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{May 18, 2020}   Re: A New Position

So last week I told you that I moved into a new position temporarily why I wasn’t working at my day job and until the new girl started. On March 18 the owner said we would talk in two weeks and see where we stood. April first came and went and we didn’t talk. The new girl that had already started was sent home until after lock down because she works at a hotel at night and they felt she was to much of a risk to be around. So it was just me there doing my job and two other peoples. No one said not to come in or to go back to my other hours and the accountant and billing lady told me they wanted me to take the spot in the accountants office and stay there. They didn’t want the other new girl that was supposed to start any day. The billing lady said she did not want anyone else dong billing with her but me because she found so many issues with stuff the one who did start and worked some did.

I just kept working they said they were going to get the owner to keep me in that position and to put the two new girls in other spots. I said but he wants me over there and says he is moving me. They said don’t worry about it we will take care of that, just keep doing a really good job.

We are now a month past the time me and the owner talked and he still hadn’t said anything about getting together and talking. I see him every day he knows I am still coming in the other hours and just doing day hours. He hasn’t offered to talk to me or anything. Finally we were about a week and half before the first of May and they were talking about starting to open things around us. I stopped him Thursday evening and asked him if I could talk to him. It was after 6 everyone had went home it was just me him and M who works with at night I worked with there. M was outside or something. He said yes absolutely come on in. He is that way he has no problem taking time to talk to any of the employee’s if they need to talk to him about something. I knew if he had wanted to talk before that he would of let me know so I wasn’t to worried about it. But I needed to know where I stood with them talking about starting to open things up and all that.

I went in and I just told him, I said you know in March we said we would try this with the new hours and position and me helping out for two weeks until the other girl started. I said then things stayed closed and I have just been doing it. But things are opening back up or going to start soon and I just wanted to see where we stood since you said we would talk in two weeks and we hadn’t. He said we have a full time 40 hours a week day position we want to offer you it is yours if you want it. He said the position you are in now. He said I never would of thought a year ago when I hired you into my dispatch department that you would end up in my accounting office. He said but then you did and he said you just flourished and took off and are doing such an amazing job. He said you are very professional, you show up on time, you work, you get the job done you don’t have all these lose ends all over the place, you make sure it is right, you aren’t leaving or coming in late or calling out. He kept making comments about how professional I am and hard worker and things.

He said with the 40 hours after your first year you get a weeks paid vacation, after the second year you get 2 and after 5 years you get 3. He said you get health insurance I pay I flat $250 a person a month for that you pay the rest. He said I have a life insurance policy I pay in full for you at $25,000. The payroll employee screening company pays another $5,000 policy for each employee. He said bonus is like I gave you in March last time we talked. It is not tied to how well you have done through the year or anything like that. It is just a you work here we are going to give you a bonus kind of thing. He said it is $200 a year for every year you have been here. He said raises are not something we give to often and there is no ryme or reason why I give them or set time or amount. He said I give them to who I want when I want and I give what I want. He said it isn’t a set this time of year everyone gets one and they all get this much or that much. He said some get them some don’t and no one really gets them at the same time. No one knows if or when someone gets one or how much they got. He said your pay we brought you down a $1 with the new position. I said yes and……He said there was a couple reasons I did that. He said when you started you were only part time, you couldn’t get any health insurance and things like that. He said and you were working night shift not days. I said that was fine I under stood. He said but I accounted for the fact that you have been with us for a year, that you know the company and what is going on from a stand point that others in that area do not and that can help you and help them. He said and the fact you had already been helping them before you moved over there and knew parts of the job for that side. He said so I thought and felt it was fair to leave you were I did. I said that was fine and thank you. Because really it is I am days and not nights and I do get more hours and he does pay more for part time to make it worth it or try to. Plus I also know that I am making a $1 more an hour than the billing lady who has been there for 5+ years and that she is making the same as the new girl that just started. That is what they had started out telling me I would be cut back to if I stayed in one of the positions over there. I had said okay or I could do it maybe I would have to think about it but I was prepared to go in asking for what I am making now and pushing for it not backing down. Because I felt it was fair considering all the work I am doing that I am doing the work of three to 4 people. Even if the other lady was making less and had been there longer. She don’t do near what I do and I am in a different position than her. They want me trained to do her job, plus the job I am doing and both the new girls jobs. Because if one is out I have to be able to jump over and run the show in that area too on top of doing my job. I am handing a lot of things none of the rest handle and I am doing a split job. In he mornings I do billing then after lunch I work with the accountant and after that I fit in all the extra stuff that is just mine to handle. Or stay late to get it done.

