It Is Pretty Bad When

You know the other night I went back out and told the social worker yes I was seeing someone. But I didn’t tell everyone here and hadn’t brought him around.

The first thing she said was no no no you don’t want to bring him around her and her maybe say or do something cause problems.

That is pretty bad when she had been here 30 minutes and can already see how she is. Knew that she would try to cause problems.

The way she is you don’t even have to give her the rope. She will bring her own to hang herself on in situations. It is just how she is, she don’t know how to talk to people or handle situations. If she don’t feel like she is getting what she wants she freaks out. Instead of staying calm and talking to people normal. Like the worker said she tries to turn everything around on someone else. She was trying to turn all this around on the worker the other night. I think had I not known more spoke up said the things I did they may have taken my kids.

I even told her from the start tell her she can’t be here she has to leave I have no problem at all with that. You tell me it comes to her my kids I go sit her stuff out tell her to go now. I don’t care.

She ask where she was going to go? I said I don’t know I don’t care. She lied when she came here not supposed to still be here. I am moving leaving her if she goes now is fine with me as well. Make life better the last few months easier.

Then later she came off with the kids can’t be here alone with her. I had to have someone here with all of them why I worked. I said I can not do that. I don’t have anyone. So she has to go. Before she left as she was going out the door I thought of it asked her what about work them being here. She said do what you need to do. So I been going to work. I think sincce she talk to her boss she said it was civil things changed. I am calling Monday to ask her if this is closed or what.

If she says it is not closed I still have a case for 60 days I am going to put them to work for me. Get Father of the years warrant taken care of. Get them to pick him up. Get us back in court. Now get his rights taken so I don’t have to worry about him any more. He is never going to pay.

Can’t Make This Shit Up—-DCF/CPS

As if the truck breaking down and finding out Father of the Year had a stroke wasn’t enough excitement it gets better. I think I told you all right before Thanksgiving about the bitch calling the police and freaking out telling them someone is after her. They have hacked her computer’s, our phones and messing around the house. She was so bad they were ready to baker act her but she didn’t say enough.

Will since then she has called them I don’t know how many times she has called them since. I am being told 21 but I do not think it has been that many unless they are calling when I am at work.

If someone walks by and looks at the house she is calling they are watching her trying to see her. If they pull up sit in the street or park on the side for something she is calling them. If they go flying by or around the house she is calling.

You have to know I sit on a corner lot with a stop on the side of my house and in front. I also live on one of the 3 ways to get in and out. It is off a busy street so a lot of people come and go.

Since I have moved in they will stop at the stop or just before it and text or make a phone call or check their gps or whatever. At least they are not driving and doing it they are stopping and waiting. They will fly down through here and around corners at 50 or 60 you think they are going to flip or roll. But this has all went on since I moved in, in 2014. She says it just started and it don’t matter when it started. The fact is there is nothing going on to call the police over. No one would call but her.

So I get home late Tuesday after they finally get the truck fixed eat and go to bed. About 11\1130 P.M. the dog starts freaking out some one is at my door. I figure she has called them again over something. Then they are calling me out there. A few weeks ago they woke me up called me out there and the cop insisted on me coming out and talking to him. I was already aggravated and tired and I did not want to go outside to talk to him. He kept on he needed to talk to me outside. I went out he was asking me what was going on that night or what. I said I didn’t know I was a sleep. He was asking about other stuff. I was just like I don’t know. You have to ask her. I was short and very annoyed he could tell. He ask me why I was mad or what. I said because I had to get up come out side in the cold and deal with him. That this has nothing to do with me. I don’t want in the middle of it. He said it did have to do with me it’s my house. I said she stays here too she called you not me. I don’t know what is going on I go to work come home eat go about my business, I don’t get into what she is doing. I just say yeah ok or whatever I don’t pay attention really. I don’t care i don’t want to be out here talking to you if I didn’t call you. She did take it up with her. No need to talk to me I have nothing to say. If I feel you need to come out here I will call myself and talk to you when you get here. I am not coming out here anymore if she calls. He said go ahead go in side.

So Tuesday night they are saying the police are here I need to come out there. Before I could say anything they say DCF is with them. Because I was about to tell them I wasn’t coming out. Until they said they were there too.

