Seen JW Today

I went over to JW’s house like I do every Sunday so we could do what we needed to do. He was just getting dressed when I got there. He said he was about to walk up to the little store to get coffee. He finished getting dressed said he had been up for a few hours. It was 11 something when I got there. I would of went earlier but normally he likes to sleep in and is still laying down when I get there at 11. He said the cats ran all over him and woke him up. He fell a sleep on the couch.

We got his stuff together and loaded up. I told him we would toss the stuff in to wash then go get coffee. I was sitting there on the couch and went to get up. He said oh yeah I almost forgot. He picked something up off the table. It was in a black bag. He said he was sorry he didn’t get to wrap it. He was so wore out when he got home the night before I couldn’t blame him. I opened the bag and pulled out what was inside. I sat back down on the couch. I was surprised. I open the box and there was a gold necklace with little diamonds all the way around it. I was very shocked. I took it out and was trying to put it on but couldn’t get it on. He sat beside me and help me put it on.

I wrote Look What I Got back in February. A month or so after we got together. He gave me the heart necklace back then. It was similar it had one side with CZ on it and it was silver in color. You can see a picture in the post. Well I got lectured by Little Bitty about wearing it in the shower. She said I was going to ruin it and mess it up. Well I guess After 11 months of wearing it 24\7 took its toll on it. It started turning and tarnished. I tried to clean it when I was staying with him and I think it made it worse. A week or two a go I took the charm off and put it on my keychain. I didn’t want to mess it up more.

I didn’t even know he noticed, he never said anything about me not wearing it. Today he said he was trying to decide what to get and he was thinking about earrings but didn’t know what I would wear or if I would. He hasn’t seen me wear any. I don’t wear them much. I lost one of the ones the kids gave me I use to wear.

I guess his friend said something about a necklace. He told him I had the one he gave me before but I hadn’t wore it in awhile. The chain kept getting messed up he thought it broke. He said he was going to walk to the shop by work but they were closed. So his friend went to the other one. He told him what to get. He couldn’t go with him because they both couldn’t leave work at the same time. He sent him some pictures he told him what one to get. It is so nice the picture really isn’t a good one. I can’t get a good one with the lighting. I will get a better one tomorrow. But I couldn’t wait to tell you all what he got me.

I will try to post a better picture tomorrow.

After we done laundry we went to the mall. My mom and the kids gave me money for my Birthday. They wanted me to find something. For myself I wanted. I do not normally shop at the mall there aren’t many stores a lot have closed and others are over priced. But I like to shop Sears and JCPenney’s. They have good sales some times. When I was in Penney’s right before Christmas they had some really good deals. I got my mom a $75 purse for $12. It was on sale half price then marked clearance.

I found a really nice sweater for work. It freezes in there almost year round. I wear my jacket but it isn’t comfortable. It is bulky. I had been looking at some at wal mart but they were thin, they had holes coming in them and had hoods on them. They were $15 to $20. I got this one for $25 it was on sale and I used their coupon I found on their site brought to half price. It was $50 to start with it is much nicer than what I had been looking at in the other store.

Again lighting is horrible it is messed up I forgot to buy a new one today.

I had a little bit of money left I wanted to go to this store by the house to see if I could find a outfit, purse shirt or something. It is in a plaza with other stores. As we were going past one he said he wanted to run in this one store why I went to the other he would come find me when he was done. I stopped and let him get out and went on to the other store. He came and found me in a little bit. We walked down to Tractor Supply.

We were walking around in there and he said my Christmas gift was in the truck. He was looking there to see if they had them there or not. He looked around and said no.

By now I am confused because like I said yesterday he wasn’t making since about needing to order but now got them at the other store. I asked him how did he find them if he had looked all over and had to order them? If they were at that store why he didn’t just get them? He said he got different ones or something like that. Oh I said to him he said he was ordering them yesterday why would he buy them now? He said they were different and he was going to order them tomorrow he wanted to look why we were out today.