But why he was talking about what he put my pay at and not giving raises on a set time and all that, he kept talking about how good of a job I am doing and how professional I am and things.

I also told him when I first went in and told him I wanted to talk to him about my job and hours and all that. I told him they were talking about starting to open things back up so I wanted to be able to let them know at my other day job I wasn’t going to be back. To give them enough time to find someone else and train them and things if they needed to. That I didn’t want to leave them stuck because I am the only one there that does what I do and that opens them and closes them and keeps them open through the day and calls to get them work.

That was when he was talking again about hard working and professional and things again. And he said I am sure you will be compinsated or you will be being compinated when things start to pick back up and if you keep working hard like you do and doing such a good job. In other words I can expect to be getting raises and that the work I am doing is being noticed. But that he has to wait for things to pick back up and get back to normal before he can do to much. I know the yard guy said he gave him like a $2 raise because he was doing such a good job and told him how good he was doing and things. Even if it is just extra bonus or something because I went in there and got them cleaned up and they went from weeks or month or more behind in billing to a few days to a week at any given time now. We are about to be up to billing the same day stuff is delivered. I am getting everything else in order and turned around and figuring out how to do everything that has not been done for months because the other two girls left and no one has touched their jobs since they left. It is a huge mess and every time I ask where is this or how do we do this all I get is figure it out so and so did it and we have no idea how or what she done she just done it. We never thought she would leave or thought about what we would do if she did. They are still coming up with stuff she done all the time and giving me going we forgot she did this. Oh she done this. we don’t know how she didn’t write it down or what figure it out put together something that works for you.

A raise or something extra would be great considering all I am doing. I don’t think he knows what all I am doing and if he knew I think he would be shocked. He may find out before to long because my boss has made a few comments to me and I am done and tired of it. If it keeps on I am going to go to the owner and say something.

But for now that is where we are. The girl that was supposed to be in my position started last week. They put her doing a different position she is fine with that. I am shocked she has been a bar tender for 5 years and has never done anything like I am doing. They were going to hire her to do it. I have not done what I am doing on a large scale like I am now but I have done it before on a smaller scale have experience. Not with all of it but a lot of it. Plus I have taken finance classes and tax classes and things. I know what is going on and things.

The other new girl that got sent home decided not to come back because she is still at the hotel and they asked her to start with and she said no. Then messaged back said yes and she couldn’t leave there to come here when that is where she has been able to work all this time. So now we have to fill that position. I am a little aggervated because I am doing 3 jobs really and all this time they kept saying once they come in and we fill those postions they will take some of the work load off of you and do that. That was the one that sits over there’s job so we will give some of this stuff back to them. Then brought them in and gave them a different position that has nothing to do with what I am doing and don’t plan to give them or the one some of this stuff I am doing back to her. That does make me mad because I was overwhelmed the first few weeks to month. Then the next few weeks I felt I was starting to get a grip on things and get them caught up. But now I feel like I am falling behind because I am doing everything for my boss and doing the billing that it don’t leave me time to handle my stuff they want me to take care of. I am going to give it a few more weeks and try to get myself straight again and get a system in place and see where to go from there. If I am going to be able to catch it up and keep it up and get a rutine going or am I going to have to say hey look she needs to take over some jobs or we need to hire someone to take over some jobs because i can’t keep doing three jobs and not for the pay of one. Then see where we all stand and what happens or if I will have to go to the owner. My boss is nice but I don’t need nice i need a boss that is going to do what needs to be done to get the job done. That is going to hire someone if that is what it means or divide work up with the others like he said or give me time in a day to do my job not just time to help him and help billing and then think it should all just happen and get done.

