As I said in my last post JW’s aunt called why we were having lunch and ask us to dinner. She is. Down staying with his other aunt for a few days. So we went over to see them. I had never met them before. I only really know his mom and brother. I met his dad once or twice when we were younger but he wasn’t around much when we were growing up.

Tonight was two of his aunts one’s son and his girlfriend that was there. They were all really nice. It was a really nice night. We sat and talked while we waited for dinner to finish. After dinner we went out and watched the rocket launch. Sat and talked for a little bit longer and now we are home. They were all really nice and welcoming.

I am tired and wore out. It sucks because we haven’t done anything for me to feel this way. But I have drove about 150 miles today. The aggregation of running around wasting time for something that they didn’t have when we were debating where to go and decided to go there just because of the car show since they don’t have it all the time. Oh well. He is watching Black Panther and relaxing. I’m really not interested in it. I think I will go take a relaxing shower, fold the clothes make the bed and go to bed. I don’t want to go to work tomorrow. I worked Saturday to make up time we missed during the week. Took me 6 days to get 39.5 hours. I should of had 44. I had done 4 hours last Friday to make up for the day we missed the week before. Half day at over time would be more than i would of made had it been a normal 8 hour day. But then we missed Tuesday this week i had to work this Saturday and have them put it on this check to just touch 40. Hope we don’t miss any more.

{December 27, 2019}   Happy Birthday To Me

Yesterday for my birthday I had to work both jobs, it really wasn’t bad both were really slow so an easy day/night. I had already planed to take off by 9 from my night job to go have a few drinks with friends and unwind after dealing with her Christmas.

My friend I got back in touch with over the weekend (we will call him, J.W. said he wanted to go and Bff was talking about going. He messaged me off and on all yesterday. He asked where I wanted to go I told him I wasn’t sure. Then when I was getting to my night job he said lets go get some dinner. I told him I had to see and he said his treat.

I got off at 8:30 because it was so slow. The guy the works with me said earlier lets get out of here early tonight. I said that is fine with me I was planing on leaving at 9 anyway. By 830 it was so dead I said can we get out of here yet? He laughed and said go I’m not far behind you.

I went and picked up J.W. and we headed over to the island. We had been talking about what was open. We seen this Restaurant bar in down town open so  we decided to go in there. They have been around here forever when I was a kid but I had never been in there. I got the shrimp basket with cal slaw. It was really good. We sat there for a bit talking then we rode around for a while talking. I dropped him off and went home. It was about midnight then.

I messaged and told him thank you that I had a good time. He said he was glad and we needed to do it more often. I told him I was going to start going out once a week like I was before, He said it sounded good. I want to do more than just sit at the place and watch people sing or try to and do nothing. I want to start playing pool or walking the beach, something to get out and really do something not just sit. I sit all day at both job. once in a while going somewhere and just sitting is fine but I like to do other things too. Like Bff said maybe once a month go and just sit and hangout. That is fine, we can get a group of us together and do different things others want to do as well. I would love for bff’s aunt to come again but I don’t know if she will or not.

He said pool is free over where him and his friend goes not to far from the house. That is nice, it’s so much an hour at the other place but it is more of a pool hall. I don’t really care for either place but I know others that are free too. I don’t mind going to the one his friend goes to I have been in there few times. Can’t think for the life of me who the heck I was with when I was in there because most people I know don’t hangout in the places around us over there. That is going to bother me because I remember being there the other people there things we talked about, it being pretty slow, driving there and meeting them there but not who I was with. It has been a while. I can’t even remember if it was a friend I was with or a guy. I know it wasn’t bff she would never go somewhere like that. Well she wouldn’t have then. Who knows maybe I will figure it out.

{December 2, 2019}   Thanksgiving in a Nutshell

Thanksgiving we didn’t do anything but lay around all day. My mother was supposed to make a ham and everything for dinner and didn’t get up and put it on in time. Of course that was mine and the kids faults. I thought she was awake and laid down with Little Bitty and watched our show. I fell a sleep for a bit. The kids played and watched t.v. We just had a very lazy relaxed day. We ended up getting up and going out to dinner not even doing dinner at home. I don’t think anyone really cared. The kids didn’t really seem to care, we had a nice time, talked and joked around and talked about Christmas. If they would want me to take the money and get them a few smaller gifts or one or two larger gifts? What they wanted either way and made a list.

