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Do you ever have a random thought that your mind latches onto and will not let go? It’s the tiniest thing and meaningless but for whatever reason your mind decides it is as important as the the $100 bill in your pocket. It keeps coming back to it scared your going to lose it or something.

That is what my mind has done this past week. Last week while driving I reach to get something and was driving with my right hand. It felt very awkward and was hard to drive and do what I was trying to do with my left hand.

At that time I thought hum that is odd, I am right handed but drive with my left and it is hard to drive with my right. I wondered why that was and I came to the conclusion that it was just the natural way I had trained myself since I am right handed and use it to do things. If I wanted to do something like grab my drink I would use my right hand leaving the left on the wheel and have just gotten use to it that way. I wondered if it was just me or if others were  the same.

I then went on about the rest of my day not giving it another thought, so I thought. But now since then my brain hasn’t let it go. I think it a dozen times while I am driving. It don’t matter if I am going to the store two blocks up the road or 20 miles to work. It comes up and I think about it over and over again until i get were I am going. Sometimes even while I am where I am going for a bit until I get busy with something else.

How crazy is that? Why is my brain doing this to me over something so meaningless?

So here we go since it is there and I am telling you about it what say you all?

Are you right handed or left handed?

What hand do you drive with?

 

  1. Right handed drive with the right
  2. Right handed drive with the left
  3. Left handed drive with the left
  4. left handed drive with the right

I know we all should be driving with both hands on the wheel but lets be honest we know that we all don’t drive with both hands on the wheel all the time so give us your answer. I find myself driving with both hands more now that I have this new car but I think because it don’t have arm rest like my truck did. I think the arm rest is also part of the reason I drive left handed. But I can remember driving left handed way back when I first started driving thinking about it more even when I didn’t have things to reach for or do. I drove left handed. I remember my aunt talking about how I held the wheel and drove and how awkward it was to her. I held the little part inside the wheel not the wheel its self. I don’t know I drive more like that now in my smaller car as well. But I had a little truck when I first started driving. handled a lot like my car. That is probably why. Okay enough I am rambling now it is random not rambling thought.

Tell us in the comments are you 1, 2, 3 or 4 my weird mind wants to know. Maybe it will drop it and let this thought go once it finds out.



Kid walks in the shop have never seen him before in my life. Says he is just looking around and we have air his van don’t. I stand there why he looks……

Him I like your shirt. Have you found love yet?

Me. No

Him me either. Goes back to looking at knives.

Few minutes later I could be your boyfriend if you wanted me to.

Me. Nope to busy with work and 4 kids.

Him oh oh you got kids oh well then looks some more finally leaves.

😂😂😂😂

who the he’ll just walks in a store and thinks some random person is going to want you to be their boyfriend when they have never met you? 😬😬😬😬😬 he was probably in his 20’s lol how old did he think I was he looked floored I said I have kids.

The shirt that started it all 😄😄😄😄

 



{September 10, 2018}   Lets Get To Know Eachother

Some more questions so you can get to know a little more about me. Would love to see everyone else’s responses. Comment and leave a link if you do them so I can come check it out. Read the rest of this entry »



{September 3, 2018}   Random Questions 2 About Me

What could you give a 40-minute presentation on with absolutely no preparation?

Kids, parenting, domestic violence

If you were dictator of a small island nation, what crazy dictator stuff would you do?

I would findout what the people wanted or needed and try to make things happen they wanted.

What is something you think everyone should do at least once in their lives?

Coming up blank on this one.

Would you rather go hang gliding or whitewater rafting?

Hang gliding

What’s your dream car?

My excursion is my dream truck. Not into cars.

What’s worth spending more on to get the best?

A vehicle

What is something that a ton of people are obsessed with but you just don’t get the
point of?

Name brand clothing, shoes, purses

What are you most looking forward to in the next 10 years?

My kids being older, being more settled and stable and able to give them more.

Where is the most interesting place you’ve been?

Life is pretty boring can’t think of anywhere really.

What’s something you’ve been meaning to try but just haven’t gotten around to it?

Walk more, get the kids more active 😢

What’s the best thing that happened to you last week?

Probably my $10 tip. Other than that it was a pretty uneventful week.

What piece of entertainment do you wish you could erase from your mind so that you
could experience for the first time again?

Music

If all jobs had the same pay and hours, what job would you like to have?

