{August 1, 2019}   Memory Loss

Just now while getting a paper towel to put under my drink at my night job I thought of what a coaster is called.

It was just about a week ago maybe longer because I do not remember where we were or what we were doing when I was trying to think of the name. I remember being out with the kids and Little Bitty showing me something and telling me what it was and I was trying to tell her no I thought they were coasters. But I could not think of what they were called to save my life. I was telling her the little things to put on the table and put your drink on. People were looking at me oddly.

But here we are a week later walking through work with a paper towel to wipe my drink off because I ran through the rain to get in and it hits me they are called coasters.

I do not know what is wrong with me lately. I can not think of what things are called or other words I am trying to use. I say or do something and a seconds later I forget what I said or done or was going to do.

It seems to be worse since the be gaining of the month me and oldest were out running around the night before I went and bought my truck. We were over in an area where I use to live. I do not know why we were over there or what we were supposed to be doing. But some how doing the repos came up. Oh we drive by a house where I did a repo with Sleeping Beauty and I was trying to say something about them.

All of a sudden I couldn’t talk. I was trying to say repos it was coming out all messed up and I was saying other things. Everything I was trying to say was coming out all wrong and slurs like I was drunk. It wasn’t what I was trying to say at all. This lasted a good few minutes. Then I was find I just didn’t feel good. I was extremely tired and just felt sick. But I felt like that a bit before so I don’t know.

I been alright since.

{September 11, 2018}   Re:IEP meeting and 45 Minute Nap

I just came back from Little Guy’s IEP Meeting at the school. I was so worried about making it on time and we ended up starting 20 minutes late. My 45 Minute Nap turned into an hour and 20 minute nap. I fell a sleep hard but dreamed odd stuff the whole time. I woke up 15 minutes later than I had planed. At that point I decided to just wait until 9:50 to get up and leave. That gave me 10 minutes to walk there get in and get started. It only takes 2 minutes to walk there. I started to get up get ready and go get coffee at 9:30. But I was worried I wouldn’t get back in time. Had I known we were going to start late I would of, i probably would of went when I got up at 9:50 had I known. But if I had done it they wouldn’t have been running late and I would of. Of well such is life. It is after 12 and I still have not gotten my coffee. I will in about 30 minutes I hope.

The meeting went okay, they said he is behind and he is having a hard time staying on task and keeping up. I figured that because he is not use to all that. One area he scored low in he was tested on the computer. He dont normally use the computer for school related things so I can see why he scored low. The other things he scored low in they feel is because of his speech. The sounds and the way he says them. They are working with him on all of it so that is good. His teacher and the speech lady talked very highly of him how eger he is to learn and that he don’t get upset if he has to be corrected. They said he is very confident in himself and his answers. That he will try to figure things out on his own. His teacher said she was worried about his reading comprehension because he has a hard time with sounds and spells things wrong and reads them wrong. But she said she had him read the story and then did the comprehension questions with him anyway to have a score and see where it was.  She said I don’t know how he does it but he knew and understood the whole story and could amswer all my questions very well. She said if you read it to him he gets it just as good either way. She said most the time if they have a hard time reading amd writing like he does then they do not get the comprehension part because they don’t understand and get the just of the store and what is going on. She said he has some type of coping skill that he has figured out that really works for him.

I ask them if they felt he needed outside testing or evaluations because we have disabilities and things in the family. They said no that they think we should wait and see how their interventions help and if he improves. They think it is mostly do to speech and that he is going to improve a lot with them. Because he is so willing to do them wants to do them and eger to learn. They said if they do their interventions and we don’t see a big change then maybe think about looking into doing more.

I agreed I just told them I know it takes time and things to get the appointments and to find place to do them and things. So if they thought it was going to be something we needed to look into then i could get the ball started because it would take a few months to have it started. This way in 2 or 3 months they say well we need this then have to wait 3 or 4 months to get him in to get it. His teacher said yes that was true maybe give him another week or two before we decided. I said no if you think he is going to be okay and this is more of the issue that is fine. We will just wait and see how things go. They can do all the testing at school just if I have my own done then I can get more help for him if I need to at home. But can’t just with theirs.