Friday we didn’t do much and I had to go to work that night. Then I stopped off and seen my Grandma and Grandpa at my aunts. They only live a mile or two from my night job. I had to ask her to borrow money until after the first of the year. In hopes to get things back on track and be able to do something for Christmas. I ended up being there for hours, I didn’t leave until after 12 or 1. I didn’t plan to be there that long at all. I got there around 9:45 give or take. But I was talking to them and lost track of time.

{October 18, 2018}   12:45 P.M. Time To Do Something

I have done nothing again today and the morning is over. I have slept and looked for jobs and been on here that is all. I have made some decisions about somethings that I have been thinking about. Other than that I have gotten nothing accomplished today yet. I have been getting up for hours to put dinner in the crockpot and have not yet. Now if I do not do it by 1 or around there I will not be able to. I have to because it has to have time to cook and I do not have time or feel like cooking later.

I have to get some things done here then get the kids from school. After that we are going to go walk the trails or something. Oldest has to be outside and active for an hour 3 or 4 times a week. We have slacked so we will be out a few hours today. It will be good we all need it.

Guess I better go get dinner started and things done I only have an hour and a half before little ones get out of school. I’ll be back later probably.

{November 20, 2017}   A Nice Time Out

Yesterday I text Sleeping Beauty from the shop and ask what he was up to, how the day was going? I didn’t hear back for a while then he text at said things were going shitty. He had been working and just got home. I asked him if he would like to come over he said yeah he was getting in the shower. He let me know when he got out was ready. I told him I was thinking about taking the kids to dinner, he said okay. I think he thought I wasn’t going to come, I told him he could come if he wanted too. I think he thought I wasn’t going to pick him up since we were going. I talked to the kids about going out and they all wanted something different, I tried to get them all to pick one place they all wanted to go our could agree on but they all still wanted something different and couldn’t decide on one place. I wasn’t in the mood to deal with them fighting or the ones that didn’t get to go where they wanted to pouting. I finally told them they could all have whatever they wanted but I was picking it up bringing it back here and they could eat it here. They were all happy with that idea. I went picked him up he came back here for a little bit why I did somethings. Then jumped in the shower, they were starting to get hungry so I left and went to get what they wanted. One wanted Stake and Shake, one wanted MC Donald’s and the other two agreed to chines. He was like wait what are you doing? Where are you going? I said her for this one over there for that one and then here on the way home for the older two. He said everyone gets something different? I said not normally but sometimes as a treat I will let them. I said it has been a while since we have been out everyone wants something different and this point they are agree it is fine to pick it all up and eat at home so I am good with it. He laughed and ask what I was eating? I said I don’t know I am getting them settled and then decide.

Little Bitty went with us when we left she has this thing about me leaving and thinking I am not coming back now. She been this way since before we had the talk about not having a daddy at home and things. I keep telling her I promise I will come home I will not leave her. We were in line getting the last of the food and she said something, I told her I was talking her and all the food home and going to go out. She got upset I told her I had to go get me something to eat that trying to hurry and get their food because she was so hungry I hadn’t gotten anything yet. He told her that she couldn’t go this time but next time she could go. She told him two he said what we have two hours? I think we could be home in two hours should be time to eat. I said she just says two it could be two hours, two day or two weeks she has no idea yet she just says stuff. He laughed. We got home she was saying something, he told her again to go in be good that she could go next time anywhere that she wanted they all could go. He said want to go to chuckie cheese we can all go there next time. I am shaking my head no because once you tell her something she will ask from now on every time she thinks of it not just him when he she see’s him but me all the time as well. He said what you don’t like there? I said it is fine she don’t know what it is she hasn’t been. He said oh we will fix that. I got them settled with their food and we left.

We went out sat down and had something to eat and talked some. It seemed like it took forever getting something to eat. They waiter despaired and didn’t come back I finally after 30 or 40 minutes maybe more of not seeing him and not having a check I had to ask for one and they still couldn’t find him and someone else finally had to get it. I didn’t talk much mostly just listen to him. And his roommate was blowing up his phone mad about money and things because part of the problem is he is waiting to be paid for a job he help the roommate do months ago and he will not pay him so he just didn’t pay the money he owed for rent this week and told him to take it out of that. He hit the roof and was mad and kept blowing up his phone wanting to know where he was and who he was with everything. I said oh well I don’t care if he knows I have nothing to hide and it is none of anyone’s business. If they say something to me about us being out or whatever I have no problem telling them it is none of their business if and what I feel is theirs I will let them know but not to hold their breath waiting because I do not see anything ever being anything they need to know.