We got outside he said my gift was in the back of the truck I had to come back there so he could show me What he got. I went to look he got me gnomes. One lights up say’s welcome then one that stands alone. They are cute.

He said he found some at Lowe’s but they had to be ordered. He said one was reading a book one was hunting or had a gun like he was. He said you like guns and to read a gnomes I thought it would be perfect. But they had been to a bunch of places and couldn’t find them they were order only. He was going to order them tomorrow but he had spent more than planned on the necklace so he was hoping to find them somewhere else. Then he found those today. I do like them. He could of just gave me the necklace for my birthday and Christmas he didn’t have to do that. The necklace is very nice and I know cost a little bit. I sure was not thinking that he was looking for gnomes. I can’t believe he remembered something like that and would think to get something like that.

After he gave me the necklace we were talking and I told him he didn’t have to do that or spend that much or something like that. He said you don’t know me very well. I wanted to do it and was able to. I love you.

He Got Me Something

About 12:30 he sent me a massage all excited telling me he got me something. I had fallen a sleep so I got it about an hour later. I said ok and that I told him not to worry about it. He never said anything until a few minutes ago when I asked him something. He hasn’t said anymore about it.

I didn’t get up to rush up there to get it I probably won’t get it until tomorrow when we go shopping. I don’t feel like getting ready and going out just for that. He is at work anyway so I won’t get to see him long anyway. I could go after he gets off but that won’t be until 8 tonight. I am truly in no rush to go get it. I am surprised he hasn’t said anything about coming to get it or so he can give it to me. If he does I am going to tell him I will get it tomorrow.

He was in no hurry to get it why should I be. I am not in a good mood today not because of this. I am in a shitty mood because of how things are with the bitch. I wish I was working today and not here. Can’t wait until Monday. I don’t have to be here and around her. Oh and he hasn’t said anymore about having to order “them” whatever “them” are. Who knows what he is doing or has done. All I really wanted no one wants or will get so.

I Feel Like I Am Wrong For How I Feel

This pretty much sums it up what JW done when it came to Christmas shopping. Well not for everyone just me I should say. This what has been bothering me for a bit now. At the same time feel it shouldn’t bother me and I am wrong because it does.

I started shopping weeks ago for Christmas. Like right after Thanksgiving. I picked up a lot of Little Bites stuff why we were grocery shopping. I have looked here and there for stuff each week. One weekend we went all over looking for stuff. Pawn shops, malls and other random stores. So he got to places and was able to shop. He picked up his gift for his family’s get together. He picked up a gift for the guy at works kid, his self and something for the dog.

What did I get for Christmas and/or my Birthday? Nothing at all. I was told he couldn’t shop because I am always with him when he gets to go. I told him many times if you want to shop go shop. I am not going to follow you call me or find me when you are done. I even go wait in the truck most likely because I only needed a few things or to check for something quick. He never did. He could of ask the guy at work to take him but didn’t. He said the guy at work was looking when he want shopping and went a few places. He told me at one point I could probably get them here but I don’t know where to find them. I said I am sure if you ask someone they can get it or tell you were in the store to find it. He says yeah true but i didn’t bring money with me. He keeps saying he has to order it but it was to late to get it before Christmas but he didn’t order it so it would be here by today or early next week. He is waiting to order it. But then if he can get it at the store why didn’t they just do that? I don’t know what is going on with it. He keeps saying he can’t find “them” I thought I may know what he was talking about even made a comment about seeing some at X store that night. I was going to buy them for my gift from the kids. But I had already spent more than I should of so I didn’t. I just said I had seen them and that was what I was going to do. But didn’t because I already spent money. He could of went got it or called his friend he has looking run and pick it up. The store is at the end of his block.

Then Christmas Eve he say’s yeah I am going to have to get you something Saturday and order your other things. Before it was he was getting these things whatever they are. Now it is he has to get some stuff at the store and order these things. If he was going to get stuff at the store why didn’t he just get it before? Why wait until after Christmas? I told him not to worry about it. He was like no I have to get you something.

