So Monday I worked my 8 hours and decided to go home. Since I still had about an hour and half until JW was off I decided to take the long way home. There are like 3 different ways I take home depending on my mood and how much time I have. Most nights I go straight up 95 because I leave about 30 minutes before he gets off. It only takes me like 20 minutes or so to get to his job.

Monday night I leave and decide to go the long way around just to waste time. It takes 45 minutes to an hour. I get a few miles from work stop at the light. It turns I go through the intersection. My truck has no power won’t change gear and is hardly rolling. I turned my flashers on and coasted until I could pull off the road. I was in the left lane couldn’t get over. I didn’t even know if I was going to get out of the road. I finally got over in the grass. My passenger side wheels were right on the yellow line. Everytime a car went by my truck would rock. I was scared they were going to hit me.

My truck was still running but sounded horrible and wouldn’t move. Then it shut off. I tried to start it all it would do was turn over. I got out checked the water, oil and transmission fluid. They were fine and I had half tank of gas. But it seemed as if it wasn’t getting gas to the motor. I killed the battery trying to get it started. I called my friend who said to check and see if the shut off for the fuel pump got tripped some how.

I hung up and tried to do that but it is behind the kick panel on the drivers side. I had to open the door on that side and then get tools and take it off. Had I done that my door would of been in the road and I would have as well. I talk to him again and decided it wasn’t that. Because I hadn’t had anyone in there since that morning to of hit it and I had not hit any bumps or anything hard enough to trip it I didn’t feel.

I was talking back and forth with JW and trying to find someone to come help me get it out of the road and check it more see if we could figure it out. I could not get a hold of anyone. So I call AAA and they say they will pick my truck up but not me. I am 25 miles away from home. I can’t get anyone to come help me who is going to come get me. I am in the street there are houses on one side and a pound on the other. It is blocks up a main road then across it and another main road. I hung up and called JW he said they would come get me but they wouldn’t be off for an hour. I figured it would take that long or longer for the tow truck. I hung up called and told them to send the truck.

I was in the truck it was dark the lights were off. I had the hood up and been there an hour. I was looking down talking on the phone and someone starts knocking on my window. I look down this guy is standing there. He started asking what was wrong and stuff. I was talking to the lady he got under the hood started looking. I tried to turn it over show him it was dead. He said is that a tow truck? Hang up cancel it I can fix it get you going. The guy with him told him hush let me finish.

I hung up he said I have the same truck same motor everything for 10 years. I have done all the work rebuilt it everything. Whatever it is I can fix it. He said your ground wire was really lose I could pull it off with my hand. I turned it over tightened it up. We will jump it you will be on your way. I was telling him no I killed it after I got stopped it wasn’t getting fuel. He was saying if it is not grounded it isn’t being charged nothing is going to work right. I said I know but you aren’t understanding. I said jump it we can’t tell anything if you can’t hear what it is doing. So they did. It turns over but don’t start. I said see it isn’t getting fuel and I have half a tank. He climbed up under the hood and started messing with something. He told me get in turn key on and off. He said your right there isn’t any pressure from the fuel pump. He said he couldn’t fix it there on the road like that. He said it is your pump and I can do it in 45 minutes for $200 and you get the part. I checked about getting the pump done in my other truck and they waned $700. He said he could do it the next day after work.

They other guy said if you want to tow it around the corner leave it in my yard you can. He said lock it up and bring the key back when we get home tomorrow. It will save you a bunch on your tow bill. We will fix it as soon as we get off.

I said look I have to go home and see if I can borrow the money because I do not have it. But I have to get it going so I don’t miss work. He said okay we will come to you. Get a hold of us tomorrow let us know.

They were still in front of my truck with cables hooked up when the tow truck got there. They moved and went to leave. I thought about being stuck once they took my truck. I ran over and stop them. I ask if they would take me up the street to the restaurant. I was going to get a drink and wait for JW to get there. It was dark and cool out and I would be off the road. They ask why. I told them because I had to wait for my ride. They said I could go with my truck.

I told him no they said because of covid they were not taking passenger. He said yeah I went over to get my things and wait for the guy to get the truck picked up.

