{November 18, 2019}   The Really You–Season 1–Game 2

As I have not been on in a few days I had a little catching up to do. Glad they were only on 2.

So here goes my answers for Season 1-Game 2 of The Really You

Do you hoard clutter or constantly de-clutter?

I am a middle of the road kind of person. I hoard but not on purpose. I get things to do things with and then get busy and don’t get to them. Or I lay things like kids school work on my dresser so I can look at it later and it is now over taken my dresser.

But it isn’t like paths through my house, can’t cook or sleep in the beds or rats and things kind of hoarding. And I every so often do go through and toss everything or donate it. I just have to get in the mood and have time. I work so much and try to spend free time with the kids I hardly have a minute other wise. But it starts to bug me and I start tossing. That’s the best time because I will just toss or donate not think about well maybe or move it out of the way to somewhere else. I also go through at least once a year and go through every dresser, closet,cabinet,trunk,Ben, or anything else that could have something put into it and clean out all the out of sight out of mind junk that gets forgotten about.

Do you enjoy cooking – if so what is your ‘special dish’  and if not ‘what is the dish you wish you could create?

I like to cook when I have time and people are not underfoot. I don’t like to be rushed, I like to know that if it takes an hour or two that is okay. One thing I really like to make is Oven Fried Pork Chops with cooked apples and green-beans. I will make two kinds of the Oven Fried Pork Chops. The apples are good but haven’t been able to get them to turn out just how I want them. I need to sit down and look as some recipes, I just haven’t had time. It isn’t something I make often.

What are we likely to find in your condiment cupboard?

Adobo, Worcestershire sauce, Garlic powder, minced onions, oregano, Montreal steak seasoning, Bay leaf, thyme, cinnamon, sea salt maybe a few others. Marinades I picked up to try and some things my oldest picked up to use when she is cooking, She is always wanting to cook and try new things. My main go to are Adobo, Steak seasoning and Worcestershire. You can use one of the three on just about anything and everything.

{August 26, 2019}   The Daily Four

Over on a Guy Called Bloke’s blog he has started a post he calls the Question Fun Directory or the Daily Four. I have decided to answer today’s questions. So here goes.

What was the worst thing you did as a child?

Growing up, what was your ideal dream job and did you bring that to a reality at all?

What were the things you both liked and hated about your schooling?

Where there is a will, there is a way! Do you agree?


What was the worst thing you did as a child?

It was my birthday I think maybe 6 or 7th. I don’t know I was young so I am surprised I remember it. But my mom and dad was there and they threw a party for me. We were at our house and there was a bunch of kids there. There were two boys around my age and a little older. They were my moms good friends kids and she use to babysit them for her. They had spent the night or weekend with us why their mom was working or away. So they had some things there other than just being there for the party.

Well one had his skateboard with him and we were out in the street in front of the house playing with it. I was laying on it pushing around with my hands and things. He decided he wanted it back. I wasn’t done playing and he kind of dumped me off in the street.

We end up standing in the middle of the street with the skateboard upside down. He had one set of wheels and I was holding it by the other set. We were pulling it back and forth fighting over who got it and trying to get it away from each other. I got it away from him and held it up and hit him on the head with it.

I think I still remember this to this day at 38 years old because it was a birthday party for me, I don’t remember having to many parties with friends. My birthday is the day after Christmas. I also do not remember my mom and dad being together and doing anything or my dad living with us ever even though they didn’t get divorced until a few years later. And my dad spanked me for hitting hi in the head and sent me to my room. It was my birthday party so everyone was having fun I was in my room with a spanking. It is the only time I ever remember my dad spanking me and that was probably worse to me than the spanking it’s self, or missing part of the party or anything else. Because My dad just never spanked me or got onto me for things. I was close to my dad and I wasn’t a kid who got in trouble often and he just talk to me or say something about what I did and we would go on.

Growing up, what was your ideal dream job and did you bring that to a reality at all?

I have wanted to be a counselor and work with teens or teen parents, addiction things like that. While I haven’t yet I have started schooling for it and hope to get started back next year and finish.

What were the things you both liked and hated about your schooling?

I didn’t like school very much at all. I felt that we shouldn’t have to take math, science, history and all that in high school. I felt we should be taking classes geared toward the careers that we wanted to go into. I still feel that by jr high/ high school we should be teaching our kids or have them in classes working on the path they are wanting to go into. I think at this point the other classes are a waste. I feel the same with with college we shouldn’t have to take math, science and all that then either to get a degree. But anyway that is why I hated school.

