{January 27, 2020}   Tooth Infection

I have not been around much the last week or two because I ended up causing my mouth to get extremely infected. I had a sore spot in the back of my mouth and I thought it was because I had a nerve exposed. I went and bought some of that temporary filling stuff and put where the problem was. I figured that if the nerve isn’t exposed it would stop hurting. I woke up the next day with one side of my mouth swelled up, hurting horribly and infected. I went to go to the doctor and they were not open. They were supposed to be open on Saturday but no one was there anywhere. I started to hold out until Monday but decided not to. I went to the er, to get something for infection. Once I was there they said something about the three day weekend. That is why the doctors weren’t open most likely and would be closed Monday too. Glade I went when I did.

The doctor came in and we figured out that I probably had an abscess and it was draining and I blocked it from draining. It was horrible. They gave me super strong medication and was really worried about it. Said if anything changed to come back take the medications every 4 hours. I did that for days and was so sick from them I stopped taking them. They swelling went down the pain was gone. But then in a couple days it started hurting again. Now it is a mess again and I am trying to get the infection out again.

This morning it was so bad I got a needle and lighter and tried popping the big spot in the roof of my mouth. It was tight and sore that I couldn’t even feel the needle touching it. I stuck it a few times but it didn’t work. I was just about to give up and then decided to give it one last try. All of a sudden I felt it let go and it felt so much better. I am taking the medication and washing my mouth out with mouthwash now to hopefully get the infection under control. I feel a lot better but feel a spot coming up on the outside of my gums in the back. I have never had my mouth this bad before. I can’t stand it. The acid flux has messed my teeth up so bad, I am so embarrassed. I just want to get them all pulled and get dentures but I don’t have the money right now. I would do anything to get this pain and swelling to go away at the moment.

It feels like the spot I made this morning isn’t draining anymore the one on the outside of my gums feels harder and sore. I am at work just tried to pop it again but it didn’t seem to work to well. All I am getting from the one inside my mouth is blood. Not much of that. The other is hard to see and get to I don’t think I did anything to it. The guy here at work asked if I was getting sick. I told him no I have this infection I am trying to get rid of and that I was trying to pop it. He said is it making throw up? I said no just trying to drain it get rid of it. Hope that it will get better soon or I may have to miss work go to get it checked again. I am not going anywhere until I run out of medication. Then I have to because I can’t keep this like it is. I have to get rid of the infection because it is really bad for the heart to have infection in your mouth.

This is the last thing I want to be dealing with right now with all that I have to worry about and get taken care of. I should of just taken the medication like they said but I took it an extra day after I felt better and figured I would be okay it was gone. Most the time I take a few big doses and then I am fine. I have the rest if I need it later. I guess even with this being stronger I can’t do it that way or the infection is stronger than I am use to dealing with. I think that is probably it the infection is worse than I am use to dealing with really that is kind of scary. I have even thought about picking this filling stuff I put in there out to try and get it to drain and go away but I am scared of the pain it may cause and if I can’t get rid of that pain. I think regardless I am going to go Saturday and see if they can send me to the dentist and see if they can get something done. Right now it is my back teeth bothering me so if they can pull them and get this to go away I will let them. I just don’t want my front ones pulled before I can do something about getting some.

But with that I have not been on much I have not felt like doing anything and had to work this whole time dealing with this. I wanted to write the other day and it took me days to get that one post written and posted. I would just about go back to the er if I knew they could do something for me but I know most they can’t because they need pulled. I have taken so much for pain the last couple weeks it is scary. More than I have in years I am sure. I know it isn’t good but I can’t function without it at this point the pain gets so bad just out of no where. I will be fine all day or all night, hours at a time and then all of a sudden it is so bad I am in tears. I hope that something gives soon. I am taking the medication around the clock until it is done no matter how sick it makes me.

{February 21, 2019}   Going To The Dentist

Last night I went out with Bff and the guy I met over the weekend at the concert. We just went to our normal place, her aunt didn’t come so it was just the three of us. I picked him up at the dock on my way over. I drive right by there to get there and go home.