I thought I am going to go get in this van with these two guys I just met. Sure we are only going to the end of the street a few blocks but what if they decide to go somewhere else or do something? I thought of my knife in the door of my truck. I got it and stuck it in my back pocket and covered it with my shirt and jacket. They were in a big work van with the cage and closed up no windows. I thought if I get separated from my purse it is going to do me no good or if I can’t get into it. This way I could just pull it out. Let me just say I did not really think I had anything at all to worry about or I would of never asked or thought about getting in the van with them. But you never know what may happen. I got out of the truck he came over said hunny he will take you with your truck. I said what? He said I talked to him he said they aren’t supposed to but he will. I said okay thank you. He said call him and let him know and made sure i had his number. I put my knife in my purse when no one was around. I figured in the tow truck there is more space between me and him and there was only one of him not two and he was driving too. I could get to it if I needed to. Before I figured if I road to the corner with them or 25 miles with him I didn’t know any of them so not any different really.

The one guy said I would of never stopped but I seen it was an excursion I told him stop turn around we have to go back. He was saying no, no,no. I said go back we have to stop. So he finally turned around. He said I love these trucks. I said me too it is my 2nd one. He said he got his 10 years ago for $10k and it only had 30 some thousand miles on it he is 2nd owner I think he said. 10 years ago with no more miles than that on it they gave him that truck. Just gave it away. He said if it was anything else I would of never stopped. They left and I walked back over to the tow truck. They guy was taking forever. Then he went to pull it up there and i called JW to tell him I was going to ride home with the truck. So he didn’t have to worry about coming all the way down there to pick me up.

I walk back to the front of the truck my truck is still not loaded. The guy has been here while now. He finally says he broke the wench on his truck he has to send another truck. He picks his stuff up and leaves. I am sitting back in the truck waiting and called the part store to see if they had the part and how much it was. They guy ask how my night was?

I said I am sitting on the side of the road because my fuel pump went out. I been here over an hour. The tow truck just left because he broke the truck trying to load mine. He was like damn not a good night.

All of a sudden I see red and blue lights behind me. They looked further away. Then I thought they were right behind me. Before I thought I said oh no it’s the cop’s. He said where? I said right behind me. He said you’re legal right it’s fine.

I said my birthday was Saturday and I forgot to get my tag. I gave him the info he needed got off the phone and out of the truck. The cop was walking up. I told him I was stuck I called AAA what happened when they got there that he just pulled away was sending someone else. Showed him on my phone text AAA sent me. He said call them back ask if I was okay and left. I called them back and sat on hold for what seemed like forever. The other truck came up before they ever came back to the phone. He hooked it up set it all up and we were on our way in no time. I figured out later the other guy tried to pull it up there with out putting it in gear so the wheels would roll. That is why his wench broke. I told you I can’t make this shit up. Who has luck like that?

I ask this guy if he would give me a ride and told him the other driver said he was going to tell him to. That he was going to. He said yes he would. He wasn’t supposed to but he wasn’t going to leave me stuck there on the side of the road. I had him take me to JW house. I stayed there that night. I was going to rent a car and they had none where I normally go. I checked the other place they wanted almost $90. I wouldn’t of even made 90 for the few hours I would of been at work. I had to leave early to get the truck fixed. I ended up calling in. The guys came about 5 the one took me to get the part why the other started on the truck. It took him about 2.5 hours but he got it done. He also replace the battery terminal for me too. I told him I had an oil leak asked if he seen it why he was under there? He said no got under it and looked. In just a second got up and said my motor mounts are wore out it is sitting on the oil pan. He said it is cracked. He said it would take most the day to do it. You have to lift the motor fix the pan replace the mounts put it back together. They said I would need to bring it to their dads shop so they could put it on the lift and could do it easier. I told him that was fine I had no problem doing that. He said let him know when I was ready. We would set something up.

JW said when I broke down his friend had a guy that would fix it. Said he done the breaks and something else for him. Small stuff and that he worked at one of the tow companies before. I said I don’t know about that. I don’t like just anyone messing with my truck. He may be able to do breaks but fuel pump is a lot more involved and can be dangerous if he does something wrong.