Counselor

What amazing thing did you do that no one was around to see?

How different was your life one year ago?

Sadly not much

What quirks do you have?

I sleep at the foot of the bed when I am sick or don’t feel well.

What would you rate 10 / 10?

 

What fad or trend do you hope comes back?

Guys wearing cologne or body spray

What kind of art do you enjoy most?

Panting and drawing

What do you hope never changes?

How close me and the kids are to eachother

What city would you most like to live in?

Don’t know about what city but somewhere in Tenn.

What movie title best describes your life?

Feel like Groundhogs Day

Why did you decide to do the work you are doing now?

It is a job and they hired me

What’s the best way a person can spend their time?

With the one’s who mean the most to them.

If you suddenly became a master at woodworking, what would you make?

All those DIY things I seen for the house. Furniture, declarations and things for the house.



{August 11, 2018}   Whole Lot Of Nothing

Sitting here waiting on my oldest to get out of the store. It looks like it is about to pour and it is thunder and lightening already. I dropped her at the door told her call me when she comes out I will pull around and pick her up.

I have to go to work at 5 until close so that could be 1130 or it could be 1/130. I may see if the other girl wants to close shebgets off at 10. I have to be back there early in the morning. I don’t have my work shirt on so I am sure something will be said about that. I can’t help it we only have two and one was ruined with bleach at work. The other I didn’t get washed for today after getting home late. I didn’t fall a sleep until 3 or after but when I did I slept for a change. I slept long amd hard. I woke up about 11, I guess. I have been lazy still just relaxing. I am trying to get the stuff we need so I can head to work. I will be early but traffic has been bad and if it storms I don’t want to be stuck in that. I won’t be to early anyway so I will probably be able to clock in get a little extra time. I am probably at 40 hours now I haven’t even looked to see. Not my problem I just worked what was asked and okayed by my boss. He will have to take the backlash on that.

I am loving the breeze right now. There is no sun to be seen and its so nice out. I think its still in the high 80s low 90s. It won’t last long probably.

Bff called me this morning that is what woke me up or I would of slept longer I am sure. She said she went to get gas and father of the year was at the pump beside her. Said he wasn’t happy at all. She said she thinks he must of been working be was in what looked to be a work truck and was filling gas cans. she said maybe he is going to start paying you and had to start working Saturdays so he can. I said good don’t feel sorry for him at all. I am working 6 days a week and 11/13 hour days some times he don’t care. Whatever he has to do to pay his part just like I have had to all this time. I have not heard from his boss since he said it was all going to work out so I do not know what to expect. I am just waiting to see if he gets a hold of me on the first or what. I am not holding my breath or counting on it until I get it.



{November 15, 2016}   Ready For Bed

What a day it has been. I don’t know if I talked about my friend who’s hubby brings food home from work. He gets tons of food from work that he can bring home. He brought some home and my friend brought me some and put some for them in my extra freezer outside. He got some different stuff today and she brought some over to put in there and brought me some. He gets home at like 5/6 am so then she brings it from there. Yesterday she got here early before we went to school today she didn’t get here until after I left. I told her I would be back in a little bit. I ran a little late and she called me while I was standing in the office talking to the teachers and things at the older kids school. She said she just been in an accident. I told her I would be there in a few minutes I was on my way. I did what I had to do and left. I called her when I got in the car and she said that she hit someone from behind. They pulled over and the women was saying no, no and motioning to she was leaving and got in the car when asked about calling the police or what. So the cops weren’t called. My friend was worried she was going to call she said her car wasn’t messed up just a scratch on the bumper. My friends car is messed up in the front she has to get a new bumper and other stuff.

I finished with her picked my other friend up to take her to the hospital on my way to therapy. I ended up being an hour early after dropping her off. I went checked on somethings with my new couch and tables, then went and got a burger for lunch. By then it was just about time to be there I parked and ate it then went inside. I talked to the counselor about what all is going on then went and picked my friend up from the hospital.

After I picked my friend up we came back to my house on the way I stopped and talk to one of my grandpa’s friends who stopped and talked to me yesterday morning when I was getting the kids in the truck. He came back later that morning and knocked on the door. I wasn’t dressed and was laying here watching tv and didn’t answer it. He as out I stopped to see what he had needed. He was wanting to tell me about a fish tank he had. I had asked him yesterday about one he had in a yard sale over the weekend. He said he sold it. He came back to tell me he had another one he would sell. Then he told me he made $300 from his yard sale. He said Thursday is his busiest day.