We had a really good time. We laughed and joked around talked. He had said he could sing and did but when we got there he was saying he wasn’t going to. He was talking about how bad their system was and everything. I said oh all talk but can’t back it up. He was like no really I can but their system and the sound. It would be horrible. So we teased him and joked around and he finally went up there and put his name on the list and sang. Wow he can sing, he was really good even on their system. To be fair it really did sound horrible it is all off, just bad. They changed the people who use to do it and these people are horrible and their equipment is as well. But I just wanted to see how he was and you can tell even if the system isn’t great if someone is halfway good or just talking. Really we were just joking around. He sang about 3 or 4 times all different things and he did good on all but one. I think it was just the song i didn’t care for it.

We were there for hours my neck on the right side has been bothering me for weeks I can’t turn my head to the right. Now I have a couple of teeth on that side bothering me. They had one girl get up there just scream and yelling it didn’t help made my head hurt. I was ready to go. But we were all talking still him and bff was talking about her dad and family. He knew him and her sister and uncle. He was asking about them and things. I was sitting beside him I laid my head over in his chest he put his arm around me. He ask of I was alright. I told him yeah my mouth tooth and things were hurting he was asking what was wrong. I told him. He said he had something at home he was going to bring me today at work to help with it.

Today he messaged me and we were talking. He had asked me yesterday if I had insurance I told him no. He said oh. Today we were messaging back and forth and he said he just got up but he was going to bring me that stuff for my tooth. I told him take his time I was alright for now. Then he said,

I’ll take you to the dentist next month a week or two.

I said it’s okay I will be fine there is nothing they can do it is to far gone.

He said then they can pull it.

Then youre going to the dentist I’ll pay dont worry bout it.

If you don’t take care of that it will cayse you more problems and not just your teeth health wise because of the location.

I told him not to worry about it, it isn’t just one tooth it is about 4. Really all my teeth need pulled they are all messed up.

He came over and he hung out for a little bit he insist that I am going to the dentist next month. I just told him we would see.

I am not doing this he can’t take me and pay all that. We just met what is he thinking? I am sure it will come up again I am going to tell him that.

I was talking to my friend J and her husband telling her about it. She was like I don’t know what to say or tell you. She said you attract all kinds. He husband said look at all the shit you are going through with the other and been through. Maybe he is just a nice guy and really wants to just take care of you for for a change, let him. I sighed and said yeah that would be nice…… but that kind of thing don’t happen to me. My friend J laughed and said yeah that shit don’t happen to us.


As you all know if you read my other post, Little Bitty went to work with me Thursday to my day job. She had her teeth looked at and I dropped her at home. I went back to work. Well then few hours later they called and said she couldn’t go to the bathroom. She said it burnt and hurt.

It was 4:30 then, I called my other job and told the boss I was going to be late. I told him I should be in at 7.

I then seen it was 4:30 and asked the owner at my other job if I could go ahead and go. He said yes, that if I couldn’t make it Friday to let him know as soon as I knew or could. I told him I would be there. He sounded surprised and said something. I said I will be here don’t worry. He just said okay.

I ran picked her up and took her to the doctor’s. I did not get out of there until 7 or close to it. I was in such a mood and so upset with the death, fighting with the winch, Bitty being sick. I was just done, I wanted to go to the lot and quit. I but knew I couldn’t. I figured I was going to get fired or jumped all over anyways it get nasty I end up not there.

I went right there from the doctor’s office to talk to them. I was all but in tears by the time I got there. Mr. Auto was there and the other guy. The other guy stayed to cover for me.

We went in I walked over and talk to him. Thanked him for covering for me and ask if he could cover the rest of my hours for the night? He said yes it was okay. I still had to get her meds and get her home. He talk to her ask how she felt and gave her candy.

We walked over and talk to Mr. Auto he had finished with his customers. He talked to her and gave her a handful of candy. We left so we could get her meds before they closed.

Friday I went to work ready for my lecture and lashing for missing half the day and bringing her to work. The one owner and the fill in guy had already left they had to get an early start we had a lot of appointments for the day. He called for something and before he told me what he needed or anything he asked how my little one was. If she was feeling better? Then told me what he needed to about work.