He said you are going to let this guy you don’t know do it? I said I know but talking to him watching him messing with it on the side of the road. He knows what he is talking about. What he is doing. He has the same truck done this stuff already to his. He knows what to expect what he needs and all that. I just felt it was ok and there was a reason he came by and stopped when he seen me.

I am waiting for the new year to start so I am not getting short checks. And I can get overtime. I am going to have do the mounts, and a few other things to it for me.

{August 5, 2020}   Falling Apart Around Us

I am so over my house it is falling apart all around us. It seems like everyday is something new I go home to broken. It isn’t things we are doing anything to. The a/c messed up again had to call about that yesterday.

Get home last night to one of the boys windows hanging half out of the frame. The rod it slides on is stuck in the up position didn’t go down with the window. So now it is jammed and won’t open or close all the way. I messed with it can’t get it to close. I folded a blanket up stuffed in the open part try to keep the a\c in and closed the blind. The windows have never open and closed right from the time I moved in. I told them that. They never did anything. I never pushed it because we hardly ever open them.  I could open them but the kids didn’t realise what was happening and that one couldn’t be open at all. Not their fault.

The light in my bathroom goes off sometimes and comes on sometimes if you get it off. You have to stand there flip the switch on and off a million times until it comes on or goes off. The kids were using it so i got it on and now it just stays on.

Just to fix those 3 things is going to cost me $300. They charge $100 for everything they have to come out there for. These things are not my fault. We didn’t tell the a/c go stop working or flood my house. And they have it rigged it does not drain outside of my house. There some box catching water. So i should not be paying for this at all that is not my fault it is that way.

The light is probably a lose wire. That is wear and tear and part of being an old house. We didn’t take it off and unhook a wire. How is it right I have to pay that.

The window’s I told them did not work. They did not fix them. They look like they came from a scratch and dent sale. Most have a crack in them in the corner. I know they did not break every window putting them in so they had to of bought them that way from somewhere. But they will charge me. It was $100 when they came for the air it will be $100 for that when they come.

I just want out. It serves its purpose it isn’t a bad house over all. Most people are surprised how big and “nice” it is when they walk in. But it’s all the little things you don’t notice until you start living in it or something happens and they don’t want to fix it.

I know what he paid for the house and I have paid it off and paid for the new roof and a/c that they have done since I lived there. I am sure the taxes are more than covered. They are not paying for anything it is all profit other than maybe insurance for the house if something happens and i am sure that what I pay in a year covers that as well. So everything else profit. You would think they could fix something. Oh and the pluming that has been messed up I have paid a bunch for plumbers they wont fix. I have lived in other houses and owned my own and never had so many problems it sucks.

{May 10, 2019}   He Has Forgotten

So it is almost 4:30 and he has not shown up to fix my truck. I didn’t figure he was going to but nothing I could do because I have no one to fix it until tomorrow. I messaged him at 12 and he hasn’t messaged or called back. Mr. Auto said he tried to call him and didn’t get him.

I told Mr. Auto and Bff both he must have forgotten who he is screwing over and he is going to wish he hadn’t forgotten. I said he likes to say you don’t take no shit, you don’t play games. I said I am done playing his game and I am not taking anymore of his bullshit lies. I said let my truck not be fixed by 5 and see. It will cost him more than the $50 he made for doing the job. I said it might not happen right now or anytime soon but it will happen. He knows I needed my truck for work this week and left me the way he has all this time and now he knows I need it tonight and that I Have somewhere to take the kids tomorrow and we can only go tomorrow and he is going to do this. Done was forget it before but knowing he screwed it up and won’t even come fix it after we figured out what it is and it take him 30 minutes an hour at the most.

I called the parts store and they said they have both parts in stock all he has to do it take the one off and take it in and trade it. He didn’t have to order anything.

{May 6, 2019}   Sure They Are All Talking

Mr. Auto called me over the weekend and I was busy and just didn’t feel like talking so I didn’t answer. He called me this morning when I was getting up to take the kids to school and I messaged and told him I was getting them ready I would call him back. I dropped the kids off and called him on my way to the bus stop.