Plus I have not been trained all the way through on how to do anything. Parts of jobs here and there and mover on to a different part of a different job and do it because it needs done. Now when I have to go back and ask questions or don’t know something he makes comments about taking notes and things. I have tons of notes but when you have pieces here and there it is hard to put them together and make since. or when you were never told but he insist that he did and tells me to figure it out and get it together. I have a report that needs sent but he told me i should of taken notes and he told me already. I told him no he hadn’t he said figure it out. I got pissed off and had other stuff to do so I laid it down there and went to do what he said to do and get done. When he ask I am going to tell him it is right here you never showed me or told me how to do it. It isn’t even how to it. It is ready i just need the contact info for the person it is going to. He says I told you it was so and so. I said I don’t have his info. I gave it to you. I said no he you should of taken notes. I am not going to be done this way. He tells me one thing the new girl something else. I ask him the other day what he was telling her about a calunder to put our time off on so he could see it and would know about it. I was right now it was no secret that I could hear them talking. I said what a calunder? He said something. I said I was just told to email it to you. Now we need to put it somewhere else or do it different? He said no that is what I am showing her and told her to do too. I just heard him tell her different. Friday me and her went to lunch it came up she said yeah he told me to put it on this or that calundear and share it with him so he could see it. I said see that is what I was aksing him that day what he was talking about if we all did that or could. He told me no he was just telling you to email him and showing you how. She said yes I know I was wondering why and didn’t know what to say. I said no it was fine but you caught it too. She said yes and that isn’t’ all. I said yes I know he does things like this all the time. I am not going to put up with that either. I will go to the owner. I think the owner already knows and I know he isn’t happy with a lot that he has done and is doing lately. I don’t want his job or to see him get fired. But I am not going to be done this way either. I have seen him through the owners wife under the bus to him over stuff he was supposed to do and said he thought she was doing it. He told me he was supposed to before it ever happened got up and walked out went home. Never done it never talked to anyone. Then told the owner no your wife was supposed to let you know yesterday. I thought she was letting you know we talked about such and such and. He never talked to her about any of it he talked to the other lady there and me and that was that. I said I am just doing what I was told he told me he talked to you or would be. He didn’t tell me any different so I thought you were fine with it. I will stay late tonight that isn’t a problem i am use to it and will come in late the next few days so I don’t go over 40. That way I am here to do my night hours and whatever I have time fore before that to help day people. He said no don’t worry about it it wasn’t my fault. It wasn’t they told me to do something different he said he would handle it with him.

But over all I am happy and am sure these bumps along the way isn’t anything I can’t work through and get things settled down. How ever I may have to do it. Even the owners son is coming to me about things and wanting me to work with him on setting up our new computer system and things for our department. When that should be my boss and him and the other lady. But the other lady don’t care. He don’t want to work with my boss because he don’t like the way he does things and how he is still trying to do things even after having an employee that is being investigated and a computer taken for evidence and things. He called me to find out what the new girls needed to have access to and asking if they really needed this or that or not and things. I don’t mind helping him set a more secure system up for the whole place and agree with him things need to change even if my boss don’t like it. But I don’t feel I should be the one to be helping him unless the owner or my boss says to. After we talk I call the billing lady into our office and talk to her and the accountant and tell the what was said and what info he wants and things. Then I go back and tell the owners son this is what boss says, this is what so and so says and this is what I think, know or feel. So you can do what you think is right to do from all of that. He will say I don’t care what he has to say or yeah but what he is saying is wrong or not a good point or reason to do this or that. He will say this is what I am going to do will that let what needs to be done by who needs to do it be done? Or do they need more? I tell him that is what he does. I am sure if boss figured out that is what is happening he won’t be happy. But I am not hiding anything. Me and him are in the same office a foot apart and I am on the phone with him right there. I call the billing lady in there talk to them both about it and call owners son back right there tell him what was said. He hears it. I tell the owners son I think they need this or that but not this. They had this but no reason for them to now so we probably should take it or what. Because of what just happen we need to be careful. If boss don’t like it then he needs to be the one calling him and talking to him. Because I could put together a good system for all of us pretty easy I think if I was given a day or two to work on it. I know who is in dispatch and what they need access to. I know who is in my area and what they need access to. I could put it all down and everyone else in the building and make it so each area only had access to what they needed of each area’s info not full access to everything and free run to add delete or lose things. That is what the owners son is wanting to do but my boss isn’t wanting him to lock everything down so much. I kind of wonder why. Because as long as he has access to what he needs and everyone else dose as well why does he care what who don’t have access to? Unless he is in on this stuff with the other girl who is under investigation or doing something with the books. I may bring that up to him when we talk again.

