{September 6, 2020}   Cryselle

I do not know what is wrong with my phone or site but that is the only way it will let me add links.

This is the birth control pill they put me on. As I told you in A Mental Breakdow.

And Re: A Mental Breakdown

I had a hard time with it about 3 months in but then everything was alright. So I thought. Until I ended up in the hospital Friday morning. Something made me start looking this pill up and at side effects and things. They gave me a small list when they gave me the pills and there is like a book in each pack every month. But you know how that is you don’t read it. I normally do a lot of research before I take much of anything. I just didn’t, I had a general idea and knew how they made me feel before, so I just took them.

I keep doing this thing at night that wakes me up. You ever have that feeling in your sleep like your falling? Then you jump and wake yourself up? That is really the only way I know how to explain it. But I’m not falling it is just one part of my body, arm,a leg, my stomach will all of a sudden jerk and move. I have been noticing this more and more the last month. It happen 3 times last night. I think I said in my other post my skin is blotchy and discolored.

When I start looking up side effects. It says blocks biel duc, gallstones, kidney issues, issues going to the bathroom, pain in side or stomach for no explanation. Then it said puking up blood. And trimmers or sweating to much.

I started putting two and two together. I told JW this is probably why I went from 1 stone no trouble all this time to stones all of a sudden. I have said a few times I couldn’t go to the bathroom, i thought I had kidney stones or an infection. Then I would be fine for a bit then feel that way again. Thursday night and the last few days, I feel like I need to go to the bathroom but hardly go when I get in there. I was getting up two or three times a night or more lately too. Then when it said puking blood.

I have been telling him it is hot in the house so hot. I had him take the a\c apart and clean them. I keep waking up at night drenched in sweat and needing a shower. He say’s all the time anymore i drive up the street and back I’m pouring sweat the rest of them aren’t. I feel hot all the time. This is probably why.

I decided I am not taking it anymore. It all seems to be linked back to that pill. We went and put the laundry in to wash and walked out to the truck to sit. We were doing stuff on our phones and i told him we had a problem.

He said we have a problem what is that? I told him how I looked this pill up and all these problems I am having right now i feel is linked to the pills. He agreed I should stop taking it and we will have to do something else. So I guess we are back to natural family planning and using something at high risk times. He said we will figure something out. I don’t know what he has in mind.

{May 22, 2020}   6 Days In,

And so far doing pretty good. As I am sure you all probably remember from my post last week Emotional Break Down

I started a low-dose birth control pill and I was worried about taking it. When I took them in the past I did not do well on them. But it really was my only option so I decided to try it. Rather than keep trusting what I have been. Don’t get me wrong I love natural family planing and have used it for years, and used it for years before. But I don’t feel it is the best for me to use at this point in life. Seeing as I do not want anymore kids, me and J.W don’t get a lot of time alone and never know when that is going to be and I worry about it all the time. I don’t know what I would do if I ended up pregnant at this point in life.

I started the pill Sunday when I was supposed to and was a little worried. Okay more than a little worried. I had horrible mood swings, felt physically sick, had no libido and just over all nasty. So I just took it and tried to forget it and not think about it. Wasn’t hard to do as busy as we are at work right now. I take it between 1 and 130 every day. I figured that was a good time because I go to lunch then. I don’t like to take anything when I first get up in the morning and didn’t want to deal with it in the evening or at night when I am so tired and other things to do. I set my alarm already so I won’t forget at lunch or if I am busy and work through lunch or take it early. But I know that being busy in the evening I will turn the alarm off and forget it. This way it is right there in my purse at my desk and I have my drink right there. I can just stop and take it.

I haven’t really noticed any thing to bad. I have been a little moody here and there but not anything that sticks around. I haven’t been feeling depressed lately, I have been in a pretty good mood over all. But I am only 6 days in. I hope that over the next few days/weeks that things don’t change.

Because it looks as if that is going to be what I am going to have to use for a while. I don’t make enough to pay over $300 for for insurance for just myself. I make to much to get Medicaid but am to below poverty level to get help on the market place to get insurance there. I reapplied for medicaid hoping the kids would get their’s back since I lost a job. Thank goodness they did. I on the other hand didn’t even get share of cost so I have no coverage what so ever if anything happens.

I did find out today I can get dental and vision insurance at work for around $30 a month. I do not have to have the medical in order to get them. I am going to cancel a few things and bite the bullet and get it. I really need to get new glasses the ones I have are over three years old and I can tell my eyes are worse. I am have got to get something done with my teeth. I hope to go to the local place over here and get them pulled. I think I can get them done for next to nothing. Then hope that I can use the insurance to get the new ones. If it won’t pay for new ones to at least pay a chunk of the cost or most of the cost for new ones. If not then I have been told that the owner at work will help get them done and then take a little out of your check each month. If he would take a little a month not a chunk each week or huge chunk each week.

All I can do with it all is wait and see and hope it works out.

et cetera
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