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It is 10:40 a.m and I just want to scream fuck the storm lets get on with life as normal. Whatever happens happens. It was supposed to of been here and gone by now we should be well on our way in cleaning up and heading back to work. We are still waiting on it. It is still 195 miles below where we are and they have no idea where it is going to go. They keep saying hug or skirt the coast but they do not know how close. Last night they were saying 30 to 40 miles off the coast I was okay with that. Today the eye is all but touching us. Then they say we do not know how far off it will be and by the way we don’t know if or where it may come on shore at it is likely.

Some of the charts bring it in down south straight up the middle just about. Others show it coming in right below us or right above us. Still on us we would still be in some of the worse of it. Most are showing it with the eye running up and around the coast just on land or just off but to close.

We will have a lot of damage if it follows these paths. Tons of homes and business lost, flooding like we haven’t seen and who knows if we will have power for how long we will be out. I don’t think our old bridges to the island and then to the beaches will survive. Then what do we do?

Most hit and run I guess you could say. You feel it for some hours and it’s gone. This one could crawl over us for 2 days they are saying. That is bad really bad and makes the damage worse. Places that may have withstood a fast blow over may not be able to withstand this thing sitting on it beating and beating on it and all the extra water and pressure from it.

Everything is closing with no idea of when they will open again. Others are trying to hold out and get as many trucks as they can in so people can get things they need. Because once they close no one knows when or what will be able to open or how long it will take to get trucks into us so they have things we need.

People think you get a little rain, wind some damage you go back to normal when it is over. It really is not like that. Like now everyone’s lives have come to a stop or their day to day has drastically changed dealing with this. Now all we can do is sit and wait days for it to hit and then wait days for it to pass so we spend days more with no power sometimes no water and just wonder when life will go back to normal. People do not know how stressful going through something like this really is.

I am in a weird place right now. I am in that place where I know I need to do things and get ready but I can’t force myself up and get them done. I know this is bad but at the same time the not knowing not having any idea and being in limbo makes it harder to want to do anything. Honestly I just want to sleep. Everything is bothering me with the kids wanting to do things and bored. I just want to be left a lone. I feel horrible for it. I am very irritated when I am awake.

I just want life back to normal or at least this thing to hit us so we can start working toward normal again.

I think another update should of just come or be coming. I guess I should go check it and see what they are saying. I need to finish getting my carport cleaned off because I only half done it last night. We are getting a little bit of wind and rain off and on now. Nothing major but it is going to get worse through out the day and tomorrow they say.



{August 13, 2019}   A Camping We Shall Go

My Little Guy’s birthday is in a month. He wants nothing more than to go camping for his birthday. I am looking all over to try and find somewhere to go for a weekend Friday night to Sunday and everything is booked. All I can find is Sunday night to when ever during the week. I can’t take off work and he can’t take off school. I already have to take off work Friday in order to go but I can’t take off two or three days. We are coming into months where I will be missing a lot of work.

I was already looking at the calendar today trying to figure out if I could afford to take off the week of Christmas or even 3 days that week.  We will be closed the day before the day of, then my birthday is the day after. That is Tuesday through Thursday. Meaning I would work Monday and Friday. Or Monday, Thursday, Friday.

He wants to go camping in the woods in tents, no phones, electric or anything else. Cut tress to have a fire to cook on and logs to sit on. I hate to burst his bubble but I can’t do that. We will have to have air mattress because I can’t sleep on the ground.

At this point I am thinking about trying to find someone we know with property that we can pitch a tent and have a fire. Be able to take the dogs as well maybe to make things a little easier or harder I don’t know. Easier in the way I won’t have to board them harder in the way of they just are a pain and have to be on chains and everything and can get off them.

I am going to have to see what I can figure out he has been talking about this camping trip for months now. I don’t want to disappoint him over something so simple.

 



{September 14, 2018}   Not A Holiday

Sorry this is so late but I had to think about this and how to word it and get across what I am talking about. I still am not sure that it is going to come out right in the end. But I am going to try. I ask you all if you felt that the 11th being a holiday in, 9/11 Holiday or Not. Thank you to the two people who replied.

One said maybe in the states that were apart of the attacks like NY.

The other said yes to honor the lives that were lost and the people who worked so hard to save people and all that.

I do not feel that it should be a holiday, I feel that it is going to have more mening to the terrorist who done it than to the memory of the ones who lost their lives.

I feel that making it a holiday they are going to feel like yeah we got them they close everything in order to remember what we did to them. Where as if we keep going life as normal but take the time to still remember what happen sends a bigger message. That they are not going to stop us we are not going to dwell on what they did but we will remember the lives that were lost. Does that make since? Like okay you all stopped everyones lives for the day and some for weeks, months or longer. You took some lives forever. We are not letting you stop them over and over but we we aren’t going to forget the lost lives either. We are going to live and celebrate their lives.