Later Pop’s son came in I was surprised with his mom just passing the day before. I thought this is it, he must be really mad he came in with all that is going on to see me. He come in and said I have to pay you they aren’t going to be back in time and he ask what I had worked the day before. Then he came in said hows your little girl? Is everything okay now? I told him. I also told him sorry to hear about his mom. He left. He wasn’t mad or anything.

I went back to working on my project I had been working on when he left. In a little bit I get a text, it was from the guy who covered my shift the night before.

He asked how Little Bitty was doing and how I was doing. He said I looked really upset and things the night before when we were in.

When I got off and headed for my other job I was preparing myself for dealing with the boss when I got there. He had already went home when I stopped the night before. He is nice but can have a temper or adduttude if he don’t like something.

I went in and just went straight back to his office to talk to him. I walked up and he said hi, how are you? How is your daughter, did you get everything taken care of? Ii said yes and sorry for missing the whole night. He said good and went on talking about other things.

It is nice to be looked at as a person who has a life outside of work. Not that your life is work. You aren’t just a body to fill a position like most places. Had that been my last job or most others I been yelled at told I was going to lose my job and that I needed to take care of that on my day off even though I only had weekends off when doctores are closed. I always do everything I can on my days off or give notice way ahead of time untless an emergancy like that comes up.

{April 14, 2017}   I Got Packages

Today started out with me forgetting about taking a Wanda’s boyfriend somewhere this morning. But he was supposed to get a hold of me and remind me a day or two before and he didn’t. It is Spring break so things have been more laid back and just laying around relaxing no rushing to get everyone up and to school, no rushing to school myself and all that. Add to it I am back on my not sleeping until after day light. My friend messaged me this morning around 1130 I called I told him I could do A but not B and C. B and C he really needs to step up and figure out for himself and take care of. He just kind of decided that this would just be how it would be since I agreed to help with A. I didn’t mind the first time but I didn’t know it was going to be a every time thing. I didn’t want to deal with it today. I just told him I have all this to do I will give you a ride and run you home then I will go take care of the rest of the stuff I have to do. I don’t have time for you to do the other stuff. He couldn’t do A without doing B and C he could just do it work around it but he didn’t want to do that so he skipped A. That is not my fault, I had to take care of paperwork I forgot about I fell back to sleep because I couldn’t hold my eyes open I couldn’t drive around that way.

I finally had everyone showered feed rounded up and headed out the door, I open the door and walk into this huge box taller than me and then a box at my knees. I as like what they Hell is this and where did it come from? Then as I said it I thought of it, it was my lights and grill support for my truck. I drug it in the house and we left. I was so excited to come home and start trying to tear the truck down and putting it back together. That didn’t happen.

As we were walking out the door and dragging the boxes in my Big Boy said his tooth was hurting, I said okay we will call the dentist tomorrow and if it is still hurting when we get home I will get you something for pain. He just said it was bothering him I didn’t think anything of it. We got to therapy and we were all talking and he starts crying that his teeth are hurting and hurting really bad. Me and the therapist started looking up dentist and trying to find one that would take our insurance. I finally found one that would take it and said I had to come in fill out paperwork and they could get him in, in the morning. As soon as we left therapy we went straight there and then they told me that they couldn’t put him in the computer until in the morning and that they will call me as soon as it is done. I brought him home and gave him something for pain and he said it got better and he hasn’t complained since. I am wondering if it isn’t his other teeth coming in pushing them out because it is the same tooth on both sides. I have had that happen before and I think it is worse pain than a infection. I remember crying with it myself, to have two doing that I can’t imagine.

Since that happen I didn’t start trying to take the truck apart because I was worried if something happen and it didn’t get put back together I couldn’t take him when they called. I was just happy to find somewhere that would take him going into a holiday weekend. I looked at some things to see what I would need but I really don’t know still because I need to take some things apart to see what all I am going to need. I will probably end up walking up to the store to get more parts that I need. Looks like just some little bolts, bulb, connectors things like that.

I should be sleeping now because it is 2:13 am but I am wide awake watching Sister Wives. I can’t count how many shows I have watched at this point. This kodi is a bad little thing for tv’s. I either don’t watch tv at all or a binge watch like tonight.