Me and my friend talked I have stuff at the kids school Thursday she is going to come over Wednesday night and stay the night. That way she is here why I take the kids to school and sit her why I go to the school for lunch with the kids and to pick them up later. When she comes Wednesday we are going to go through the house and see what else we can find to maybe sell. I am putting anything and everything out there.

Then we had to go to the chicken coop and a chicken club meeting. I couldn’t go feed chickens before or after the meeting I had to go out there twice. Because the meeting it at 7 at night it’s dark out. We have to go to the chickens before it gets dark. It isn’t far it is just the extra time going there and home then back again.

The kids are still being horrid brats and fighting with each other non stop. I am ready to pull my hair out.

Guess I better go take my pill and go to bed. I have to take it at night so I don’t feel all the nasty side effects from it. But then I have to go to bed when I take it because it makes me sleepy.



{March 9, 2016}   Random Thought # 3

If my phone was ever search for any random reason I can only imagian what one would think. I look up anything and everything. Things we won’t even talk about here.

They may not be able to get me on anything, but I’m sure I would probably be followed the rest of my life. Keep them on their toes they have no idea what to expect and no clue what list to put me on with all the very odd, wierd, strange random things I go in search of.



{February 10, 2016}   Random Thought Number 2

Am I the only one who can not type in the dark? I mean I can sit and type something up while looking across the room at something else or sit here and talk to someone and look at them and type whatever it is I am working on with no problem. Right now I am sitting at the computer but I am turned sideways with my feet propped in another chair wrapped in my blanket with the keyboard on my lap looking out the window trying to figure out what the lights outside are between the blinds.

But if I can not sit here in the dark with just the light from the computer and type. I have no idea why but for some odd and very strange reason if it is dark I feel the need to look at the keyboard while I type. even though I don’t need to look at it to type and do not look at it any other time while I do. So the kitchen light is on around the corner and to be honest I don’t think it is really lighting up the room enough to make a difference, I think most all the light that is lighting the room is from the computer but for my brain it works and I am able to type.



{January 30, 2016}   Random Thought # 1

The longer I have to wait the more I wish they had just kept my and did this operation last week when they decided it needed to be done. They have left me with way to much time to think about it. I do not want any surgery no matter what it is for. They told me at 5 weeks I may need a c section with my second baby. I told them he could stay in there, there would be none of that. Just like telling the doctor the other day I have had my gallstone for a few years now we are just fine together. But this is causing me so much pain and hurting so bad, like I said in my other post I would cut it out and hand it to them myself at this point it is causing so many problems.

The other day I was sitting around thinking about this and how they say they are just going to go in cut it out and biopsy it. I thought who was just sitting around one day and thought oh I wonder what would happen if we cut someone open and took this or that out of them? And who said oh sounds like a good experiment use me? How would anyone think oh I have all these body parts but I wonder how many and what ones you can take  out and still live without them? How did they react when they took something out that a person couldn’t live without and it killed them? Or they started to go? Oh guess we know now not to take that part out make a note and spread the news? Not only that but what about something to knock these people out and make sure they don’t feel the pain? Someone had to think of these things and make them.

I keep telling myself that it is just a little thing and they do this all the time now and that it is a simple operation. But then I think why is there tissue growing on it, where did it come from, what is it? I think about where it is in my neck and it’s right by the main artery that runs along your neck. I think wow if they do everything with these small little incisions now days how are they going to see that and not hit it? How are they going to have room to move the tools around? It seems like the size of an egg or golf ball, how is that going to come out of a little cut they make or even a few? I tell myself it’s going to be fine and really I am not all that worried about it one way or the other like you would think I would be or should be. I just have all these random thoughts more out of curiosity than worry or being scared. I want it over with because it hurts I walk around with pain in my face and head all day every day for over a month now. I have missed a bunch of work over it and I need to get back to work. I need to be able to go back as soon as they call me and tell me they have something and I need to be applying and trying to get something in case they don’t call back. But I don’t want to go get a job and then have to tell them oh I have to go get this done so I am going to need two or three days off or maybe more. I rather have it done and out of the way. It makes me feel sleepy all the time as well. I just hate the way it makes me feel and the way the meds make me feel.

 



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