It is late I better get off here. But I wanted to let you all know what happen about the position.

I went that Friday to tell them at my day job but I just missed the guys. I was off that following Monday so I went to tell them then. Only one was there but I went ahead and told him. They figured it was coming they know I need the money and things couldn’t afford not to work all that time. Plus pops kept telling me I needed to get on full time over there and take it that I had a really good opportunity over there and was better off over there. I told the one that was there, it is so much more about $4 or more an hour than what I make there, I have health insurance if i want or need it, I have life insurance I don’t have to pay. I get bonus, and like I told him if nothing else the experience that I am going to get working in the accounting office for a place like that. I can take that somewhere else and make decent money. Once I can show I have been there a year or two and know what I am doing. I could probably make twice what I am making now or close to it once I have the experience. Even without schooling. Plus I can start classes again and finish my degree I hope. I will have that much down and done.



{February 21, 2020}   A Conversation With The Yard Guy

Wednesday at my night job one of the yard guys came in to clean up and take the trash out. He comes in most the time so we have gotten to know each other and we talk. He comes in and talks to me and the other guy that works with me at night.

Some how the subject of work came up he was saying that they were two guys short in the yard and was talking about how many days, hours he works and what hours. I asked him how does that work with your hours and things like that? Because I have a lot of guys ask me about jobs out there but the way the days hours were explained to me, I don’t know anyone that is going to go for it. They told me before you might work a 12 hour day but in between trucks and things you have to clock out until the next one or something else comes up that needs done. I don’t know anyone that is going to do that.

He said no you can get your full hours, you work 4 days have 3 days off. He said some guys will just work and then clock out until something else comes and sleep in their cars or what. He said but there are always things to be done always work if you want to work. If you do you can stay clocked in and get your hours.

I asked him what they pay out there? I was thinking $16 or $18 an hour. At least what I make but probably more. He said $12 and hour. I almost fell out of my chair and almost said what that’s less than I make. I caught myself and didn’t say anything. If I had that would of started an all out war around there. They are out there loading, unloading trucks, sorting everything out, packing, washing trucks, washing trailers, cleaning trash in the parking lot, they come take out all the office trash, clean the office and the bathrooms for $12 an hour. I am making $16 to answer the phone and do nothing hardly. I had just told Jw and my friend as I was walking in the door last night I was going in to watch dry paint dry some more because that is what it feels like I am doing. He said he had been there a year and half and just got a $2 raise a while back. one or two of the other guys just got a raise as well. He said but that is because they work, they stay clocked in and work not nap sleep or slack off on the clock.

I am just glad I didn’t ask to transfer to the yard like I was thinking about doing shortly after I started working there. Had I asked and they told me yeah that is $12 and hour, I would of told them they done lost their minds I would keep the job I was hired for.

But I still don’t see how he figures this all out and decides who gets what or what area makes what. But I guess I should not be surprised after all the other “math” he does in that place. None of his math makes since the way he does.



{September 11, 2019}   Job On My Mind Still

I have been thinking about that job a lot the last few days. I had decided it had been filled and probably wasn’t a good idea right now. But then I seen it listed again yesterday or over the weekend and they still have all shifts open. So I could probably walk into the 6 a.m. to 2 p.m. shift with no problem.

I was thinking today how much I am missing out with the kids even if it is just a few hours after school doing baths and bed. I was thinking how nice it would be to have that break in the middle of the day with them.

But then I think about most likely giving up my weekends, holidays and things. I just don’t know.

But it was nice seeing the kids last week when I was off and just playing and relaxing with them. Today when I droppped them off at school and said I will see you tomorrow. I just had this sick feeling.

Its so hard to know what to do. What is right or wrong.

I keep thinking like I was before apply see what they offer. But then if they make an offer and I don’t think it is going to work how do I decline and not burn a bridge in case I want to go there later? If I take it how do I tell the guys what is going on and that I am leaving?

Then I keep thinking maybe it’s a sign and I need to go for it. Stop being scared and just make the leap.



{August 26, 2019}   Keep it to Yourself

Today Pop’s came in at my day job and did somethings I needed done. He took a break and came in and talked for a bit.

He asked if I had turned in my job application yet?

I told him no I was thinking about waiting until at least the first of the year before I turned it in.