My feelings on all of it was I was a little upset or disappointed.

I run my ass off to make Christmas nice for the kids and I want to don’t get me wrong. Normally they ask for money and to go shopping and get me something. This year being how it is I did all the shopping. I even bought their gifts to trade between each other for them. I picked up a couple books for myself because the little ones get upset if mom don’t have a gift. So i bought them wrapped them and put them under the tree. That is what I got. I am okay with that.

I was upset or bothered by what JW done because, I had all that to do and done it and still took the time to find him something nice. Track it down take time from work to go get it and everything. Get him something I know he could use and needed. He does nothing. It is Christmas and my Birthday and he does nothing. Oh I couldn’t find it i have to go to the store blah blah. It feels like an after thought or something I don’t know how to explain it. I know he is going to say he has to go get me something or order it again. I just want to tell him forget it everything is over with. I am sure he say he still wants to get me something i just want to tell him it isn’t the same now. I feel like I am wrong for feeling that way and that I shouldn’t say anything at all about it. At the same time I feel like I should. I feel like if he really tried and wanted to he could of had something in time. I know he had the money that wasn’t an issue.

I think he does care and he does love me. I do him and it isn’t about getting something back. But you know some times it is nice to be included in the holidays and feel like someone wanted to make you feel you were.

I keep thinking about when I was with father of the year how I would go out of my way to find him nice stuff and things he would like. He wouldn’t get me anything or if he did it be some little something he grabbed for a couple dollars so he could say he got something. No thought or effort put into it at all. How his family was the same way we would shop had to get his family nice stuff even if I didn’t buy for mine or have the money to do it. They would spend $100’s on him and hand me a candle from the $1 place or something.

I don’t know what to think or how to feel about what JW done. But I am hurt. I don’t know if it is just a guy thing they don’t see it as a big deal when they get it they run out of time or what. But then I know of a lot of guys that would of had something no matter what. Just like I made sure I had something for him. I just tell myself this is just how it is or going to be. At least I am happy and he is better about other things. I feel like just don’t expect anything at the holidays and why should it bother me that much it is no different than any other time. I feel like now I know how it is going to be I know not to go out of my way to get him stuff either then because it don’t matter. I feel like I am wrong for feeling that way.

I am stuck between feeling like I am living the past all over and this isn’t the same. This one is completely different than father of the year. Just not good with gifts or what. I am use to it so why does it bother me so much now? I guess I just want to feel he cares and not just be like its okay because I am use to it. It makes me question everything then. I don’t like feeling this way. I feel like I need that extra from him to make me feel that everything is okay. I hate feeling that way because I never did before. Like I said in my post I Don’t Like The Person They Have Turned Me Into I think it all comes down to that. I feel wrong for expecting more from him because of what someone else has done. Why should I it is my issues so just live with it it is what it is. Things are good enough. But I don’t want to feel things are just good enough. So how do I fix it without expecting more out of him? Why is it wrong for me to want him to go that extra for me if that is what I need and he cares? But how far extra should he have to go because of me and my issues?

I hate being so confused about how I feel and why. Or about what I want/need and what I feel about him and if I should or shouldn’t expect it from him?

Merry Christmas

I hope you and your family had a nice Christmas this year.

We just did our gifts about an hour ago. The kids are happy with their gifts and are in there playing. Wasn’t what I wanted but I am glad they are happy. JW was supposed to stay the night and have Christmas with us before going to his family’s. But she started her shit again I don’t want him deal with it.

I went over to his house last night to finish wrapping the kids things. We got something to eat before we got started. I hung out with him for a while. We got something to eat before we started wrapping. Then we jumped in and got it done. We finished around 11.

With it being so late I knew he was going to his family’s early afternoon wouldn’t get back until this evening. I wasn’t sure if or when we would get to see each other. So I went ahead and gave him his gifts to open.