He asked what I was doing.

I told him I was walking to the bus and he asked why. I told him my truck was down and I was trying to get it fixed but it had been down since last weekend. He said he could pick me up. I said it didn’t matter if he had time and was close felt like it. If not not a big deal I would take the bus. You never know where he is or what he is doing. Half the time he calls me says you just pass don’t wave or I honked at you and you didn’t even look or I seen you go by. He is always running around like me. He said he wasn’t far he come pick me up.

Then he was telling me he had repo’s he was going to see if I wanted to do or what. He had some to check on. I said well lets go, I don’t have to be at work for two hours. You have and hour. He said no he had this or that. I said you said it was on your list of things to do this morning so your right here lets get it. So then he pulled over and said here drive why I get the paperwork figured out. We went around to look for it didn’t find it. The girl left to take the kids to school we think. I was going to wait a few minutes go back he said he didn’t think she was going to come back because she was hiding from him. He said to go over to the island. I said I thought we were going here or there. He said no just go over to your job I can drop you off there if you want. He was calling around to see if he could find someone to fix the truck and get it done today.

He left and in a little bit called me back and said he stopped talked to one guy he wanted this much to do it but it had to be towed over there he couldn’t get him to come to the house and do it. I said I don’t have that he said I didn’t ask you that I said I will get it taken care of. Then one of the other guys he was trying to get a hold of called him back he called him we were both on the line. He said he could do the work and get the parts for $190 and do it right now. I could have it back in an hour or so. Mr. Auto told me to call my “boyfriend” run it by him and make sure it was okay and call him back. We all hung up. He called me back in a minute.

The guy gave him his rate and he is paying for the labor until I can pay him back later. He didn’t want him to know he was paying for it though, so he wanted him off the phone so we could figure it out and if the other guy was better deal or what. When he called me back he said the other guy is going to do it for half that in labor. I said but we need it towed how much is your guy going to charge to tow it? or what do you pay for towing because I don’t have towing? He said this or that if he can go get it and then parts what I could get parts for and then the guys labor. I said so it comes out to about the same. But will the other guy go pick it up since he has a tow truck and include labor in that price? He said he didn’t know he would find out he would send him to get it. I said but I have the key. So I had to get Pops here to take me back to the house to drop the key off. I called told him the key was in it. He told me to drop off the money for the parts someone else was going to do it. I said what? He said he was going to do it and then come get me to pick it up.

This is one of the guys that worked at the transmission shop with me and then worked at the car lot some with me. I really don’t want him working on my truck and always had one of the other guys up there do it if something needed done. But I am stuck so I have to go with what I got. He done it then said he couldn’t bleed it without a computer because it had no fluid in it at all. He said I could drive it and it would bleed out the more it was driven but it was bad enough still he wouldn’t drive it like that. So now I am waiting for his buddy to get off work so he can get a computer and come and fix it. he said he gets off at 4:30 he would meet him right there close to the house get it do it and they would bring it to me at work and pick me up so I can go to my other job. But he is one of those that will say something then not hear from him so I don’t know.

I am so stressed and sick right now from this and all the stuff going on with my house. It is 4:20 right now and I am waiting to hear if he got the machine or is on his way to go get it. I want to message him but I don’t want to bother him.

On top of everything he has Sleeping Beauty with him now because he went and picked him up after he got done with my truck so they could go get another car for Mr. Auto. Then he had to say something to Sleeping Beauty and of course the other one when he called me about the computer and the truck and all was talking about them and what was going on with him and BFF. I rather him not be in the middle of it and everything but now they are. I figure he is going to say something about it. I am going to tell him just like I did before you owe me it is a hour or less job you could of done but you come off with you want paid. He said that I could of punched him right in his head had he been in front of me. I was so mad. I knew when I didn’t respond the first time it would come up again.