He told me to keep that to myself.

I said what?

He said don’t tell the guys you aren’t or you may not.

I told him I wasn’t sure, that I was pretty set on waiting and I was. But then Little Bitty said something this morning and now I and second guessing myself again.

He said well I said something to the guys about you applying.

I thought oh great this isn’t good.

He said they are working on something for you. He said just wait don’t do anything and see what they offer you.

I thought it was a little odd when he was in there working I went and was talking to him. He askes me if the guys were out? I told him one was.

He asked if his son was or had been in? I said no he wasn’t and I hadn’t seen him much lately. He said oh not even Friday?

I said I seen him Friday for a minute he had a busy day he ran in paid me and went out for the day. He seemed surprised or like he was waiting on me to tell him some thing I felt like. But didn’t know what. I think maybe that was it he thought they would of made an offer then. Or told me what they were thinking.

I was thinking I would wait because of the holidays and things. You know how it is the new guy gets the crap days holiday and all that. I don’t want to be working the holidays right now. I want to school I am not sure I can work that job and my night job and do that.

But then Little Bitty said this morning. I wish you were here to pick us up at school and see us after school. That just killed me. I miss them so much and wish I could be there more. But I really can’t do it without the extra money two jobs gives me.

Now I am thinking about going ahead and applying and seeing what happen again. I am also worried about having to work six or seven days a week again since this other place is 7 days a week. Ugh mom life and figuring out that balance and just the right thing to do.



{August 23, 2019}   A Job Opening

I have been sitting on an application that is all filled out and ready to be turned in. I picked this application up Monday filled it all out and typed up a letter to go with it. I was already to turn it in Tuesday but never did. I keep second guessing myself and wondering if it is the right thing to do. I keep weighing the pros and cons of it all. One minute I think turn it in check it out if you get called, it don’t mean you have to take it. See what they are offering and decide from there. Another part says don’t turn it in if your not going to take it so you can apply there later. But I really want to see if I have the chance at it and what they have to offer if they offer it so I can decide. But I also know if they call and offer I am going to want to just jump and take it.

The new job is at a youth shelter for run a ways and other teens. They have a school and I am not sure what all there anymore as they have made changes over the last few years. I would be a direct care giver for the teens in the shelter. They say they have all shifts open, 6am-2pm, 2pm- 10pm and 10pm to 7am. They have full and part time open right now as well. I would apply for the 6 am to 2 pm shift so that I can keep my evening job because I would still need two jobs to make it. That would give me full time as well.

This mew job would be great because it would give me between 2-4:30/5 to pick up my little ones from school get their homework done, make them dinner and have that time with them each day. It would give me that break in between my night job and day job. I wouldn’t be doing 12 to 14 hours straight. It is $1 more an hour than my day job now. I am hoping with my schooling that I would get a little more than a $1 more. It would give me hands on experience and I would get training as well. It goes along with Social work that I have been studying in school. I want to work with teens, teen parents, and addiction when I finish with school. I am sure there is room with advancement there as well as I move through school and get more certificates and my degree.

But with this new position comes weekends and holidays, not being able to come and go as I need to. I would miss the kids awards at school and other school functions, field trips, and that kind of thing. I am not sure of all this but knowing it is a 24/7 shelter, you are working with kids who need taken care of, and that there are other people who you are working with. Unlike my day job now, it is just me and the owners, I just let them know I am going to be late, taking off or not coming in at all. That I have this or that at the school. We either open late, close or close early if someone can’t be here. Most the time Pops or one of the guys can be here or most the time. I can’t take the kids with me to work like I can here if I need to. I can’t say hey we are closing for this or that holiday. We again have kids there that need taken care of we have to be there. There is a lot of other employee’s to worry about and work around as well as myself.

I think about all that and I can’t see leaving here. But here I am making $1 less an hour. I am 1099 over there they would take out taxes I wouldn’t have to worry about all that. This is in the field I want to get into, I am trying to go back to school once I get my tax money next year since I have to pay out of pocket. But then i am going to be busy there all the time during the day where as where I am now I have time I could work on my school work and they wouldn’t care. Other than that and some at my night job I really wouldn’t’ have time to work on it. So if I can’t work on it during the day some I don’t know when I would. I know that the other job has a high turn over rate, because it isn’t great pay, you do have the chance of working weekends holidays and you are dealing with delinquent teens. I don’t know how they are as far as to work for or anything like that. I may look on line see what kind of things are being said. Hadn’t thought of that.