He was surprised I got him a new backpack. He really liked the one I picked out. I showed him the other and he said he liked that one. He liked it has a lot of pockets to keep things in. The night before I went to the store and I found a Christmas ornament with his dog on it. I picked it up. When I got home that night after shopping I found some robes I bought awhile ago and had put up. I took one of them out for him.

They are new with tags, I got them when they were on sale and put up for gifts later. I forgot about them. I figured he may like one. He liked all of his gifts. I think he was shocked really. He kept saying he couldn’t believe I got him a new backpack. He said something about it and I said I know have you looked at the price of them lately? You can’t find anything nice or decent for less than like $200.

He got this look and said what and you better of not of paid $200 for that for me. I didn’t tell him how much it was. He just keep saying you better of not spent $200 on that. I just said I found one I liked at a price I was okay with. He said it again a few more times as I was getting ready and leaving. I just laughed at him and went home.

I am glad I gave him his stuff late-night we didn’t get to see each other today. Things didn’t go as planned here. He didn’t get home until much later than normal.

I have been so tired today. I don’t know what is wrong with me. I think it being so cold out has a big part of why. I am always sleepy when it is cold or raining. It was in the mid 40’s last night. It is going to be in the 30’s tonight. Mid 50’s for high today and tomorrow. I could just sleep until Monday not care.

Valentines Day 2020

This weekend has been a hard weekend for me. Valentines night after work I went to JW’s. I got him a box of candy, I didn’t know what else to get. He got me this big basket like thing. It had a big stuffed monkey in it, some perfumes, wine, flowers and candy. I think I am forgetting something. He said he knows I call Little Bitty Monkey he thought I would give it to her. He had a bear with candy and a rose i think for her the lady gave him when he bought the other.

I hung out there with him for a bit. He was so extremely tired he was trying not to fall a sleep, but he was. They got slammed at work almost as soon as they opened at 10 and it stayed that way until they closed at 8 that night. Normally we talk off and on through out the day I think I heard from him twice. He was making me food. I pulled up and seen how busy they were I told him not to even bother. He said it was already done he dropped it with other orders. He ran it out the back, handed it to me got back inside, before the boss lady seen he was gone.

I kept telling him let me go home so he could sleep. He kept saying no be wasn’t sleeping. He said come lay down with him for a bit first. We laid down for a short time. I finally told him I was leaving I would turn stuff off and lock up. He said no got up and walked me out.

Over all it was a nice night. I wish he hadn’t done what he did. I have it at his house still. Use it there. Im not going to drink wine by myself. I dont normally drink it at all so we will see how it is. The rest i will use there as well. He even said um i wasnt thinking you can’t really take it home right now. I said yeah i know. He like thats okay but I’m still going to get you stuff if it is a holiday. You will just have stuff here now too.

He loves to buy for the holidays. I’m not so much into it but hey. One things settle maybe i will be more into life again.

Flashback Moment

After work Last night I stopped at JW’s of course. We talked for a while and he rubbed my back and neck. It has been bad because of my new desk since we moved. After he was done he kept reaching over rubbing my back, legs arms whatever here and there. He said I would do this every night if you were here and let me. He said I would rub you from head to toe front and back. Just to make you feel good, sleep good and to see that smile.

He keeps asking what I want to eat he wants to make me dinner one night after work. He was asking me again last night. Said he is going to make it Thursday since I can get off early that night.

On the way home I was thinking about us. How we have ended up together and handling things. We don’t really have a date on things. If you figure we got together the night he kissed me on the beach or shortly after that was the 9th of January. All though we have known each other since we were kids grew up together we just got back in contact. Saturday before Christmas. I thought about him taking me out for my birthday and wanting to do something for Valentines day.

I all of a sudden had this flashback of Father of the Year. We started talking right before Christmas and our first date was my birthday. He took me to dinner. Then New Years Eve, we went sat in the car at some beach, it was freezing and raining so we did not get out. We just talked for awhile decided we would give us a try.

