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{September 5, 2019}   Only a Rain Storm

Hurricane Dorian did nothing but bring some wind and rain. Nothing more than a normal Florida rain storm we typically get this tine of year really.

I can not believe it. I am grateful we didn’t get slammed by a cat 5 or something like that and feel horrible for the people in the islands. I know we could be going through what they are and I could be out a lot nore than money. But right now I am out like two weeks pay.

I don’t think I can go camping now for Mr. 8’s birthday until a week or two later or next month. I have been figuring and figuring money and moving bills around trying to make it work. I just don’t see how. I feel bad I really want to take him and I really wanted to go with Mr. Responsible and his son. Us all and Bff would of had a blast.

I need to go over my tent see if it is usable, get a canopy, food, gas, cake and gifts, part of the money for the site. I don’t see it happening next weekend.

I may see if he still wants to go once I get money settled and get it all planed out again. I hope he dont get upset he said he understands.

I have Mr. 13’s birthday coming up 2 weeks after Mr. 8’s I have to do something for. I don’t know what he wants yet, I have to ask him. He was telling me something the other day Mom of The Year here can’t remember what it was. I think he wants to go to the movie but not sure.

I have to pat on bills they are hitting at once. The one I can normally move the due date because the date comes at a really bad time anyway. But for some reason I haven’t been able to move it. I figured things out I think if I don’t do the trip I can still do something and get everything taken care of. I can get the gifts from the kids and cake with family. Give him a date with the camping trip or tell him sit down with me help me pick somewhere to go. He will like that. That will cost me a lot less and then that part will be out of the way as well. Since the gifts from the kids will be done. That is a nice chunk of money in its self. I will do a cake when we go camping if BFF and other go. They will give him a little gift and things too.

I don’t think BFF is in the mood to go camp and things right now either after being away so long for the storm and things. I am tired wore out and just want to get back to normal and that wont be until next week and even then wont will missing work and more money to go camping, being away from home and all that. It be another week before I get back to any kind of normal. I don’t know if mentally I can handle that right now.

I feel bad but I never told him we would go camping for sure on his bday. Just that we would go.



{September 3, 2019}   Hurricane Dorian Watch Update

I am laying in a shelter as the storm is starting to roll in on us. They say it will really start about 12am so an hour and a half away. But we have been getting small spells of rain off and on all day. One just started again but it maybe here to stay this time.

They say we will start to get bad or the worst will be between 4 am and 6 am. It will be over us until about 12.

It has downgraded from a 5 to I think a 2. It is now about 100 miles or less from our beach and the island where I work. They say it is 80 miles off shore right now but could come as close as 50 miles into the shore. They are fairly sure it will not make land fall in FL.

So far right now everyone says it isn’t anything more than a rain storm. But who knows as it gets closer and if it moves in to us or if it moves further out. I hope it stays this way and we can get back to work Thursday.

I hope to go home tomorrow if it’s done by 12 pm.  But at least we are safe and hopefully this thing misses us. Hope all my readers are safe if you were or are in the path of this thing.



It is 10:40 a.m and I just want to scream fuck the storm lets get on with life as normal. Whatever happens happens. It was supposed to of been here and gone by now we should be well on our way in cleaning up and heading back to work. We are still waiting on it. It is still 195 miles below where we are and they have no idea where it is going to go. They keep saying hug or skirt the coast but they do not know how close. Last night they were saying 30 to 40 miles off the coast I was okay with that. Today the eye is all but touching us. Then they say we do not know how far off it will be and by the way we don’t know if or where it may come on shore at it is likely.

Some of the charts bring it in down south straight up the middle just about. Others show it coming in right below us or right above us. Still on us we would still be in some of the worse of it. Most are showing it with the eye running up and around the coast just on land or just off but to close.

We will have a lot of damage if it follows these paths. Tons of homes and business lost, flooding like we haven’t seen and who knows if we will have power for how long we will be out. I don’t think our old bridges to the island and then to the beaches will survive. Then what do we do?

Most hit and run I guess you could say. You feel it for some hours and it’s gone. This one could crawl over us for 2 days they are saying. That is bad really bad and makes the damage worse. Places that may have withstood a fast blow over may not be able to withstand this thing sitting on it beating and beating on it and all the extra water and pressure from it.

Everything is closing with no idea of when they will open again. Others are trying to hold out and get as many trucks as they can in so people can get things they need. Because once they close no one knows when or what will be able to open or how long it will take to get trucks into us so they have things we need.

People think you get a little rain, wind some damage you go back to normal when it is over. It really is not like that. Like now everyone’s lives have come to a stop or their day to day has drastically changed dealing with this. Now all we can do is sit and wait days for it to hit and then wait days for it to pass so we spend days more with no power sometimes no water and just wonder when life will go back to normal. People do not know how stressful going through something like this really is.