I keep thinking am I just making excuses? Why not jump and take it? This is a good chance. I tell myself maybe just wait and apply in a few months. I wonder why they have so many openings right now? Most the time they have one or two here and there. Not every shift full and part time.

I think my biggest thing is if something happens where will I end up? I won’t have this job to come back to because it will be filled. No one is going to give this job up and who is to say they would take me back if it was open or they didn’t like the person who was here? I have worked at a lot of places twice and been called back to some even after that. But it is bigger places they have more employees and things. I think they would probably take me back if I gave them notice which I would and they didn’t have someone. But that isn’t’ likely to happen. I have thought about asking for a raise and and some other things and if I get it then just staying here. The raise would give me the more an hour plus take into consideration that I am 1099 and wouldn’t be over there. I was thinking about asking to go to salary not hourly so that I would be paid no mater what. I took that into consideration when considering the 1099 factor too. Trying to find a fair balance for me and them. Also something do able for them and things because we are a small place. That is one reason I feel I should see what they are offering over at the other job as well before I figure out what to do if they will give me more since I have my schooling and things. I even thought they may have another opening other than direct care giver that I could do since I do have training, schooling and going to be in school.

So many things to consider and figure out and decide. I keep thinking if I don’t turn it in they are going to have them filled by the time I do. But then again I figure if they are then it wasn’t meant to be and that if it is meant to be I will get called whenever I turn it in.

If I didn’t like my job here and didn’t have the leeway that I do I would have my application in already. If it was enough pay that I only had to work one job I would be as well too.

So many things to to consider figure out so I can make a decision. I guess I have to get off here close up and get to my night job. If I leave much later I won’t be able to get out of the parking lot or over the bridge for 10 or 15 minutes. It’s funny how a few minutes make such a difference in traffic.



{August 12, 2019}   Kind Of Good News

So today at work one of the owners came in and was talking to me and Pops. He said his son is going to start working here with us. Pops is wanting more time off he is having a hard time standing for long periods of time anymore. Plus he just don’t feel like coming in sometimes. He is 75 after all and just took this on as part time to have a little extra money to go out and help the guys out. But we have days that we are slammed and he is here all day instead of an hour or two or half the day. Then some of the work he has to stand the whole time and he just can’t anymore and it takes him longer to do he work because he has to take breaks.

But we are not to a point that we needs someone all day everyday or even to say we can hire someone a few hours everyday. We stay steady most the time but then have days where we have no one or a couple things. Right now I think the shop side breaks even or just under breaking even.

Me and Pops were talking about it the other day and we really can’t hire someone and tell them you might get 5 to 10 hours a week and we don’t have set hours to give you we just want to call you when we need you. No one needing a job can really live on that and it really isn’t worth it to drive over here for. I said I would not mind learning some of it to help give him a break.

The boss said today his son was going to start coming in after school and working a few hours to help take the stress off Pops. He is also trained to go out on the bus with the guys to help there if there isn’t school or a weekend and they have something.

So he will come after school if we have things to be done and get it all ready for the people to pick up the next day. Pops can come in during the day if I have things that needs done for the day or he can’t get it all done or something. But this should give him a much needed break. It works out great for what we were talking about since he isn’t needing the money to live on and all that it is just gas money or what for him and he still lives at home. He just a kid.

It really don’t change much for our customers other than maybe instead of being able to get it back the same day they will have to wait until the next business day. Now I have a rule if they get it in before 1 or 2pm they can have it back after 3 that day. This way I will just start telling people unless they set it up ahead of time with me it is next day. Because we have some people that come 20+ miles to get their things done and would like to wait for it or get it back as soon as we can get it done. We can still do that if they let me know before hand they are coming I can set it up that Pops will be here to do their stuff.