The only thing I really liked about school was it got me away from my house and a chance to see my friends. I wasn’t aloud to do a lot when I was younger and didn’t like having people over to my house because I didn’t want them around my mom and things the way she was.

Where there is a will, there is a way! Do you agree?

I 100% agree with this so many people make excuses because they don’t want to put in the work to get to where they want to be or have what they want. If it isn’t quick and easy they give up.

{March 1, 2019}   I Messaged Him

Edited to fix what I said to him. Because for some reason it posted the wrong thing.

When I got off work I decided to go ahead and message him. I didn’t want to while I was at work because I wanted to be able to respond if he did. I didn’t yesterday because I was pulling in work it was swamped and it was all I could do to function much less think and respond to him.

I pretty much just said what I wrote in my other post………You know what why you want to pop off about 20?s i was just asking because I care not trying to start shit. You know what I had been doing the last few days since we got together? Trying to figure out how to get me new vehicles so that I could give you mine and trying to figure out a way for you to start saving money to get your license back. Figure out if i could help you find a different job how I could help you get to it and somewhere you could move to closer so that you weren’t so far away. So I want to thank you and tell you how glad I am you decided you just want to be friends before I spent time making it all happen. Maybe sometimes you should ask questions instead of being so with drawn and popping off about someone wanting to talk or ask questions. I wanted you to ride with me because i wanted to talk to you about all.

I just worded it a little different. I don’t know where he is staying the last few nights or what he is doing. I know if he is home he may not get it until who knows when because of service. If he is staying anywhere else he should of gotten it right away. He said he was going to be staying over here next to me this weekend working for a guy we know. Fixing the house he is moving out of. I don’t know if he still is or if he is there tonight. But he would of gotten it there too.

I don’t really think he will respond to it because there isn’t a lot he can say. Other than not to message him leave him alone or whatever. But it will be something he will think about that will stick with him. Maybe make him think about what he is doing what he is missing out on or what.

Like Bff said what was that comment about his kids? I said yeah I know. I said because he wants it but he is letting everyone get in his ear and in his head and he is self medicating.

I hope this don’t end badly with him what he is doing. I don’t want to see anything happen to him over all this. But if he keeps on I am scared what may happen.

{October 26, 2018}   If There Is A God

It is 2:45 am and my mind is racing from one thing to another and then another. I have to have kids at school by 7:40 and be at work by 9 to open. Normally I would work until 2 but my new hours I am there until 5. That is if they are not busy and don’t need me after that. But I just have to much on my mind to sleep.

This has been on it for a few days now. Why is it if you question faith, religion, church, believes, god or all the above, people get nerves and avoid you? They come at you with generic answers that cover nothing and don’t really answer your question. Then they pull out the old trusty go toos. Such as don’t give up now, don’t stop believing or lose faith, you have come so far something will happen soon. Or I don’t know when it is going to happen just wait. You have waited this long, it’s on his time not ours, what if yours was coming tomorrow and you give up today? It’s like all pipe dreams that people hold on to or grasp at in order to keep going or to have something to give them hope. I don’t know, but at this point looking around me at all people are going through and how others walk through life like nothing and everything else. I just feel that is all it is, something someone put there to keep people from just giving up I don’t know. Churches to make money or harbor those that do wrong and make it okay.

Wow looking back and thinking about it church’s all have had problems growing up and still today. The church I grew up in split half the people left because of things that happen with the daycare. The youth leader amd his wife were all involved. I never thought to much about it. I was a teen and wasn’t as involved at that point. It just seemed like a horrible thing that happen.

Thinking about it now and all that has come out as what happen and how the church split and took sides and outcast ones that tried to say something and stood by the ones who did the things and hired legal help and everything for them.

Then how the one me and father of the year was going to how they turned their backs on me and the kids. I wasn’t the only one they turned their backs on. Then to findout they put kids and things in danger and think nothing of it. When something happens tell the kids and parent they should forgive the person and work things out. We aren’t talking hurt my feelings called me a name or wouldn’t let me have something I wanted misunderstand kind of things. Talking people went to jail and prison and things. I understand needing to forgive not for them but yourself. But to work things out stay together, stay friends or what no, no, no that just isn’t right. Then let these people come back and welcome them as if nothing happen not say a word to new people or nothing else. Something is not right about that.