I am in a weird place right now. I am in that place where I know I need to do things and get ready but I can’t force myself up and get them done. I know this is bad but at the same time the not knowing not having any idea and being in limbo makes it harder to want to do anything. Honestly I just want to sleep. Everything is bothering me with the kids wanting to do things and bored. I just want to be left a lone. I feel horrible for it. I am very irritated when I am awake.

I just want life back to normal or at least this thing to hit us so we can start working toward normal again.

I think another update should of just come or be coming. I guess I should go check it and see what they are saying. I need to finish getting my carport cleaned off because I only half done it last night. We are getting a little bit of wind and rain off and on now. Nothing major but it is going to get worse through out the day and tomorrow they say.



{July 29, 2019}   The Storm That Took my Bumper

So Friday I left work two hours early to go to the ssi office, as soon as I went to leave it started pouring. The bridge right by work was backed way up that means an accident most the time. I decided to take the back road to the other side of town to take the other bridge over since it comes out a few miles from where I needed to go.

I got about a quarter of the way down the back road and the street was flooded I thought it was low enough I could get though, other cars were making it. I hit something halfway through. It stopped me at first then I was able to go. I figured it was a tree branch or something, with the rain and the windows fogging up I had a hard time seeing. I could see the cars behind me going around something but still couldn’t tell what it was. But figured it must be a tree or trash or they would of stopped and kept going as well.
I got to the other bridge and ended up sitting there for I don’t know how long because it was all backed up as well don’t know if it was just the weather or what was going on. The rain did end up being worse than I had expected it to be,, so it may have just been that.

I was lucky enough to get to the ssi office just minutes before they locked the door and closed. I left there and decided to go ahead and head to my night job and pick something to eat up on the way because the weather was so bad. I knew it was going to take awhile to get there. I went a few places trying to decide what I wanted to eat but I never got out because it was raining so hard. I ended up going through the drive through and going to work. I grabbed all my stuff and made a run for the door and went in once i got there.

In a little while I went outside to use my phone since it don’t work inside and it had stopped raining for a minute. I walked out and turned to walk over to the car. I will go out and lean against the hood or sit on the edge. The car looked a mess, The front was gone. The first few seconds I was like what the hell happen to my car? What did the guys do to my car? How did they do this? Why? at the same time I went it’s over on the back road. I lost it when I hit whatever it was. I was to far away to go look for it and figured I had already tore it up hitting it and that someone else probably had hit it by now it. It had been hours. I did what I had to do and went back inside.

When I got off I tried calling my sister and asked if she wanted to go with me to look for it. She was busy and her hubby wasn’t there from work yet. I went over to find it in the dark on this little two lane road with next to no street lights.

I thought I knew where it was but wasn’t 100% sure since it was raining and everything. Sure enough I got down in that area and there it was leaning against a street light. I turned around and pulled over so that I didn’t have to get out on the side of the road. I got out and grabbed it and put it in the backseat. I found a plastic piece I wasn’t sure if it was off my car or not so I grabbed it too. In a little bit my sister called and asked if I found it and got it okay. I told her I was on the bridge already headed home.

I messaged my good friend and asked if he was going to be at the shop the next day. He said him or his brother would be there. I said oh good I need someone to out my bumper back on for me. I went over the next morning and his brother was able to put it back on. It is on better than it was to start with probably. I am so glad he was able to put it back on because so much was exposed and I was scared to drive it that something would happen to something and it looked horrible.

I thought everything was alright until I started down to take the dog this morning. Now I feel this thumping under my feet when I start to take off from a stop or slow down and speed up. My friend says it is the cv axle probably. That is going to be another $150 or more. I swear I feel like I am on some kind of bad reality show that I haven’t been informed of. Oh well such is life I guess.



{March 27, 2019}   What a Nasty Day

It’s just now lunch time and the weather has been nasty out for the last 3 hours. I took the little kids to school and dropped them off. Then I took oldest to the store and dropped her off at home. I decided to go pick up my last check at the car lot before work since I don’t have time to get it or cash it between jobs.

I pulled up it was raining some but not bad. Me and oldest were looking at it across town and talking about how it didn’t seem like we were going to get any rain it was blowing over. Well about the time I went to open my door and get out it sounded like someone threw a baseball at my truck. Then again and then it sounded like marbles and baseballs pelting my truck all over and it was pouring out. It was hailing like crazy. I can’t think of the last time I seen hail even during hurricanes I hadn’t seen hail.