We are always changing but not changing at the same time with that part of things. But people don’t mind because most are shocked they can get it back after three the next day much less the same. They expect to wait a few days to get it back anyway. So I just go by what is going on that day. Like if Pops is busy even if it is only 11 or 12 I will start telling them the next day because we are busy and have work to get out by three already we had to start bumping things until tomorrow. I have only had one or two people complain and they were just that type of person they have something to say about everything you can tell. But being the only place in the county that does the work we do people have to understand that sometimes we get busy. We do everything we can to get it back as quick as we can but that is not always possible and we are getting back quicker still than what we are told we have to get it back. When I started I was told I could tell them anywhere from 2 to 3 days up to a week to get things back depending what it was but at the least tell them 2 days for everything. Once I got in here and seen how busy we are and how long it takes to do things I was able to get it to after 3 if in by x time that day or after 3 the next day if after that time. Most the time really the after 3 the next day could be picked up in the morning after we open a lot of times. He will get them done in the evening before we close. But this way he can have time to get to them if we are busy and he isn’t having to stand there until he can hardly move to finish them after the days work is done. He comes in around 11:30 but then if he has doctors or something not until after lunch. Plus if I am running late or have to come in late for something there isn’t people sitting here waiting to get their things back first thing in the morning. We have some flexibility if we need it or something unforeseen happens and we have to take off to take care of it. We can get someone to come in and cover or time to get here. We don’t have a lot of people coming in to drop off in the morning if we miss someone they understand things happen. But I hate to give someone a set time to come back and not have something ready or not be here and I don’t want a rush of people when I am trying to open. because I find I tell them after 3 and they will come at 12 or 1 or 2 and say I need to get my stuff or I know you said but I just wanted to see if it was ready. So if I tell them 12 they will be here waiting on me or trying to get in why I am trying to open or return calls and things in the morning and a lot of our drop offs are in the morning. This way I don’t have a lobby full of people.

The owners don’t care they told me do things however you feel works best for you or the shop or however they need to be done. We just own it your the boss take care of things. It works nicely.



I think today maybe one of the slowest I have ever had in my life. Not that anything has happened or I am looking foward to something coming up to cause it to seem that way. It’s just been a very slow day. In two days at my day job I have had 3 customers maybe. Plus called my places. Yesterday I was done with all my work with in a half hour or hour. The rest of the day I sat there. Watched netflix and did things on the computer. Sat on the phone an hour on hold that’s about it.

I am at my night job it has been normal day to day stuff. Took me a bit to finish my work here but now I am done and waiting for 9 so I can hopefully clock out and go somewhere. I have 7 minutes. Unless I end up staying later for some reason. I am so tired right now I can hardly hold my eyes open from doing stuff on the computer then reading and doing this on my phone.

I would love to go out have a couple drinks just relax for a bit but everyone seems busy or already doing something.



{August 8, 2019}   Come Home Please

I have this pad I picked up from my night job I used to take notes and keep up with all I needed to learn. Now I use it in the evenings to take notes when drivers call in or someone tells me things to watch for take care of or what for the night. Just my catch all. When I am not at work it floats around in my car since I do not have a desk at work and use someone else.

Little Bitty will find something to write with and draw pictures in it when we are riding around. Of course she did this past weekend as well. I had just been using my top sheet and hadn’t needed to flip through it until last night. This is her picture and note she wrote me. It says……

Hi mommy I need to talk ok. I will miss you at work. Home please come 😭.

I was already in a depressed mood I almost cried. When I got home I told her I had found it we talked. Then we got in my bed snuggled up together and watched The Worst Witch until we were falling a sleep. Then we cuddled up and slept.

I hate working like this and was trying to figure out how to cut back some way. Then I went to the ssi office this morning to get a letter from them. They informed me they will be cutting my son’s check every month. They will take so much a mo th away biased on what ex is supposed to pay in child support. Even though he is not paying. Then I have to go in every three months and report that he isn’t making payments or that he did and it was less than he was supposed to. Then they will send me back pay for the 3 months. Its a mess they have never done this in the past I told them he wasn’t paying that was that. When he did I told them. Now they changed it all up. So now that is more I have to come up with every month to keep things paid. I use to make sure I had $100 the first to put with it to pay rent that way it was taken care of. Now I am going to need $200+ each month to go with it. Then they are going to cut it some because I am working two jobs and I don’t even know how much that is going to be. I think if I figured it right it is another $100+ they will cut it. So half my rent money just went out the window.

Now there is no way to cut hours I need to max them out get all I can. When school starts when will I ever see them during the week. Back to dropping them off in the morning and weekends. I feel like shit. Mom of the year passing me up again.