Shortly after that he picked me up from work and had made this big dinner for us while his roommate was out of town.

And he use to rub my back and legs all the time for me at night because I would hurt so bad. He did a lot but more offten at the end when I had my accident and got hurt and things. He always wanted to celebrate holidays.

Thinking about it all that with Father of the Year came back. Stuff I had forgot about or not thought of in years. It is all so close to being the same. Was kind of weird to me at first I was like oh wow no this is not good. But then it all just kind of went away and I don’t know how I really feel about it now.

As I was thinking this isn’t good, the thought that he is nothing like Father of the Year popped in my head and how Father of the Year did and was and how JW is nothing like that.

Father of the Year always wanted praised for the things he did or said. It was more like he was doing it for himself than me. Like I did this for you so you will tell me what a good job I done and stroke my ego. It don’t matter if you really like it or it isn’t what you wanted. All that matters is I did something. I know it is the thought that counts. But a lot of times there was no real thought put into things.

I would buy him nice things like jewelry, electronics or even a truck I went to buy him one time. I got cused out for not buying it and it was a pos. I buy him jewelry I got $5 lingerie. I buy him nice electronics I would get a little light thing with a cube to sit on it.

I would show him things I liked or wanted that wasn’t going to break the bank, it wasn’t like he didn’t know. He say he had no money. Because he spent it all in the little stores or buying things he wanted. He would have his check I would just tell him get it out of that or what. We have x amount that we can spend on each other. He just walk in buy something and walk out. There would be times I got nothing at all after him making a big deal about having to celebrate a holiday and what we were going to do and get each other. But boy let me not get something or just get a card with a nice letter or note written inside and he would pout like a kid.

JW just isn’t that way, he always wants to make sure I am happy, I am taken care of. He wants to make this dinner because of what I said the other day about not getting to eat a Home Cooked Meal  He wants to make something for me. That wasn’t what I was getting at I was just telling them why I thought I was wanting to eat so much. Because they were saying oh I was pregnant joking around. He has been after me since what is it I want to eat so he can make me something. I told him he don’t have to but he insist. He wanted to go out Friday for the holiday but I have to work he has to work. He won’t be off until 8 and has to get home and get ready. I won’t be off until 9 at the earliest more likely 10 or later. He said he was going to cook Thursday I told him that would be our celebration for the holiday. He was okay with it. Thursday is about the only day we have that we get off half way decent hour. He gets off at 7 and I get off by 9 if nothing is going on. We still aren’t out until late. Over the weekend it is hard for me to get out until later when the kids go to bed and he works Saturday anyway until 8. Once I get moved get the bitch out of my house and get my kids settled again things will be different to a point. I won’t have to worry about having time to go see him and things. He will meet the kids can start coming over going and doing things with us. All of us spending time together. Making time for us will be a little easier as well. I won’t have to worry about rushing home to the kids because I will have more time with them and things.

But it just blew me away when I thought of all that between the relationships. I still don’t know what to think of it. But I am happy, I have been happy from the start. I wasn’t really happy with Father of the Year, I never really was, I never expected it to go anywhere between us. I felt he was more of just the friend type but he wasn’t like any of the other guys I had dated and thought maybe I just wasn’t giving him a chance he was a “nice” guy. Things just went from there. You see how that ended.

But I don’t feel that way about JW. He wasn’t ever one I ever really thought about in anyway he was just always there we weren’t close for say but have always talked and hung out together when we were at the same places, just as we did as kids. Even now I wasn’t thinking about anything between us to start with. Then I kind of got the idea that he may be interested in more. That was the first time I really thought of him as anything more than just a friend. I wasn’t even sure then if he was or wasn’t interested in more. But the more I thought about it and the more we hung out together and things he treated me the way he did I felt that maybe it was something I would’t mind if he was interested. Honestly the night at the beach he kissed me, I wanted him to. I wanted to him but didn’t, I was kind of scared to, because I still wasn’t sure that I wasn’t maybe reading more into things between us because of the way he is. I never felt like that with Father of the Year. With him it was like we were just going through the motions. I was still waiting to see how things turned out and I had feelings for him, but not the same kind of feelings.