I am sure the three of them have been talking and saying who knows what they are a group of guys. But at this point I don’t care. Mr. Auto told him earlier why was he helping me with my truck when he should be or something. Then he said when the two of them came back later together he told him they better come back not to leave me stuck. Said they said yeah they would. They are all like a bunch of over grow 13 year old oh she talking to this one they must have something going on, then your talking to them you must be doing something with them. or that one is talking to you they are just trying to this or that.

{May 1, 2019}   Can I Cry Now

I had no idea how I was going to get to work this evening when I got to my job this morning but at least I was here. I thought of my friend that has the barber shop a few miles from where I am now so I called her. She closes at 5 I figured maybe she would do it if I gave her gas money. She said she could and I sent her the address. Now it is 20 minutes before I am supposed to leave and head down there and she just messaged and said she forgot that her cousin that is living with her had to be somewhere right after work today she can’t do it. Now I am calling everywhere trying to find a ride.

I finally called my sister and she is going to take me. I can’t believe this shit, I just need my truck fixed so that I can get where I need to go. I have to go to an appointment in the morning I had no idea how I was going to get there or to work because I can’t take the bus there. If I do I will get there about time for me to be at work. I finally broke down and asked Pops here if he would give me a ride and run me there before work. He said yes, I just hope nothing happens or he don’t forget. He means well but things happen.

I got here to my day job early and the one owner came in he was surprised I was here so early. He asked if everything was alright? I told him yes my truck was down I was taking the bus and walking to get here. He said oh no asked when I was getting it back or what was wrong. I just told him that I didn’t know because I had money for parts but not labor I was trying to figure it out. He said something and said let him see what he could do or if he could figure something out.

The other owner came in later ask how things were going and what was going on. We were talking about things here with the shop and things. He went to leave and asked about my truck. I told him yeah it was done I was trying to figure out.

Later he came back in after they got back from being on the road and said he called a friend of his that works on cars and was trying to get a hold of a couple of others that he knew to see if he could get something done. He said but it probably wouldn’t be until the weekend. I told him that would be fine I didn’t figure it would be before that anyway at this point but I needed it back by Monday. That I didn’t have a problem getting here just my other job and I was going to lose it if I mess because of it being down. I said I would walk if it was closer but it is just to far take to long. I told him I walked here Monday. he said what, why didn’t you call me? How far is it? I told him. I said it was just not a good day I needed the walk. I had planed to catch the bus but I didn’t’ see any and then the one I finally seen was going the wrong way.

The guy at my other jobs daughter is picking me up and taking me home in the evenings this week. I am going to ask her if there is anyway she can take me the next two days as well if I pay her. I don’t know where I am going to get the money to pay her but I have to know I have a ride and that it isnt going to back out.

{June 21, 2018}   Not Fixed

My truck is a mess, it is losing water but not sure where from or why. I can fill it drive it for days still have an okay amount. Fill it drive it and have none in a few hours. Today i filled it drove it about 50 miles. Stopped at the little store to grab a drink. Came out there was a puddle as wide as the truck and about a third of the was back. I tried to get it home it started over heating. Finally got it home filled it with water and flew to the shop. They see a spot or two leaking but not sure that is all or why the puddle and all. I was supposed to be at work so one of the guys took me and dropped me at work. I had no idea how i was going to get home just that I had to get there.

I never found a ride home until about 20 minutes before I got off. I still don’t know what is wrong with the truck or how i will get to work on Saturday or Sunday. I ask the one that was looking at it if they got tims to look at it what was wrong if bypassing the hose helped? He said i needed talk to boss. I ask him he said i need to talk to the other. Told him i ask him he said talk to him. He said he talk to him. I have heard nothing back. I don’t know what is going on with it. I guess I have to walk up there tomorrow to get a straight answer. I am so beyond done. I didn’t even ask if they could fix it or would just dumped it and left. He said if he did this or that it should work so i left it. I was in tears cried all the way to work. He kept saying its alright its not that bad we can get it fixed.

It’s not just the truck it’s everything.