I drove up to the dock where I use to go sit by the water and when we got there it is all fenced off and we couldn’t get to it. I guess from the storm it got damaged and they have to fix it. It went way out in the water and had a bunch of little docks or what off to the sides that you could go out on and sit or fish so everyone wasn’t lined up in the way. We walked around there by the water for a little bit and talked and joked around and then drove around for a while. I finally dropped him off about 10:50. I got a few miles up the road and go pulled over for swerving. The truck is messed up and pulls to that side then I looked down to see something on my phone. I thought it was a cop behind me and was trying to tell and couldn’t then thought it wasn’t but then about the time I decided it wasn’t I was wrong it was. I text him said I got pulled over. He was like really where oh no let me know what happens.

I figured they were going to make me to test and all that to see if I was drunk, the guy walked up I was getting my license out he ask me if I knew why he pulled me over I told him yes. He ask me why I told him I looked down at my phone I was trying to check on my kids see what they needed. He said something else and ask me about my address where I lived he had me off the other direction. I told him he ask me where I was coming from? I told him I dropped him off at his house and was on my way home. He then ask me what was wrong I told him nothing. He wanted to know how much I had, had to drink? I said I haven’t had anything to drink at all. He took my stuff went back to his car and in no time he was back with a paper. I just knew he was going to tell me he was giving me a ticket or had to test me. He said here is a warning now watch the road not your phone and get on your way.

I was going to go to the store but after that I just went home. I was tired too and having a hard time seeing, I didn’t want to get pulled again. It was nice to just get out and relax have someone to talk to go somewhere with other than just shopping or with my friend and her kids or all the kids.

When we were riding around I asked him what he was doing next weekend? He said he was going to go to one of the stores to get a pair of boots but he didn’t know if he was now because of different things. He ask why? I told him the kids wanted to put up their Christmas stuff and that I need that wood put together because I could probably do it but, it wouldn’t be good it was one of them things that I just rather not do because it turn into a mess. He laughed he said yeah he could come help with that and I said I need to get the lights on the roof too. He said that was fine. He said let him know when I got home so I did and we were texting. I said I was disappointing that the dock was closed I liked going out there and sitting it was so relaxing. He said that was okay we could find one to sit on this weekend. He said I have to hang Christmas lights you know. I said yes and don’t forget build a manger too. He laughed said yes he would do that too.

The kids said something about him, I said he works at the shop with me he is just a friend, he is going through somethings and having problems with his roommate so he just wanted to get out of the house and talk for a bit. I said he just like My other friend and some others they know. They said oh okay. I said he isn’t busy he said he would help with the Christmas stuff too. They weren’t sure what to think about that. I think they wanted to be excited but then had the thought that there dad wasn’t going to be here to do it with them or bother to come do it with them. NOt that I want him to or probably would let him at this point because I don’t want him around. I said if things don’t change he is supposed to come this weekend but he may have to work of if something comes up he may not be able to. Because what he says now and what he does I never know. But I figure he probably do it. He loves kids and doing things with them and for them so unless something really happens he probably will.

{April 16, 2017}   Happy Easter

Hope everyone is having a good day with friends and family. I guess we will be going to eat and to the park with my sister, her family my mom and Father of the Year. Then we are going to go to the part hide eggs and give my niece her birthday gift and my little one her other gift. We were going do cake and stuff but where we are going to eat is going to have all that stuff so I am not getting another one. They both had cake on their day so it be okay.

I am feeling a little better from last night, my mind finally stopped and let me go to sleep. Probably those couple drinks I had when I was out last night. But I have been thinking about it again today. Trying not to but feeling lonely on top of everything don’t help things any. Not looking forward to seeing my mom and Father of the Year but I want to see my sister and her family and the kids want to see my mom.

Guess I should get off here get dressed we should be leaving in just a little bit and I haven’t gotten dressed yet or anything. Not that I have to do more than that really. Clothes been washing and drying so couldn’t. Got get the kids rounded up make sure everyone is showered and dressed.

{April 5, 2017}   4 Years Already

I can not believe the new girl in town is 4 years old already. She brought papers home the other day saying she needed to sign up for vpk for next year. I was like this isn’t for you, you have another year…then it hit me no she don’t she will be in vpk this year when school starts back. She is growing up so fast it is unreal.

She took mini cupcakes and milk to school to share with her class. We just did cake and dinner here with me and the kids tonight. She is so funny I asked her what she wanted for her birthday dinner tonight so I could go to the store if I needed to. She said chicken noodle soup. I said oh okay I can make you some homemade chicken soup that works good because we have chicken from tonight I can use. She looked at me and said no mom I want Dory Soup you get in the can from the store. I said you want a can of chicken noodle for your birthday dinner instead of something else or homemade? She said yes I want Dory kind. She got Dory chicken soup for her birthday dinner and me and the kids had homemade chicken soup. I tried to get her to eat some of ours and she would have no part of it. Hey if she is happy and had a good birthday then I’m happy.