I got it all out I am just going to try to forget about it and enjoy what I have now and build a future that we can all grow and be happy in. Because we deserve it after everything we have been through.

The wrong one will find you in peace and leave you in pieces. The right one will find you in pieces and lead you to peace. Be careful who you entertain and give your energy to!

I feel this says it all. With JW he has done nothing but try to make me smile, help me how ever he can, be there just to let me vent, cry or whatever I needed. He always wants to know if I made it home, if i have eaten, how my day is going, telling me how happy he is with me. He hasn’t asked for anything, don’t expect anything. When I try to do for him he tells me I have enough to handle and take care of he will take care of it. I made him today give me his w2 so I can file his taxes for him because he was going to pay someone to do it. He said you don’t need to take time to do it your busy. I told him I would do it sitting at work when there is nothing to do and I am bored. No point in him paying to get something done I can do for free in a few minutes. It wasn’t he didn’t want me to see what he made or what he already told me when we were talking about other stuff. It is just how he is, he is like me just use to taken care of it himself and getting things done.

Father of the year had nothing and never did anything or took care of anything. He just left it all for someone else or it didn’t get done. Even when you tried to help or do it he never offered help and it was never right or good enough. Boy did he leave me with a mess to clean up.

Valentines Day,To Celebrate or Not and How

Me and JW were talking the other day and valentines day came up. I said I didn’t celebrate or hadn’t in a really long time and never really did then. He said this year you are. I said no we didn’t need to it was fine. He said something about what day it was on and we looked it is on a Friday. I work his later night and one of my when I get done I get off nights. He will be off by 8 he only works a hour later than normal Friday and Saturday. He said something about you’ll see or we will see. Nothing more was really said about it.

Me and Bff were talking and she said something about it and I told her what was said. She said no your celebrating this year now stop it. I said I don’t know. She said he wants to you need to or should. We could do something when I get off, if I get off by 9 but I never know. It isn’t like we are going to be getting all dressed up and all that, it is going to be late I am coming straight from work. We go to dinner or what all the time no different than any other time. Gifts what are we going to buy? We haven’t been together all that long to really get into buying anything personal or what.

I am sure I will see him after work and don’t know what to get or do. I don’t know what he will do, but I am sure he will do something. It is just how he is.

So what do you get someone you haven’t been with very long at all? I don’t even know what kind of things he really likes or what. I do but don’t since we haven’t been in touch for so long.

 

The Kids Were Thrilled

Christmas morning the kids got up and of course couldn’t wait to open their gifts. We started out letting them open what they had gotten each other first then I gave them the gifts I got them. I knew once they got the ones I got I would probably lose them and I wanted them to really take time to see what they got from each other and enjoy it and talk. They said they wanted to save the big one for last as well. I felt kind of bad because it looked like Little Bitty got a lot more and nicer than what they had gotten but she really didn’t. She got I technically 3 gifts from me not one. But all of hers cost less than their one big gift. I didn’t intend for it to end up with her with three but I bought one of the horse sets for her because she got them all but that one from the other kids. They didn’t have enough for it and it was over their budget. If two had bought it for her she wouldn’t of gotten other sets. I was planing on doing things different when I bought it. Plus Mr. 9 had enough to buy two sets. But no one really noticed. No one said anything they were happy she got things she really wanted.

Then I gave them their gifts and they were so thrilled and excited. The looks on their faces really were priceless. I took the boys and stuck cardboard in the bottom of a gift box you would put clothes in and stuck the game system and controllers in it. I took oldest lap top and stuck it in a medium to small size gift bag. I would of never guessed what was in either box or thought for a minute that was what would be in them. I don’t think they did either. Oldest thought the bag hers was in was a bag for someone else. I told her to grab it I had something for someone I needed to put in it. I knew she would like the bag it was real pretty had a horse on it.