{March 8, 2017}   On My Own

The other day I had a problem with the truck and it needed 3 quarts of oil. I know this isn’t good at all and happy I caught it before it messed anything up. But it’s worse because I just had to put 3 in it about a month ago as well. Maybe a little longer but not much. When I had to put it in a month or so I didn’t see a leak so I figured it was like my other truck where it would need oil every so often but never could find a oil leak. I had read about it and there was something you could do to try and fix it but I had never tired it. It didn’t need oil all that often so it wasn’t a big deal and the fix was kind of a pain and a home done thing because there is no real fix you can buy and do. I figured I watch this one and see if it seemed bad enough to need to try and fix it or just keep and eye on it like my other truck. Well I didn’t need that much oil in such a short time. I could run it a while and not have to put some in it. It needing 3 quarts in a months time is bad.

Anyway yesterday I was out with my friend Wanda and we left the store and headed back to my house, we seen something in the parking lot so we turned into the store across the street and was going to go back. We decided not to and I went through the neighborhood behind the stores and was going to take the long way around. We got to the end of the street and I went to move the steering-wheel a and it wouldn’t move. I couldn’t figure out why then all of a sudden I looked down and all the lights were on, on the dashboard. I said shit the truck died. I thought the alternator but then said no it couldn’t be because the radio, lights and everything were still working and when it goes it won’t work most the time. Then I thought maybe the fuel pump because when I tried to start it it came on but acted as if it wasn’t getting enough fuel or something and would go off. I tried to call my friend that lived a few blocks over to come look at it his phone was turned off. I tried to call my other friend and her husband and didn’t get them. As a last resort I tried to call father of the year because he is the only one with a truck that I can tow mine with. I figured me and her could drive his and he could steer mine and we could at least get it home and the kids from school before he went to work. Nope he didn’t answer.

I got in it and was messing with it some more trying to figure out how to at least get it out of the road and where to park it. I figured out if I kept my foot on the gas it would stay running. I told her to get in and we took off. I went straight to my friends house who lived close. I figured even if he wasn’t home I could leave it parked there he would know it was mine and get a hold of me if I couldn’t him and wouldn’t have it towed. Him and his brothers were there doing stuff outside. I told him what was wrong he said he didn’t think it was the fuel pump and looked at it. He said some of the hoses were lose under the hood. I may have done that when I was reving it up trying to see if it would stay running and things. He then said that everything was covered in oil and that it was blowing oil somewhere and bad. But he didn’t now where. He cleaned something I forget what now I think the intake filter and things and it started running. He said that the CVP valve and elbow needed replaced. He said the elbow was flat and that may be where it was blowing oil from. He said they were about $10 each and he would put them on if I got them that I had some time to replace them. I got the kids from school picked up the part and it started smoking from under the hood again. I got back to his house and he was in side he couldn’t help me because his wife is really sick and he had 3 little ones to take care of and her. He said if I picked the little kids up and took it home it should be fine he would try to get a hold of me and fix it as soon as he could. He just came out for a minute to get something for his brothers earlier. I picked the little kids up and went home. I had Wanda with me because I was on my way to take her home but was scared to drive it anywhere else. It looked like oil was all under the truck on the ground. Well there was and we didn’t know from where. We got home I checked the oil and it had the same in it that it did when we broke down because I checked it to make sure that wasn’t the problem then. All the oil on his driveway mine would have showed low no way around it. I think it must have been from his brother that was parked there before me.