{September 11, 2018}   45 Minute Nap

It is 8:30 kids are at school and I am home. I am going to take a 45 minute nap, then jump up get ready and go to my meeting. That will give me 45 minutes until we will be sitting down starting not just to get there. I hope to have time to stop for coffee but I don’t know. Time will tell.

{September 11, 2018}   IEP Meeting

Little ones have to be up for school in 2.5 hours and I am still wide awake. I have a meeting at the school for Little Guys iep to be put back in place so he can get service’s. I need a shower and to do my hair. All I am going to want to do is sleep once I drop them off. Once I get out of the meeting I am going to have to work for the night. I have an hour and 45 minutes I could sleep had I did my shower and hair before bed. I guess I will drop them go get coffee and the come shower and do my hair. They have one says bold on it, I may need to try that in the morning.

I do not know what services they are going to offer other than speech. They have to take the developmental delaied label off now because of his age. Not sure what labels they will use now. With my oldest son they told me we have to tell you we have him listed as asd. But we do not know where he falls we can’t do that and tell you we are not allowed. Telling me it is okay not to worry what asd means. Like they are waiting for me to have some horrible reaction to finding this out or something.

They said do you have anything to say? I said I sure do, I said 1. He is Aspergers on the spectrum, 2. Why are you all trying to figureout between you all what services would be best for him? 3. Where is all the paperwork I turned in at the start of the year? 4. How come you are not offering the services the person who is qualified to do all this and put it together says he needs? They all just looked shocked. They said they had no idea he had been anywhere and had an evacuation done. I said well I turned it all into you as soon as I had a copy so he could get services. All this time he not been getting them? They changed the subjected then made me mad there too and i ended the meeting moved school.

I have not had this one tested for anything yet so it should be interesting to see where they want to go from here.

Freedom of speech is not just spoken words, freedom of speech is about written words and actions as well. Seeing how speech is our way of expressing our thoughts and feelings about things we encounter in life, there should be no limits put on speech.If we let the government starts putting limits on our right to freedom of speech, we risk ending up like North Korea, Eritrea, and Saudi Arabia to name a few.

In the case of Tinker v. Des Moines, 393 U.S. 503 (1969), the courts ruled that students could wear black armbands to protest the. Today we see shirts, hats, bumper stickers, and bags telling us why we shouldn’t support this cause, organization, or person for whatever reason. Even not saluting the flag or burning it in protest, are rights protected under freedom of speech as determined by, West Virginia Board of Education v. Barnette, 319 U.S. 624 (1943) and Texas v. Johnson, 491 U.S. 397 (1989);United States v.Eichman, 496 U.S. 310 (1990).

A lot of people are not happy when they see or hear of people doing these kinds of things, they feel a stop should be put to it. In putting a stop to it you are now taking away their rights to freedom of speech just because they are doing something different than you would. How can you tell people they can’t feel or think this way or that? Our thoughts and feelings are what makes us human and different from each other. We really have no control over how we feel about things, we can change or mind about the way we think about something but if truly don’t feel that way it isn’t going to last long or we are not going to be happy because we aren’t being true to ourselves. In the case of Tinker v. Des Moines, 393 U.S. 503 (1969) it was said “Students do not shed their constitutional rights at the schoolhouse gate. ”Why should we lose them to our country or any other group just because our views don’t match up to theirs?

Letting the government or any other group put limits on our right to freedom of speech is a dangerous form of control for them to have. We run the risk of ending up like countries such as Eritrea, North Korea, and SaudiArabia.According to Community To Protect Journalist, they are the top three censored countries and restrict journal is the most. They are only allowed to report what the countries say or risk imprisonment. There is no going to your computer or pulling out your phone to try to get news or information from other places because they not only have tight restrictions on journalist but the people of the countries as well. Internet is dial up at best and heavily restricted as are cell phones. On the site it says not only is Eritrea ranked number on as most restricted it has the least amount of cell phone users in the world at just 5.6 percent of the population. North Korea is only slightly higher with 9.7 percent of the population having cell phones. They can not account for the ones smuggled in from China.

These are just are the reasons I feel we should not put limits on our rights to freedom of speech and a few examples of why.

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