Look at all these huge churches you see, the preacher can’t know all those people that come there and have a relationships and things. I bet you not even a quarter of them are even close or able to get a hold of him and have a true preacher congregation memeber relationship. The congregation can’t even know eachother and have a true church family kind of relationship. It seems to be all about the money with them. Being popular.

Then you have others who seem to have a good balance and close and involved with members and memebers invloved doing things together. But then they become more of a clique it seems if you don’t fit in their cookie cutter.

I have been involved in all different ways from a member, to a techer to childcare worker, to being involved in the meetings of the church helping to make decisions and vote on things with the elders and preacher to an outsider looking in. And all that I have seen and experienced in and out of church and having time to really sit back take it all in think about it really has me questioning a lot and leaving me with a hard time believing seeing as no one can seem to answer my questions and avoids you when you do question and don’t just blindly follow. It isn’t like I am attacking anyone for believing, saying they shouldn’t, saying I am going to worship the devil come join me. I am just asking questions that a lot I would think would ask.

I think it comes down to the point that it makes them start questioning things and they don’t know how to Handel that. They don’t want to think about it, it is easier to just believe and go on their marry way. But meanwhile where does that leave people who maybe have never believed and maybe have decided to try this thing called church and faith or what out? Or people like me who are really questioning things and what is going on and what way to turn?

Maybe I should ask a preacher instead of random people from the church. But I don’t even know where to start to do something like that because I haven’t been to church or involved in one in so long. I don’t want to talk to the ones from the church that turned their backs on us and thinks we need to forgive and work things out. I have no idea who is over the church I grew up in. The preacher that I use to talk to there left years ago. Maybe I should set up a meeting with the preacher and his wife at the church where me and the kids were going to for a little bit there after my dad passed. Him amd his wife are both preachers, they have had this church about 11 years now and they are closer to my age. Maybe make it easier to talk to them. I don’t know, maybe I should just forget it and not go one way or the other.

I tried to do the prayer journal and the 30 day challenge and all that to try to get back into it and back to where I was before. But it all just feels so fake. I don’t know maybe that isn’t the word to use but I just couldn’t do it. It didn’t seem real it just seem like I was going through the motions. I couldn’t keep it up. I am going to have to find someone to talk to because it is on my mind to much and until I get answers it will be. Some say you haven’t had that “god” moment or that coming to god moment when you do you be okay. What? What is that supposed to mean how is that supposed to help now? Just easier to say again than having to admit they don’t know or that it raises questions in their mind or that they have the same questions but are just blindly following because that is what you do maybe?

Well now that it is 10:40 am here is my post I start at almost 3am. I was wide a wake when I started, got a quarter of the way in and passed out.

{September 6, 2018}   Random About Me

When people come to you for help, what do they usually want help with?

Relationships, kids and jobs

What takes up too much of your time?


What do you wish you knew more about?

The field of work I am trying to go into and how to get money to open a business.

What would be your first question after waking up from being cryogenically frozen for 100 years?

I want to know what was going on.

What are some small things that make your day better?

My kids, talking to my friends

Who’s your go to band or artist when you can’t decide on something to listen to?

Don’t have one, I just flip stations until I find a song.

What’s the best way to start the day?

Alive waking up. Okay really um being able to sleep until I wake up on my own and not have to rush to get ready or be anywhere.

What shows are you into?

True crime, 48 hours, 20/20, dateline all those kinds of things. This Is Us

What TV channel doesn’t exist but really should?

Don’t know

Who has impressed you most with what they’ve accomplished?

My oldest son with autism. He has come along way in 13 years.

What age do you wish you could permanently be?

I don’t know maybe somewhere between 25 and 30.

What TV show or movie do you refuse to watch?

Sponge bob

What would be your ideal way to spend the weekend?

With my other half away alone with no kids or worries.

What is something that is considered a luxury, but you don’t think you could live

Hum a vehicle

What’s your claim to fame?

I have been in the news paper a few times lol

What’s something you like to do the old-fashioned way?

I like to go places and take care of things pay bills or what. I want to talk with someone face to face. Most everything is done on line.

What’s your favorite genre of book or movie?

Books anything true, movies comedy

How often do you people watch?

All the time

What have you only recently formed an opinion about?

Not much because if it is not affecting me i really don’t care.

What’s the best single day on the calendar?


What are you interested in that most people haven’t heard of?

Can’t think of anything.

How do you relax after a hard day of work?

Hot shower and writing. If im extra lucky a nice walk on the beach at night.