My sister and Bff sent me pictures it looked like it snowed outside their houses. Bff said it was all over the sides of the road by her house. I was surprised because it was gone about as fast as it hit where I was at and around where I was driving.

I finally made a run for it and got my check. Then I went to cash it, but between the hail and the train I ended up turning around going to get my coffee and coming to work. It looked like it was stopping when I got here but the last two hours it has poured and hailed more. I wanted to get food but I didn’t want to get stuck in the rain and hail. I maybe a little late to work this evening because I am hungry and want to eat. If I don’t eat then it will be at least 5 more hours before I get to eat. If it is nasty out when I leave I will probably just have to go to work or I will be to late because of the time it takes to get there. Add the rain and it will take an hour or more to get there if I stop to get something to eat.

I may just go in and when everyone leave I will just go up to the little store and grab something. We have a wa wa about half a mile up the road. I have never been to one but I know they have hot food and things and are supposed to be good. The guy training me had a sub from there the other night it smelled really good. I have food at home I was going to bring I forgot to go in and get it this morning the kids were running late for school again.



{February 13, 2019}   Day 10 Song a Day Challenge

Not a song but this is my go to wjen I can’t sleep and think of it.

I do not own this or rights to it.



{October 10, 2018}   A Nice Day Out

I almost feel guilty enjoying the nice weather we are having. Because we are only having suck nice weather because the Golf Coast and Panhandle are getting hit by this huge hurricane right now. While they are all huddled in shelters, motels or other places away from their homes being blown around and poured on by this storm me and the kids are at the park enjoying the nice breeze and a break from the 100 degree weather. While it is nice out it is an eerie feeling to the day.

I wonder what the weather is going to be like at work seeing we are on the beach. Seeing as we are on the other coast it shouldn’t be to different. Thinking about it i am closer to the storm and it’s outer bands than they are. Going to work I will be further from it than I am now. So it will probably be just another day.



{August 28, 2018}   Thunder Storms

I noticed something odd lately. We have been having a lot of lightening and thunder storms lately. More lightning than thunder really. We haven’t had hardly any rain with it, a lot of times none or a few minutes worth while the rest last for hours or most the day/night.

I do not ever remember having such storms ever really. I remember way back working for the bail bonds place, the lady that worked with me was talking about them. She was telling me where her daughter lived would have them. I thought it was so odd and had never heard of such a thing. I mean we get them but always ended up having rain or a sprinkle or you hear see a little lightening but it blew over fast the rain skirted us. But it didn’t last for hours or all day/night like it has been.

Last night I was laying here and heard all this loud banging and realised it was thunder. I never did hear any rainbut just listening to the thunder a few minutes made me fall a sleep. It must of rain this morning early because things were wet.

It just seems odd we normally have a lot of rain this time of year and we aren’t. We are just having these thunder and lightening storms.



{May 21, 2018}   Love My Good Friend

My Good Friend messaged me at work last night and said there maybe a small shred of hope for my truck after all. He had me go out and get under it and take some pictures for him, but I wasn’t able to find what he was looking for. I was supposed to meet up with him today so he could look at it but it has been raining here for days and today was no different and he been busy. He checked it in the rain for me the other day because we couldn’t get a break from it.

When he looked at it he said he was going to do some research and see if there was anything else that maybe goes on these trucks that would cause the problem I am having. Because some cars and trucks are known to have problems that cause crazy things to happen that normally shouldn’t or a design flaw of some kind.

When he looked it up he found somewhere that told him that sometimes on these trucks they put the oil cooler by the filter under the truck instead of where we thought it was to start with. That is what he was wanting me to get pictures of, the filter and where it all mounts up under there so he could see of he seen one or not. But I was at work and trying to watch the store being the only one there and under the truck and everything else. I didn’t get the right thing. I was going to meet him today or try but again with the rain we were stuck.

Hopefully he will have time to meet me at his new shop where he can get it in out of the rain and check it over. I pray it has the cooler down there and that is all the problem is. If not it is pretty much back to needing a motor.

I am just so thankful he is taking time out of his busy life with three jobs t kids and normal life stuff to help me. Because I can’t even ask boss right now really because of all the stuff going on there. I haven’t even told you all about that yet with everything that has been going on and being sick. Maybe tonight or sometime soon.