I picked her gift up from us and gave her. I got her two of the new super hero figures they have that are like Barbies but they are Bat women or Wonder women. I picked out Bat women and Harley Quin. I figured she have a good guy and bad guy. She told me they are both good and they are friends. I like these they don’t have clothes like Barbies they just have their cape and everything is painted on but like the bat ears or their glasses I just left the things on that hold the ears and glasses on. They had some with cute outfits that were a little nicer but I didn’t spend the money and get them because as soon as she gets a new doll of any kind she rips its clothes off and it lays around naked from then on. I figured this was better and I got two for the same money I would have gotten one for. I like to get her a few of the others maybe when she gets a little older and won’t rip everything off and have a naked baby laying around and the clothes getting messed up. I love they made them for the little girls. She thinks it is cool she can play super hero’s with her brothers now and have her own girl ones.

She wants to have a party everyone come over, I think I am going to do cake and things Easter when everyone is together. I ended up doing that for her fist birthday I think it was because we had just moved in here and Easter was not that far away. I had to get the house put together and things before I could have a party anyway because we moved in 3 days before her birthday.

She is s funny and smart, she is always doing something my little handful already. But I can’t imagine life without her.

{February 3, 2017}   A Night Out With The Kids

My money finally went in the bank about 530 this evening, thank God. We had just pulled in at the store to try and get subs tonight since we couldn’t get them last night when we wanted to, I checked to see if it was there or not I needed to stop and get dog food when we left there. Once I seen it had hit I decided to take the kids out to dinner. They all got bucked back in and we headed to the little diner up the street we like to go to, only to find it was closed. I always forget that they are only open breakfast, lunch and Friday night. The kids asked if we could go to Stake and Shake instead, it’s okay but not crazy about it but I took them since they wanted to go. Well on the way there I seen a craft store had opened up right behind them so we stopped in there first. When we left there I said hey lets go to the mall. We went across the street to the mall and spent forever in there it seemed like. But three of the kids got new shoes they have been desperately needing for a little while. It was worth the trip.

My Big boy got lime green van high tops, of course they had to order them for him because they didn’t have them in his size. Last time we went there to get him shoes they didn’t have the pair he wanted in his size either. They should be here some time next week. My oldest got herself a new pair of cowboy boots and they didn’t have them at the store we went to either so they ordered them for her as well. Her and my Little Guy both got shoes at Pay-less so they were buy one get one half off so hers were only $10 because they were already one sale to start with. His were on sale as well but cost more than his so hers were the half price ones.

Little bitty seen different ones she wanted but nothing that she would really want to wear once she got them home I wasn’t paying $30 or more for a pair of shoes that she will out grow in a month or two and that she will only wear a few times because she will wear her sandals more. Instead of spending money on shoe she will only wear a few times I take her to the other store where they are cheaper and she ends up getting two or three pair for around $20. She gets sandals that she will wear all the time then her other shoes that she will wear when she can’t wear them somewhere. I was going to get her dress shoes they had a cute pair and I forgot them before we left.

I use to buy all the kids shoes there but with in a month to three months they need new ones. I started buying the ones at the mall and they last about a year most the time if they do not out grow them. The ones for them at the other stores they tear up and have holes and things. I end up spending more in the long run buying them that way then just spending a little more to start with and buying the name brand ones. I want another pair of flip flops mine are two thin they make my feel hurt and they are starting to look wore since my other pair broke and I have been wearing them all the time now.

We finally made it to Stake and shake at like 830 we headed there at 530. It seemed like it took forever there to get our food and things. I think we ended up spending over an hour there and I still had to go to the other store for Little Bitty’s shoes and dog food. Right before we left this older guy come in and sat down alone he must been in his 70 or close to it. He looked like something was bothering him, kind of looked up set. I don’t know what there was just something about him I kept noticing him. When we left I asked the lady that was ringing me up to get his bill for me, I told her I wanted to pay it too. She said oh yes no problem he will be so happy it will make his day. She said his wife is in the nursing home and he goes there every day to see her then stops here on his way home to have dinner. I paid and left, as I was getting the kids out and walking around the building to get to the truck I seen her and the waitress go over with the paper and give it to him and tell him that it was paid for. I couldn’t see his face but I seen him motioning and saying something and they were smiling and stood there talking to him a few minutes. Hopefully it touched him and made him at least feel good that someone thought of him while he is going through what he is with his wife. I can’t imagine how he must feel being away from her and not having her at home. I know when my grandma was in the hospital and after she passed my grandpa was so over whelmed worrying about her and going back and forth while she was in there and then so lonely and depressed when she passed. He said it sure is different without mom here, it’s sure quite in the day when everyone is at work without mom here.