I can’t wait to put the lights on the truck I won’t have to worry about getting pulled over. I took one out of the box and looked at it tonight and they are really nice. I wasn’t going to open any of the boxes until I was ready for them but I couldn’t stand it I wanted to see what they really looked like. They are a lot nicer than what they look on line, I am happy because I almost didn’t buy them because I wasn’t sure how they were going to look. I was worried they weren’t going to be as nice I was expecting so being nicer was a bounce.

{July 8, 2016}   First Dentist Trip

Ok don’t judge the boys just went to the dentist today. They came out and ask who wanted to go first and my Little Guy jumped up and went back with them. I was kind of surprised that he didn’t care that I wasn’t going but then again I wasn’t because he is just like that. Jump all in and go explore or whatever on his own and not care if he is on his own. In a little bit they came out and got My Big Boy and he was asking before he even got across the room wasn’t I going and why I wasn’t getting up? I told him he be ok and to go and he didn’t want to. I got up and walked in the hall with the lady and told her he was autistic and that I didn’t know if he was going to do it without me going back or not. She said oh ok and told him I could come back and see where he was going to be sitting and everything. We got back there she had him get in the chair and walked around to the back of the room out of the way why he got all set up. He wasn’t sure about the chair and things. In a minute she gave me a chair and told me I could sit there where I was. She tried to do x rays first but every time she would put the thing in his mouth he would gag. She got the one for little kids and he still gagged really bad. She said wow he has a supper strong gag reaction. I told her he has sensory things so I wasn’t surprised. She gave up on trying to get x rays and started cleaning his teeth. She gave him the thing to suck the water out of  your mouth out and he didn’t like using that. He didn’t do to bad with cleaning them but they needed to be picked and scrapped, a deep clean I guess and he wasn’t able to let the dentist do that. He said it hurt to much.

They called me over about my Little Guy and they said he had quite a few cavities and that they were going to send him to a pediatric dentist so they could give him a little bit of gas to do the work. They said they thought they could do it with no problems but it was a lot of work because it was different little spots, they didn’t want to traumatize him or stress him out and make him not want to come back to the dentist anymore. He said once they do them he could come back there every 6 months for his cleanings with no problems.

After they got done with my big boy they said they were going to send him to the same place to get a little gas so they could do a deep clean and maybe some x rays on him as well. They said they didn’t think that he had any cavities just looking at them and things but if he didn’t get them cleaned good and brush better he was going to have them and his are not baby teeth they are his adult teeth.

I have to take the girls back on the 13 since they couldn’t get them all in on one day. I am going to wait and see if they need anything done at the other office and then make appointments for the other two if not. There is only one in the county and I think it is the one I have heard horrid things about so I am going to have to take them to the other county. But really it is probably just as far or farther to go to the one that is here in the county. It’s just not as bad of traffic and I know my way around here. But that is what I have GPS for.

I am wondering as I type this how much my Little Guy really needs to get filled he is 5 going to be 6 in a few months. He should start losing teeth here really soon. In the next 6 months to a year lose them all anyway. I am trying to think I don’t think he has lost any yet that is kind of odd. My Big Boy lost 4 with in two days then a few more before he ever turned 5. All of a sudden he just started losing teeth like crazy all at once. He got his early and he got 2 to 4 at a time and he lost them 2 to 4 at a time just the way they came in same ones and all.

I should have ask them about that with Little Guy but I was so shocked when they said he had them and that he had so many. When I looked in his mouth I seen one or two little spots but that was it. I don’t see bunch like they are talking about. His teeth look good over all when you look at them. If they had said my Big Boy I wouldn’t have been surprised as much because i am always getting on to him about brushing his teeth and brushing better. They told him today if he don’t do better I was going to have to do them for him. Makes me want to gag just thinking about it. I had a ton of dintale work done as a kid from early on I have just always had bad teeth and not very strong teeth and I am worried that is going to be my Little Guys problems. He has a cousin that has no enamel on his teeth and has to have some kind of treatment. Me, his mom, my dad and her mom all have problems with our teeth. It is something in the family I think. The girls even with my Little Bitty seems to be ok she brushes hers all the time and me or my oldest brush them for her one or twice a day besides what she brushes them.

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