Mr. 9’s face when he seen the puppet that he wanted was great as well. He carried it around and played with it off and on all day and showed my sister and them when they came over. The things he has made it do already oh boy I am kind of scared to see what else he comes up with.

Little Bitty said they were sold out of the horses the other day how did you get these? Mr.9 said because we were smart and bought them weeks before that when we first seen them to make sure you got them. She said that was so nice thank you. When she seen her tablet she said this is for me? Then when we went to bed last night I said we can watch our show on it and it will be a bigger screen than my phone. She said okay but I will hold it because I don’t want you to drop it. I said I won’t and we are on the bed so it will be okay. She said no I will hold it and keep it safe. We watched two shows then she was ready to go to sleep. She kept watching to see how charged it was and telling me I think it needs to be charged. I had to explain to her that you should leave it until it was dead then charge it and not play with it why it was charging and let it charge up all the way before using it again.

Mr. 14 seemed a little upset my mother said I told you he wanted a laptop he is mad she got one and he didn’t. I knew that wasn’t it at all. I thought maybe because it seemed that Little Bitty got more than they did. I had to run out and when I got back we went outside and talked for a minute. I asked him what was wrong he said he didn’t get the Lego sets he wanted. My mother told him she was going to get one and then didn’t. I asked him if he wanted a laptop if he was upset about that? He said no I hadn’t really thought about one in a while. I explained that you know the game cost a lot and the lap top cost so much that I thought he would rather have the game than the lap top and that we could get him one later if he needed or wanted one. He said no he would much rather have the game. He just thought he was getting the other things and didn’t. He really wanted them as well. I told him maybe later he could get them with his money or when I got some more we could get them. Once I get past the first few months here and if they make Father of the Year pay me I should have money to get them things here and there more than we have been. I’m still not going to buy them things all the time or what. But it would be nice to get them things once in a while instead of saying I don’t have it or wait until your birthday or Christmas. I have thought about giving them an allowance or maybe splitting the money we spend on the weekend up between them and let them decide what to spend it on if they want to all go do something like we do or if they would rather stay home and save the money or get something with it.

The witch screwed up dinner again just like Thanksgiving of course. But it didn’t even really matter to me i didn’t care. We had a really good day other than dealing with her. No one was worried really cared when it came to dinner.

I am just glad that they were so happy and got something they really wanted.

An Almost New Game

At work today me and the one owner were her and talking about a little bit of everything really. I asked him if him or his son knew about the Ps4 game systems? He said a little bit and asked why? I told him I went and got the boys one for Christmas but I knew nothing about them and was just told I may need to update it or something before wrapping. He said some of them do need to be. He said I wish I knew you were getting one I have one sitting at my house that is brand new just taking up space.

He said he bought it to play with the guys at work and things and then none of them ever bought one and don’t play. He said it has been played by me 3x ever and the kids about 5. I told him that I rented it and had to pay for it still. I told him if he was interested in selling it to let me know what kind he had and what he wanted for it. If he was willing to take a few payments on it. He said he was going to have his son pull it out hook it up go through it and see what one it is for sure how much memory it has and things and let me know tomorrow. If he has that and wants to work a deal then I will take the one I have back. I haven’t paid on it and it is twice as much as a new one. He said his don’t have the 2nd controller but I already have that I bought to go with the other.

I hope we can work out a good price and things. At least I know where this one came from and that it is basically brand new. It won’t be twice as much as a new one at the store like I am paying now. I am going to message him tonight remind him to ask his son to pull it out and check it out for me. if he can run the updates and things. He said he wouldn’t wipe it clean so the kids could keep the games and things he has bought and play them if they want to.