I go out there there is a social worker there wanting to talk to me. We go outside and she is telling they want to check on the safety of the kids the cops have been called x amount of times and all this. The cops said she seemed extremely upset and things when they first came out. They needed to make sure they were safe not scared there and all this. Ask all their noise questions. Ask where their dad was and all that.

I told her he the older 3 lived about 5 miles away was out of the picture. Had been for almost 4 years. He don’t call see them or pay child support. That little one’s dad seen here one time when she was 3 weeks old and he is in Tennessee somewhere. I told her I had just heard Earlier that morning Father of the year had a stroke and wasn’t in good health.

Then she asked if I had a boyfriend. I thought I just said no. She asked a bunch of other questions, if kids had any medical things, names ages birthdays. What their medical condition was. Had me sign papers to get their medical records and others for them. Then she wanted to talk to my oldest. I called her out there and went inside. They talked to her a bit and then sent her in. I went out she said she needed to talk to my oldest son.

I told her I needed to talk to her a minute about something she asked. She said okay what was wrong. I said you asked if I had a boyfriend. I said I do, but no one here knows at all about him we have been together for about a year. But that I was waiting to tell the kids. Then this covid crap started we just hadn’t told them. I said I didn’t date forever then did for a while. But that I tell the kids I am going with Bff. I said I do not bring men to my house or around my kids bring someone new home all the time. I told her I have known this one most our lives but I still wanted to see how things were going to go. I said I just didn’t want her to ask the kids about him or anything. Because they would be confused or what. She said no that was fine she completely understood.

She talk to the next two and I went out to talk to her see what was going on from there. She said she had to go back talk to her boss and figure out what needed to be done or what. I just looked at her the cops were standing there I said are you going to come back and take my kids or a chance of that? She said why would you say that? I said because you say you have to go talk to her figure out what to do. I said I told you this is what I was going to school for. I know you could walk away from here with them right now if you wanted to. I know you can come and do it tomorrow if she says to. If you can’t decide yourself tonight you must think there is a possibility that you are going to. I said my kids have been through a lot I already told you without their dads here and things. I said we are very close and they are never away from me. If you do that it is going to be detrimental to their mental health. If you walk in out of the blue and take them. I said if you do at all it is not going to be good on them but them not knowing ahead of time is going to be much worse. We talked a little more she went in talked to her.

She said she had to go out call her boss. It was after 2 am then. She was out there for a bit came back in. She said the boss said right now it was a civil matter she would be in touch not a lot they could do but the case is open case she would be back and she was going to talk to the people around me.

So now I am waiting to hear from her. I tried to get a hold of her the next day she has never called me back. I will try again Monday.

Everyone Is So Worried

That Father of the Year is going to call DCF on me and try to take the kids. My mom just messaged me a little bit ago telling me to clean my house they could call at anytime. Or she could think of it and call that it will be to late once they are called. I am not worried about it one bit, maybe I should be but I am not. My house is not spotless by any means, but it is not dirty, my house is cluttered, my house is lived in and played in, but my house is clean. It may need painted but it is a roof over their heads, it is a bed to lay down in a go to sleep, it is their everything that they need. They are healthy and happy, they do not need anything or want for anything that they need.

I do need to get through things and clean it out and get rid of stuff,  I need to get this stuff listed and sold once and for all, but it is not in the way, it is in the back room out of sight out of way. We can cook, clean, wash clothes and do anything we want to do with no problems at all. My kids have already told me they are very happy here with me and do not want to leave me to stay with their dad because their dad isn’t nice to them and they can not have the things they have here at their dads. He yells at them any time he wants something or they do something, he treats them like trash and they do not like it.

I also know all the things that dad did in the past name calling and things to my son and the therapist knows about it, others know about his temper and how he acts acts the things he does and the things he says. They all will stand up and tell whoever that he is not a safe place for them to be. I know that they also look for good enough and my house is far beyond good enough, eve with the clutter ad things that need to be gone through.

I also know that when it comes down to it and they start talking to therapst, doctors, teachers, schools, and other places and they start asking who is always the one that does this that and the other for the kids with the kids and how often do you see dad? Their answer is going to be mom, mom, mom and maybe twice have we seen dad or dad has really done anything to be involved or to seem like he even cared. When it comes to therapy and doctors they would have to say we have not seen dad in years but have hears a lot about dad from the kids and the things he is doing or has done.

Should I be worried maybe but am I no, because I can’t live my life in fear and worry. I know what I am doing I know what I am about I know that my kids are safe and take care of.