to make it in tomorrow or not. He said that was fine because we both were not going to be needed tomorrow anyway. One of us would of been called and told not to come in. Most likely her because she leaves early Saturdays and I close. They don’t send the closer home. So we basically just ended up trading days we close because we both would of been cut hours with me going home not working today her not being called in tomorrow. I was here already set to work and nothing to do tonight anyway. So why not let her go do what she wanted with her family and I can do what I want to do tomorrow. I just said I had personal things going on with dealing with ex’s and things. I didn’t know how tomorrow was going to go and there for didn’t know if I would make it in or not. Kind of true kind of not. I may still have to meet with ex tomorrow with the kids. And that could turn out bad and is going to be a lot of stress no matter what. I have been dealing with a lot of stress with everything going on I need a break. And I hope if we end up going out to talk and get some advice.

Boss said he had some days this month he was going to need some help he was going to need me for sure a few days. He said unless you get another job then I understand that you have to be there and honer that first. I said honestly i have been doing interviews this week I have one that I may start in the next week or so. If I do it will be Mon-Sat 9 to 6. He said then you probably are not going to want to keep your Sunday. I said probably not but I have to take it because it is good pay. He said no I understand and you have to do what you have to do for you and your family. He said please just let me know as soon as you do and get with me about working out if you still want to stay on once in a while here. Just do on call in the evening now and then or something like that or what. I told him okay.

{August 1, 2018}   Code Enforcment

I guess someone called about the grass and I don’t know what else. I haven’t called them back to see but they said some violations. I have nothing else for them to of called on but i am sure they picked the place apart when they came. I am so aggervated. I know it is my fault. I just have not had the money to take care of it. My mower broke and its to big and thick to cut with the one i had. That is why it broke trying to cut this yard with it.

I went to the rental place to try and get one but it cost more than paying someone. My friend has done it a few timez but her mower has a problem she is waiting to get it back. Grass grows so fast here it needs cut all the time it seems like every few days it looks bad.

Something else to deal with and now the management company and owner have been brought into it. That is never good dealing with them. They are so rude and nasty. I am dreading calling them.

{January 12, 2017}   Much Easier to Care For

When I dropped the little kids off at school today my Big Guys teacher and one of the kids in his class parents was talking about my hair and how much they liked it. Then when we got outside going back to my truck the other kids mom stopped me and was talking about it. She was saying how good it looked and how nice it looked on me. Then she said it is so much easier to take care of to you are going to love it.

When I sent the picture to my good friend he said the same thing it will be a lot easier to take care of now.

When I picked the big kids up the teachers and everyone were talking about it and how good it looked and how they liked it. They started talking about how easy it will be to take care of.

When I took the kids to therapy the lady at the shop down stairs stopped me and was telling me how good it looked and how it would be so easy to take care of now that it is shorter.

I started wondering did everyone think I spent a ton of time on my hair and styled it every day when it was long? Did it really look like I spent time on it and styled it? Or are they saying I didn’t spend enough time on it and didn’t style it and it was a hot mess all the time? I really think it was the first that maybe they think I took time to do it every morning because they say it will take you less time and will be like I would get a break now.

What do you think?

I think it is rather funny because I never styled my hair ever when it was long. I washed towel dried and sometimes got to brush it and went. I never put any spray, moose, gel or anything like that in it. I never thought it looked all that great but didn’t think it looked bad either. It was just hair and it was just there. I wasn’t trying to really do anything with it but grow it out. Kind of defeated my purpose yesterday when I cut it all off.

{January 10, 2017}   Cut it All Off

Today after counselling I stopped at my friends barber shop to see how she was doing. I hadn’t seen her since sometime last year around Thanksgiving I think. I went in she was slow and cutting on her hair. She decided to dye mine again. She did it a auburn color and then we cut it. My hair was down between my shoulder blades. We cut it all off really short it is not even on my neck it is just below my ears. She fixed it and things it looked good. I am not sure I like it. I have wavy hair and thought it would have more curl or wave to it. I don’t know maybe I didn’t let her cut it short enough in the front. I wanted to keep my bangs long because I hate short bangs. I just got home a little bit ago from the chicken club meeting. I took a shower and washed it to get the spray and things out. I wanted to see how it would look if it dried naturally. When she blow dried it it takes the curl out some. It’s not doing what I excepted at all. I am wondering if I had some moose and put in it or if I cut it shorter if it would curl more. I just hate the thought of having my bangs to short over my forehead.

I sent a picture to my friend he said um you cut your hair? I said yeah wanted to try something different not sure about it. He never answered. I said that bad he still didn’t answer. I think he is one that likes long hair.  My other friend ask what I was doing earlier I was just getting done I sent her a picture she said you cut all your hair off. My friend J said it looked nice I am sure she was shocked to see it too. Everyone will be because I have always had longer hair. One time back in high school I cut it off up past my ears. It was down past my butt when I cut it off then all at once. I just text my good friend pictures he said that was a big change. I hadn’t showed him yet either I wanted to wait until I washed it and played with it a little. I like it just washed and left to dry look better than the way she had it. I don’t know how I feel about it, it is not bad at all it really is a big change since I have only done this one other time and when I done it before it had no curl or wave to it. It was pencil straight so it is different this time than it was then and most of my friends now didn’t know me then other than my good friend. They are all use to me having it at least middle of my back. They all have long hair to so they like long hair.

I am still shocked my one friend didn’t say anything, I know he was shocked. I should have said um hey you shaved your head I’m not allowed to cut mine? Not like we are more than friends. I know he wants to be or thinks about being more but I don’t think we will ever be more than what we are or become more than what we have done. We see each other when it works out we are both free and can get together and that is about it. He wanted me to come over this weekend I was thinking about going but don’t know yet.

It’s just hair it will grow back sometime. until then I will get use to it. Funny thing is no one at all has said anything about the color change. They can’t get past how short it is. It is different for sure. I got out of the shower and I was holding my head back to put the towel around my back so that my hair wouldn’t lay on my back and be under the towel. I hate for my wet hair to be on my skin( I know I am Weird) and there was nothing there. I was like oh yeah. I bent over to wrap it in the towel and dry it. I had way to much shampoo and conditioner when I was washing it too because I am so use to washing all this hair that is gone now.

{August 12, 2016}   New Hair Cut

I stopped by my friends shop to waste some time while I waited on the older kids to get out of school because I didn’t figure I would have time to go to the DMV. After her customers left she got a hold of me. She cut and dyed my hair for me. We got the dye in and I had to run and get the kids and go back. Her shop is right across the street from the kids school. I just had to drive across and around a side street a block or so to get to the back of the buildings. Then I went back and let her finish it up. I don’t know if I like it yet or not. She layered it, got all the frizz, dead ends and things out of it. It is a little shorter than I would like I know but I know she had to go short with it to get it all off. I would rather just cut most of it off now and not have to keep waiting on it to grow and cut it over and over to get it all off.

Really it probably needed a little more cut off but but I didn’t want to cut it that short. But it won’t be that much to cut off later. It was about mid way down my back and is right no my shoulders now. I told her I didn’t have the money to get anything done to it right now she did it anyway. I will go by when I get my money and pay her and tip her well for doing it for me. She was a single mom too and knows how it is.

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