I Think I Pulled It Off

I think I may have pulled off a nice Christmas for once for the kids. Now I am trying to be made to feel that I am in the wrong or doing the wrong thing.

The boys have asked and asked for a Ps4 for their birthday and or Christmas for the last few years. I just haven’t had it. I went and got one yesterday for them to share. It is costing me more than I wanted but it will be worth it to see their faces.

I then went and bought my oldest a laptop. It is used but it is between a $500/$600 laptop I got for $225. I have a 6 month warranty on it. I got the extra controller for the PlayStation. I put those two things on layaway I am going to pick them up Friday or Monday before work.

For Little Bitty I am getting the 7 in Kindle Fire and a kidkraft stable. The kids got her a bunch of the Royal Breed horses. We went to the store where they had them over the weekend and they were sold out of the horse sets she wanted. She was so disappointed. She said oh they are all gone I really wanted those, I was going to have Heart Land now how am I going to have a heart Land? That is our show we watch when we are home at night. We snuggle in bed and watch it on my phone when I am off or there is no school the next day and she is up when I get home from work. She is going to be super excited when she opens everything Christmas.

My mom is mad because I wouldn’t go in with her to buy them Chromebooks. I don’t want the Chromebooks. My oldest wants to save things and do her school work and things on it. She needs space to save stuff and do things. Mr. 14 hasn’t said anything about wanting a laptop in a while. I figure the Ps4 will be good because the boys both really want it and that will give Mr. 9 something to play on while Little Bitty plays on her tablet and oldest on her laptop. Then Mr. 14 can use the computer to do his school work. I can work on getting him a laptop after the first of the year if i find he needs one or still wants one. I didn’t have enough to buy them all laptops or the two laptops and then get Mr. 9 something as nice right now as well. I think this way they all get something they really want and that is nice. She says I need to give Mr. 14 more incentive to do his school work and he is going to feel that I don’t care about him because he has been asking her for a laptop or if he is going to get one to when they have have been talking about things. But I think that is because he knows she will not buy him the Ps4 or something like that. He knows she buys my oldest nice things and spends money on her and don’t buy them as nice of things or get them things at all a lot of times. He isn’t dumb he see’s it. My oldest even said she don’t want her to buy her anything anyway because she uses it holds it over her to get her to do things she wants or try to get her to. One reason I wasn’t going to go together with her on anything. Because when she starts that it is going to be a big fight. This way they have what they want if she starts about what she buys them if she does at this point then who cares they aren’t going to be to worried because they are going to have what they really wanted and will use the most.

I only got them each the one really nice thing other than Little Bitty I got her the stable and the tablet but that is because even the two together come to a lot less than what I am spending on the other three. I told oldest hers is her birthday and Christmas and she was fine with that. Most years I try to set a side x amount for each kid and try to find something nice a bigger gift and a few small to go with it. Because things have been so tight. This year I wanted to get them what they really wanted if I could. Even though I am spending a little less on her she still is getting nice things that she wants and doing it this way helps everyone get nice things they really want. They all are getting the one gift from me and then the gifts they got each other. Since I decided to do things the way I have. Most times they get about 3 to 4 gifts. But I really think they are going to like this much more. I may try to find them a game if I get a few minutes have a couple dollars extra this week. Oldest wants a batman game but I don’t know if she would rather have it on the computer or on the Ps4 so I am going to check and see. I figured the $10 monthly thing will give them something to try it out Christmas and then from there I will take them to get a game when I am off again or in a couple weeks. I will see what she wants and do that.

Father of the Year promised to help buy laptops over two years ago before he pulled his stink and disapeared and they were asking for a play station then as well. They know I try and do what I can but they don’t under stand fully why I can never seem to get them the nicer things they want when I work so much and gone so much. They shouldn’t have to all the time. we all fully know what Christmas is about and understand but for once I want to get them things that will really get used they really like and not something just because it’s Christmas we all go through the motions of at least they have something to unwrap even if they only play with it twice and don’t touch it again.