{November 13, 2016}   Father of the Year Sighting

Father of the Year made an appearance today out of the blue half unannounced like always. He called and I answered he said he was on his way over about 1130 this morning. I was surprised he called he never does most the time he just shows up, then wants to know where we are why we aren’t home or bitch because aren’t doing what he thinks we should be when we he thinks. He said he couldn’t stay long just a little bit he had to go home and work on the truck he has supposed to of worked on for almost a year.

I ran up to take a friend to the store he started about how long I was going to be gone he had to go soon. He just walked in the door and not seen them in a week or more.

A friend gave me a vacuum she got from someone by her who was moving and it was a mess. I didn’t want to take it but I did because I needed one so bad and have no money to get one. Father of the Year broke mine then got a new one and broke it too. Then says well it was cheap I didn’t try to, it wasn’t my fault same old same. I told him I didn’t care the one I had wasn’t cheap and he broke it wasn’t my fault what he bought was cheap and if he leave it alone he wouldn’t have broke it. I don’t know why he ever touched the one that was just bought. When he got here he wanted to know where it came from and why it was here. I told him because I needed one and couldn’t buy one since he wasn’t paying and that he hadn’t replaced the one I had he broke yet again. I told him he could clean it since he broke mine and it is all I have if he didn’t want to go buy one. He said he would when I went to take her to the store and he never started on it until I got back.

Why he was cleaning it I took Big Boy to the chicken coop and checked on them so that I didn’t have to take them all with them. I got back he had this thing taken all apart and cleaning it and when he finished he sat here forever. I kept telling him he needed to go it was going to be to late to look at the truck again. He kept saying ok. I told him I needed to get stuff done he just kept sitting. He finally left about 4 something with no time until dark to do anything.

Then he calls me in a little bit and wants to know if he can come have dinner with the kids, make dinner and eat with them it was to late to work on the truck it was going to be getting dark in a little bit. I didn’t want him to but I told him fine because I have my school work to get done tonight and the kids have been sick and whiny so I have barely gotten to work on it. I text him and told him to go to the store and get stuff too because I had enough for me and them and not him too. He said ok. It will let the kids spend some more time with him too. Not that he does much with them when he is here other than sit here. That is why I told him to clean the vacuum, I knew he would take it all apart and clean everything out. I don’t have time to clean it like it needed to be cleaned between dealing with sick kids, school and taking everyone every where.

He comes around once every two or three weeks for a hour or two before bed then wants to sit here all night and try to spend the night, I have to throw him out. I will probably have to throw him out tonight to get him to leave.

He didn’t have much to say today like the last few times he was here. Like he just sits back and watches or looks around. I don’t know how to explain it, it’s odd really. Oh well nothing going on that shouldn’t and nothing he can try and say anything about. He did say something about me letting my oldest walk in the store alone to grab a few things. Like I said before I can pretty much see her through the whole store. How bad things are in the world today. The things people do. I am sure that he can’t make anything out of that either I could send her to walk there if I wanted to and have her get things but I don’t. Still nothing he could do or say. Like I told him she is almost 13 she can go in places and do things on her own. The world is a lot safer now than it ever has been probably. Either way we can not keep our kids in bubbles and never let them do things on their own and then expect them to know how to live on there own or get a job or service in the world on their own when they turn 18.

{November 8, 2012}   Bread Bowls and Soups

Not really a recipe but a quick and Favorite of my kids. I was looking for something super fast but good and some what healthy for dinner, one of them night where dinner time came and went and you didn’t even notice. Digging threw the kitchen I found a big bag of rolls and a bunch of the Campbell’s thick and chunky soups I had gotten for lunches. I took the rolls got one of the small cups of the kids and made a hole in the middle of the rolls. Then let the kids each pick what soup they wanted. Heated the soup up and put it in the rolls and serve nice hearty filling warm dinner for a cool night. To me probably a lot healthier than a box of burger helper, hot dogs or something out of a bag in the freezer. Can do the same thing with a homemade pot of soup. Kids like them either way but prefer if I do the cans so they can pick their own soups out. I put the bread I cut out of the middle in a bag in the freezer and use it for meatloaf or meatballs.

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