{September 19, 2017}   Irma…….$1500+ Storm

For over a week my mother ran around here freaking about Irma and it was going to hit us coming right at us. There was nothing I could do I didn’t have my money. They said we would have it that Friday about the time it was supposed to hit. If you have not dealt with storms like this if you want to get out and leave you need to do so at least a day or two before they say you have to or need to leave. If you wait the roads are packed, there is not gas to get and a 5 hour drives turns into a 16 hour drive and for some that is no joke. They started telling people South of us to get out really early this time compared to when other storms have come. Then they told everyone around me in trailers, on the beaches, island, or flood pron areas to get out. We were going to go up north but the roads were so full by the time I got my money at 2am Friday morning. My sister kept saying she was going to stay here and my grandparents. My mom was all freaking out and trying to control everything. I refused to leave until I had my money even though she had hers before mine and we could have gotten some before that if we went and got it. I was not being told it is my money we are doing this that and the other and being dictated through the trip. We ended up staying just maybe about 15 or 20 miles away at a shelter. I was just worried if the trees came down with us here in the house. I was talking to the guy across the street about staying because he was. He said but you have all these tree and it is supposed to be bad he didn’t think it was a good idea. He don’t say things like that I was surprised. I was still going to stick it out at home but my mom had the kids so scared and upset and my sister decided she shouldn’t stay in her place either so we went to a shelter not far from her. I didn’t think she should stay in her place either really. They are nice places but old and not built to standards like buildings today. Mine isn’t new either probably a little older than hers but it is block and it isn’t two stories and already having problems. She had big trees all around her too.

We ended up being there two nights because the storm hit a day later than what they thought because it slowed down. I went late in the evening the night it was supposed to hit figured I could get up when it was over and go home. Me and my little one stayed up for a while but fell a sleep about the time it was supposed to hit and get up by us. At that point they were saying it was going to go over off the West Coast and go up, when I got up the next day I seen where it had come across the state and hit us as well. I never stay up during one if I am here and it hits at night. I may get up off and on or once in the night and check things out or if I hear something but most the time i go to bed and sleep through it.

I was shocked when I woke up they said there was no WATER, power and they couldn’t flush the toilets and things. I was like wow this is weird like twilight zone or something. I have never in almost 37 years been through a storm like that and lose water and have all the lift stations and things be down and not works. We went and drove over to my sisters house and then mine to see how things were before we checked out of the shelter to make sure we could get home and had a home to get to. The amount of power lines that were down, main big lines laying across roads, other smaller ones snapped and laying all over, the poles that were blown over, broken off, and snapped in two was unreal. Again never seen such a thing after a storm. Yes a few lines may break but mostly transformers blow and that is it not lines breaking, poles snapping and all that. There were tons of traffic lights blown down busted everywhere, nothing was open nothing had power it seemed like. There was a lot of wet area and areas you could see where it flooded a little but had already went down. The parking lot going over to my sisters was flooded and lines down up and down the street around her, some trees broken or fallen but little ones not big ones.

I came to my house I had no power and no water, but everything was okay nothing broken or damaged. Lots of pine cones all over the yard and littler branches. I went took my sister home and me and the kids came home. By the time we go home we had water back but still no power. We ended up going staying with my friend and her family. She didn’t have power either but she had a generator. The only real reason I went over there was to use her internet to try and catch up on school work so I wasn’t late or what but was locked out of it. We came home the next morning and by that afternoon we had power again. Just this past Friday have stores like Wal Mart and Publix and things opened fully. The shelves are pretty empty, I heard them say they had a 5000 piece dairy truck coming in Thursday night late and when I was there Friday you couldn’t even tell they had a truck come in. The shelves were still empty. We can get some meats and things but nothing else cold really. The stores lost just about everything unless it was a can or bottle. I heard them say that it would probably be 4 to 6 weeks before the shelves are stocked and going as normal again. There are still a lot of places without power and to bad of damage to even open still as far as places to eat or stores. I took some pictures around town but have not gone over the bridges to the island or beaches yet.

I was supposed to start my job the day the storm hit Monday last week. They were calling us that night saying they had water and power to come to work the next day. I said how are we supposed to do that when we have no power or water? We can’t cook, shower or anything like that. Daycares and schools are closed they can’t open with no water or power so we have no where to take our kids. If we leave them home alone with no power or water we are going to get in trouble and go to jail or something, we are in the middle of a natural disaster and all you all can say is we are good to go make sure you get here. We were just hit by this storm less than 12 hours ago. I told them when kids could go back to daycare we had water power or what then I could come in. They said that was fine they had others that couldn’t come in either they would do another class next week probably. Now they are not starting another one until October the 2nd and it is 3 pm to 11 pm. I am so aggravated with them. I have talk to a few people to try to get into something different or start earlier but there isn’t anything else in that office and no more classes until then. So now because I couldn’t go and they have no care about their employees and what they just went through or going through I lost $1500 in pay for the three weeks I don’t get to work. But my kids come first and I have to make sure they are okay and taken care of. Schools and daycare just reopened today too. I heard that on the West Coast and down south they still have no power or water and it could be at least another week or more before schools and things open back up.



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