{September 19, 2017}   Irma…….$1500+ Storm

For over a week my mother ran around here freaking about Irma and it was going to hit us coming right at us. There was nothing I could do I didn’t have my money. They said we would have it that Friday about the time it was supposed to hit. If you have not dealt with storms like this if you want to get out and leave you need to do so at least a day or two before they say you have to or need to leave. If you wait the roads are packed, there is not gas to get and a 5 hour drives turns into a 16 hour drive and for some that is no joke. They started telling people South of us to get out really early this time compared to when other storms have come. Then they told everyone around me in trailers, on the beaches, island, or flood pron areas to get out. We were going to go up north but the roads were so full by the time I got my money at 2am Friday morning. My sister kept saying she was going to stay here and my grandparents. My mom was all freaking out and trying to control everything. I refused to leave until I had my money even though she had hers before mine and we could have gotten some before that if we went and got it. I was not being told it is my money we are doing this that and the other and being dictated through the trip. We ended up staying just maybe about 15 or 20 miles away at a shelter. I was just worried if the trees came down with us here in the house. I was talking to the guy across the street about staying because he was. He said but you have all these tree and it is supposed to be bad he didn’t think it was a good idea. He don’t say things like that I was surprised. I was still going to stick it out at home but my mom had the kids so scared and upset and my sister decided she shouldn’t stay in her place either so we went to a shelter not far from her. I didn’t think she should stay in her place either really. They are nice places but old and not built to standards like buildings today. Mine isn’t new either probably a little older than hers but it is block and it isn’t two stories and already having problems. She had big trees all around her too.

We ended up being there two nights because the storm hit a day later than what they thought because it slowed down. I went late in the evening the night it was supposed to hit figured I could get up when it was over and go home. Me and my little one stayed up for a while but fell a sleep about the time it was supposed to hit and get up by us. At that point they were saying it was going to go over off the West Coast and go up, when I got up the next day I seen where it had come across the state and hit us as well. I never stay up during one if I am here and it hits at night. I may get up off and on or once in the night and check things out or if I hear something but most the time i go to bed and sleep through it.

I was shocked when I woke up they said there was no WATER, power and they couldn’t flush the toilets and things. I was like wow this is weird like twilight zone or something. I have never in almost 37 years been through a storm like that and lose water and have all the lift stations and things be down and not works. We went and drove over to my sisters house and then mine to see how things were before we checked out of the shelter to make sure we could get home and had a home to get to. The amount of power lines that were down, main big lines laying across roads, other smaller ones snapped and laying all over, the poles that were blown over, broken off, and snapped in two was unreal. Again never seen such a thing after a storm. Yes a few lines may break but mostly transformers blow and that is it not lines breaking, poles snapping and all that. There were tons of traffic lights blown down busted everywhere, nothing was open nothing had power it seemed like. There was a lot of wet area and areas you could see where it flooded a little but had already went down. The parking lot going over to my sisters was flooded and lines down up and down the street around her, some trees broken or fallen but little ones not big ones.

I came to my house I had no power and no water, but everything was okay nothing broken or damaged. Lots of pine cones all over the yard and littler branches. I went took my sister home and me and the kids came home. By the time we go home we had water back but still no power. We ended up going staying with my friend and her family. She didn’t have power either but she had a generator. The only real reason I went over there was to use her internet to try and catch up on school work so I wasn’t late or what but was locked out of it. We came home the next morning and by that afternoon we had power again. Just this past Friday have stores like Wal Mart and Publix and things opened fully. The shelves are pretty empty, I heard them say they had a 5000 piece dairy truck coming in Thursday night late and when I was there Friday you couldn’t even tell they had a truck come in. The shelves were still empty. We can get some meats and things but nothing else cold really. The stores lost just about everything unless it was a can or bottle. I heard them say that it would probably be 4 to 6 weeks before the shelves are stocked and going as normal again. There are still a lot of places without power and to bad of damage to even open still as far as places to eat or stores. I took some pictures around town but have not gone over the bridges to the island or beaches yet.

I was supposed to start my job the day the storm hit Monday last week. They were calling us that night saying they had water and power to come to work the next day. I said how are we supposed to do that when we have no power or water? We can’t cook, shower or anything like that. Daycares and schools are closed they can’t open with no water or power so we have no where to take our kids. If we leave them home alone with no power or water we are going to get in trouble and go to jail or something, we are in the middle of a natural disaster and all you all can say is we are good to go make sure you get here. We were just hit by this storm less than 12 hours ago. I told them when kids could go back to daycare we had water power or what then I could come in. They said that was fine they had others that couldn’t come in either they would do another class next week probably. Now they are not starting another one until October the 2nd and it is 3 pm to 11 pm. I am so aggravated with them. I have talk to a few people to try to get into something different or start earlier but there isn’t anything else in that office and no more classes until then. So now because I couldn’t go and they have no care about their employees and what they just went through or going through I lost $1500 in pay for the three weeks I don’t get to work. But my kids come first and I have to make sure they are okay and taken care of. Schools and daycare just reopened today too. I heard that on the West Coast and down south they still have no power or water and it could be at least another week or more before schools and things open back up.



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