I decided I was just going to change the valve and elbow myself and get it done with because I didn’t have time to wait for someone else to do it whenever they could. I wasn’t driving it anymore risking blowing it up. I started looking under the hood on the passenger side and my friend was saying it was on the drivers side because that was were he was working. I don’t remember him saying where it was but I knew at the time when he was talking about it he was talking about the passenger side. I was just looking for the flat hose I figured it be easy to find. I couldn’t see it. So then I went and looked on the driver side. I tried to google it to see if I could find a picture or video and all I could find was for different motor or different truck. It was showing it in a different spot than I thought it should be from what he was saying and it said I needed all these tools and stuff. I called Father of the Year to see where he said it was and he was making no since and saying the same thing Wanda was saying on the driver side. I got up there and was looking again ( must have looked good standing on a chair to even be able to reach up in there.) on driver side. I guess I was in just the right spot because when I looked across the motor I seen this little hose with a dimple in it right on the passenger side. I moved over there and checked it out and sure enough it was that way on both sides. I knew that was what I was looking for. It was such a small piece of hose and the way it sits I couldn’t see the dimple from the passenger side. the dimple was back against the fire wall that area on that side and on the side of the hose facing the driver side. I pulled it right off no tools needed and the valve came right out with it. I open the new parts and went to put them on and the new elbow wouldn’t fit the valve it was to big. I tried to get it to work and it wouldn’t I put it on and in and then the valve was stuck in there because the hose wouldn’t stay on to pull it off. I was so mad I called the place I got it from and she said bring it back. I was surprised because it was open and had oil all on it. But she had trouble deciding what one it was and then said that was it so she knew they messed up. I thought they were about to close because they use to close really early, so I asked her because the only way I had to get there was walk. If they were I was going to see if they could have one of the drivers bring it to me. She said they closed in two hours so I walked up there. I took the old valve and hose with me to make sure I got the right one because I had to have it running that night.

I got back cut the hose and stuck it all right on and started it up. It ran great and hasn’t smoked or anything since then. I took my friend home the kids to school and picked them up and everything. I am just happy to have it fixed and to have saved myself $20 because I was going to give my friend $20 for doing it for me.

I have been joking with my friend for a few months about changing the fuel pump myself and she keeps saying no we can’t do it. I told her sure we could. She said her ex who was a mechanic had a hard time fixing the one on her truck we couldn’t do it. I said ok fine you come over take care of the kids and I will do it myself. I told her I don’t have money for all this crap I never have put a car in shop but twice and now I have no one to do it for me I guess I have to start learning to do it myself. If I take it down and do all that then I can put it back up. After I did that yesterday I said see I told you today this, this weekend the fuel pump! She said I was crazy, I told her maybe. I am not messing with the fuel pump right now I have to get other stuff done and it is fine. I don’t think it is going to go anytime soon. I am not sure I am keeping it yet so it be crazy to fix it if I am selling it. I know I won’t get any difference out of it probably if it is or isn’t fixed really. If I did it be not much to make it worth it. I am still going to talk to a few people about selling it. I just have been so sick I haven’t bother with anything hardly. I am still sick.

I need to replace the breaks soon it is coming up on time for that and I joked about that but I have to have someone put them on because that is not something I will try myself it risky if it don’t work. But one day.

I find I need a man for less and less the longer I am on my own and have to take care of stuff. And friends huh I find it funny that anytime any of them call me they have no trouble getting a hold of me and if they need something I am right there but when I call them I don’t even rank answering the phone. My good friend who fixed it when I got it to his house I understand and he has and will help me as much as he can when he can. I know he has three small sick kids and his wife is sick. I have this stuff going on a month now so I know how that is and dealing with sick kids. But everyone of the rest are always coming to me for help with this that or the other or money but I need help and they never answer their phones or have an excuse why they can’t. Over that too. I am going to be less help to more and more people again.

I was so tired and sore when I got done. When I got the new hose I had to get up under the hood of the truck to get the hose on the valve to get it out and then twist the hose onto the other part it went on then put the valve back in. I got stuck up there because I was trying not to knock the hood down on me and see where the ledge I stepped on was but it was back under the truck I had to get turned around just so I could get done. I hurt so bad, I was an oily mess, sweaty from walking. I came in took a shower and finished dinner feed the kids and made everyone go to bed. I fell a sleep at 9 woke up to the dogs at 3 something took them out and went right back to sleep until the clock went off at 7. I woke the kids up and sleep another house and half. I forgot all about my midterm I had at school today I didn’t study or anything for it. I was only at the school for twenty minutes total and had finished it and back in my truck. It was 50 questions and a lot he made way to easy the answer couldn’t have been but the one the rest made no since and weren’t even about what we were talking about. I am sure I did pretty good on that. I have felt better today than I have in a long time when it comes to being rested. But now tonight it is 11 pm and I am wide awake so who knows how the night will go.

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