What was the best book or series that you’ve ever read?

How to catch a killer

What’s the farthest you’ve ever been from home?

Few states away

What is the most heartwarming thing you’ve ever seen?

Can’t pick just one, its the little things and my kids are always doing something. They are so kind and caring.

What is the most annoying question that people ask you?

Are all those kids yours? You don’t look old enough to have that many.

Or anything someone ask more than once.

{September 3, 2018}   Random Questions 2 About Me

What could you give a 40-minute presentation on with absolutely no preparation?

Kids, parenting, domestic violence

If you were dictator of a small island nation, what crazy dictator stuff would you do?

I would findout what the people wanted or needed and try to make things happen they wanted.

What is something you think everyone should do at least once in their lives?

Coming up blank on this one.

Would you rather go hang gliding or whitewater rafting?

Hang gliding

What’s your dream car?

My excursion is my dream truck. Not into cars.

What’s worth spending more on to get the best?

A vehicle

What is something that a ton of people are obsessed with but you just don’t get the
point of?

Name brand clothing, shoes, purses

What are you most looking forward to in the next 10 years?

My kids being older, being more settled and stable and able to give them more.

Where is the most interesting place you’ve been?

Life is pretty boring can’t think of anywhere really.

What’s something you’ve been meaning to try but just haven’t gotten around to it?

Walk more, get the kids more active 😢

What’s the best thing that happened to you last week?

Probably my $10 tip. Other than that it was a pretty uneventful week.

What piece of entertainment do you wish you could erase from your mind so that you
could experience for the first time again?


If all jobs had the same pay and hours, what job would you like to have?


What amazing thing did you do that no one was around to see?

How different was your life one year ago?

Sadly not much

What quirks do you have?

I sleep at the foot of the bed when I am sick or don’t feel well.

What would you rate 10 / 10?


What fad or trend do you hope comes back?

Guys wearing cologne or body spray

What kind of art do you enjoy most?

Panting and drawing

What do you hope never changes?

How close me and the kids are to eachother

What city would you most like to live in?

Don’t know about what city but somewhere in Tenn.

What movie title best describes your life?

Feel like Groundhogs Day

Why did you decide to do the work you are doing now?

It is a job and they hired me

What’s the best way a person can spend their time?

With the one’s who mean the most to them.

If you suddenly became a master at woodworking, what would you make?

All those DIY things I seen for the house. Furniture, declarations and things for the house.

{August 31, 2018}   Random Questions 1

If you didn’t have to sleep, what would you do with the extra time?

I would go back to school and spend more time with the kids.

What’s your favorite piece of clothing you own / owned?

Hum I love my jeans, all I ever wear.

What hobby would you get into if time and money weren’t an issue?

Flipping houses

What would your perfect room look like?

I have nice big bedroom with a king size bed, big walk in closets were you had room to get dressed. Big master bathroom with a tub big enough to soak in.

How often do you play sports?


What fictional place would you most like to go?

Starkshallow or Mayberry can I live there please?

What job would you be terrible at?

I am sure there are lots. I like to work but I have to be into it or i don’t do good.

When was the last time you climbed a tree?

As a kid probably

If you could turn any activity into an Olympic sport, what would you have a good
chance at winning medal for?

Not sleeping at night like other normal people.

What is the most annoying habit that other people have?

Other than breathing for some. Chewing with their mouth open.

What job do you think you’d be really good at?

Social work

What skill would you like to master?

Reading minds lol

What would be the most amazing adventure to go on?

Cross country road trip.

If you had unlimited funds to build a house that you would live in for the rest of your
life, what would the finished house be like?

Not a lot of rooms but lots of room. First floor would be kitchen, livingroom, dining room all open into eachother. There would also be a bathroom and guest bedroom along with a library. A big wrap around porch.

The 2nd floor would have 4 to 6 good size bedrooms with a bathroom inbetween each two so they would share. I would have a laoundry room on 2nd floor with two to three washer and dries. There would be a loft area on either side of the hall way. One for older kids their things one for younger kids. And a wrap around porch.

All of the 3rd floor would be all my room and bathroom. With of course a porch

What’s your favorite drink?

Sweet tea

What state or country do you never want to go back to?

What songs have you completely memorized?

To many but i bet they aren’t 100% right.

What game or movie universe would you most like to live in?

Not sure

What do you consider to be your best find?

My house

Are you usually early or late?


What pets did you have while you were growing up?