Look at my baby, isn’t she writhing and spelling good to just be starting 1st grade next week?



{April 16, 2019}   Good Friday

As you all know this Friday coming up is Good Friday, being that it is the Friday before Easter. I did not realise this until Sunday, I seen someone on line say something about the kids not having school. I am thinking about taking the day off and spending it with the kids. I will still have to work that evening for a few hours but that is it. I thankfully only have one appointment on the books for that day so I will have to call and change her to another day. One of the guys is on vacation that day. I said something to the other today about it. He said whatever you want to do you are the boss. If you don’t want to come in and flip that sign to open I am not going to argue with you. I really don’t want to miss the pay but I really want to take the day off with the kids. If I didn’t have the kids I would work it like any other day it don’t matter to me. If I didn’t have them I could probably afford to take it off. But seeing as I have them I really need the money but I really want to spend time with them too. They love it when I am off on days they don’t have school. I will probably just suck it up and figure out how to make it all work.

I am thinking we will get up like normal as if we are going to school and work. But instead go to breakfast and the beach. Come home around 3. That way I can get a shower and ready for work and leave by 4. They can shower have dinner and by that point be getting into bed after being out all day. Depending on what is going on and how I feel from there I may or may not go out for a little bit after that. I am hoping to talk to my friend and be able to figure things out and see him.

I just wish I could take the day off and not have to worry about money and being able to do what I want to do with them and if i can pay everything and do Easter at that point.



{April 10, 2019}   3 A.M. Phone Calls

I met another one of our drivers last night at the trucking company. They were waiting on their trailer to get therr so they could leave out. He came in and was hanging out talking to us.

We were talking about me taking over and the other guy leaving and things. The driver says so I can call you and talk to you at 2 or 3 am then. He said I don’t call in to often with problems or anything like that. He said but you know you have that last 200 miles to go in the middle of the night you just need something to keep you going and awake. He said we can talk about anything I don’t even care at that point. I said oh well if I was here but I won’t be in here and I don’t have a phone for on call. He said you can still take my call keep me awake.

In a little bit the phone rang I answered it and it was one of the drivers he needed information I didn’t have. I put him on speaker so the guy training me could hear they were talking. He told him to hold on he had to call someone else ask them.

Why he was doing that the guy on the phone called me ask if I was still there. I said yes he asked if I was going to be working nights. I told him yes. I said evenings. He said oh good then can I call you at 3am? I said nope I won’t be here at 3am. He said but I can still call you. I said no because I go home at 10:30. He said something about once I get into full time. I said if he wants to put me on full time you can call at 3am if I am here I will answer. Handle all your problems for you. The other driver is sitting across from me laughing. The guy on the phone says you don’t have to be there for me to call you. You just have to answer no one else ever answered their phones. The one training me said dude she don’t have a phone for on call she was hired as in office. I said I have a full time job I work in the day time I can’t be on call. The guy on the phone said give it a few you will be full time and have a phone. I said I don’t know about that I guess we will see. I said if you all need me full time tell him he is only offering me part time it was made clear. He said yeah that won’t last.

He got his information and everything. I said okay you all good now have what you called in for? He said yes and something. I said okay then have a good night and remember no problems after 10:30 or your on your own to figure them out because I’m out at 10:30 get them all in before that.

The driver sitting there with me busted up laughing. The guy training me did. He said no I will still be here and he has my number too. I said see you blew it for yourself I had him down to no problems. I said okay you can call him with all your problems at 3am if you would like. I will be sleeping.

I got news for them they are not calling me all hours of the night if I am not in that office or getting paid to be on call. They aren’t my Circus or my monkeys after 10:30/12. By 3 I am finally getting to sleep myself to start my day over in 3 or 4 hours. Not like them where they get to get off for 12 or 13 hours before they are up again. I get that little window and then I am up again until that time the next night.

If they wanted to pay me decent I would do full time evenings over there. I could work at 3 but it would be from home the last few hours. I don’t want to work the days over there. The other guys I work with are alright but not ones I want to deal with work with all day and I would rather work the evenings than days anyway that seems to be when the drivers are wanting and needing someone. If I could do it on call from home they were paying me then I could keep my day job too. I be off at like 7am. I just tell them after 7 I am not answering my phone I’m off.



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