Birds,fish, dogs, hamster, ferrets,cat

{August 29, 2018}   49 Things About Me

2. Zodiac sign


3. 3 fears

Something happening to one of my kids.


Snakes lol

4. 3 things I love

My kids

My friends

My pets

5. My best friend

My Bff I talk about all the time

My good Friend

6. Last song I listened to

Meant To Be

7. 3 Turn ons




8. 3 Turn offs


Out of shape

Know it all

9. What colour underwear I’m wearing right now


10. How many tattoos/piercings do I have

2 tats so far

11. The reason I started blogging

To have somewhere to just get everything out vent to. And to have something to look back at and see how far we have come. The kids and I since we started this chapter in life. I will probably tell my kids about it and let them read it at some point in life.

12. How I feel right now

Feel nothing right now, haven’t felt this way in a while.

13. Something I really really want

Another job

A new to me truck with no problems.

14. My current relationship status

Sadly single and lonely

15. Meaning behind my URL

What my blog is about

16. My favourite movie

Dirty Dancing

17. My favourite song

This is hard I have so many

18. My favourite band

I like a lot of different people

19. 3 Things that upset me

Not being able to do better for my kids

Not saying no to things I should of

Way my kids dads have done them

20. 3 Things that make me happy

My kids



21. What I find attractive in other people



22. Someone I miss

My dad

23. Someone I love

My kids

24. My relationship with my parents

My dad was great

My mom horrible

25. My favourite holiday


26. My closest blogging friend

Don’t know anyone who do.

27. Someone famous I’d date 

Don’t know I do not really watch much tv or or keep track of famous people

28. A confession

I hate life right now

29. 3 Things that annoy me easily

Being asked the samething more than once

Being late

Sharing my bed

30. My favourite animal



31. My pets

Frog, dogs,

32. One thing I’ve lied about

Having my shit together and being happy.

33. Something that’s currently worrying me

Getting a new job

34. An embarrassing moment

Puking down the door in class after getting injured in pe the class before. I was in like 7th grade.

35. Where I work

An escape room

36. Something that’s constantly on my mind

How much of a mess things are for me and the kids with my mother here and her leaving.

37. 3 Habits I have

Putting things off until the last minute or misssing it.

Can’t think of any really all i do is work and sleep to avoid everything right now.

38. My future goals

Meet someone and build a future together.

39. Something I fantasise about

Not being responsible for everything all the time. Having a break and help.

40. My favourite store

Don’t really have one whatever is close

41. My favourite food


42. What I did yesterday


43. Something I’m talented at

Worrying about everything

44. My idea of the perfect date

Hum being alone sitting or walking by the water just talking or goofing off.

45. My celebrity crush


46. My favourite blog

I am my own island

Therapy Bits

Are a few

47. Number of kids I want

I have 4 and I am done

48. Do I smoke/drink

Drink some smoke once in a great while when I drink. Think it has been 5 years since last time I did.

49. One word that describes me


50. My favourite quote

Never take no for an answer, if you really want it.

{August 18, 2018}   ABC Tag

Okay so Therapy Bits and A Multitude of Musings shared the ABC Tag post so I thought I would too. Its fun to get to know eachother better. Sorry I can not post links to everyone. But check them all out, great bloggers to follow.

    • Age: 38


    • Books: when I can read I love to read true crime about murders, kidnappings and things like that. And biographies or auto biographies.


    • Colors: Red and Yellow


    • Dream: To move and not struggle to get by.


    • Everyday starts with: Getting kids ready for school and making sure everything is done before I have to leave for work.


    • Flower: lilies


    • Goals: Get move, get a better job and meet someone.


    • Height: 5’3


    • In love with: No one


    • Job: An escape room


    • Kids: 4


    • Last thing I ate: slim jim and tea. Seems to be what I am surviving on most days.


    • Magic power: I would love to know what people are thinking. But i give myself away because i couldnt keep my mouth shut at times once i knew. Lol
    • Number of fears: just snakes mostly.


    • Outfit: jeans and my work t shirt


    • Passions: don’t know that I have any anymore.


    • Quotes: no is just an obstical not a end.


    • Reasons to Smile: my kids


    • Season: Fall


    • Travels: would love to travel to all 50 states.


    • Under water animals: dolphins they are fun to watch at the river.


    • Vacation: anywhere without kids lol


    • Worst habit: putting things off until its to late.


    • X-Men character: none


    • Your favorite food: salad


  • Zodiac sign: Capricorn

et cetera
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