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{August 14, 2019}   Indirectly Invited To….

The guy that I was hired to replace at my nigh job, who ended up not leaving has made some comments lately. I for once have been left speechless.

A week or two ago he was talking about getting approved for a loan on a house. They are going to break ground in a few weeks. He was saying how he was thinking about buying the house he is in and the lot next to it. He said he was going to put a work area and pool over there. Then he says he thought about it and the kids were about grown so they would’t be around to use the pool. Then he says I told the wife oh we could have some fun swingers parties and laughed. Then says want to come to a pool party? I didn’t say anything just laughed and we went on.

Then the other night something was said on t.v about bringing a women home, he said yeah the last women I brought home my wife got kind of mad about. I don’t know if she got madder about me bringing her home or telling her she was for her.

There was another swingers comment and invite made as well. For the life of me I can’t remember what it was. I don’t know how to take it or what to say. It is kind of awkward, the way he says it, it’s like he means it and feeling me out to see what I say and then passes it off as a joke and goes on when I just laugh or make some kind of comment.

Do I have a sign that says hey I want to swing with you and your wife or be your partner for your next swinging event or lets make a profile and see what happens?

What has everyone into this? Have they always been this into it? Where have I been that I didn’t know so many were into it or notice? Or is it something that has been taboo and now all of a sudden everyone feels they can talk about it and don’t have to hide it? Why do they all feel the need to tell me and invite me? Again i don’t get it.

Don’t get me wrong I am not condeming it or think any different of anyone who is into it doing it, done it or tried it. I feel that as long as everyone is consenting adults then no harm done whatever they want to do. But it is not something I want to just jump into with someone from work and his wife I just met. Or something I want to jump into in a relationship right off the bat. Maybe once things are set and going good between us and we are together and doing good it would be something we could consider. I can see there being pros and cons to it.

Just like I told my “friend” I’m not saying no but not from jump. Yes we been doing this between us a while but when you start talking relationship that is a new area we are getting into and changes thing up. We need to figure that out, what that looks like, means and is going to work before we go doing things like that. This is all new for me and I need to check it all out too and he needs to know some things understand some things. Yes I trust him or I wouldn’t be with him in anyway friends or other wise but there are always risk when you are bringing others into it all.

As if dating and relationships aren’t hard enough everyone seems to want to jump into all this right out of the gate.

 

 



Monday afternoon my friend messaged me and ask if I was ready to come over and take some xxx rated pictures for our sls profile.

I had no idea what he was talking about we don’t have a profile but had an idea. I said sis? He said yeah swingerslife style or something like that. Where couples go to meet other couples.

I made a joke about not h

Knowing about that or having time for it. He said I could make time if I wanted to. I joked and said I can’t find one he wants me to scare a room full off.

He said what guy? “I will find one for you. If you listen to me I’ll teach you what guys like 🙂”

He asked again if he could find me one and what I was looking for. I told him not just a hook up.

Then I get

??… I mean I would be looking for more with you. but I have been trying to get you to show me you can give me what I want. You dont seem to be able to though.

At this point I was getting on the highway and did not respond. I been thinking about it and how to respond to it. This was Monday we were talking. This evening I am sitting here at work and was thinking about something and went to read it and maybe try and reply. I am in one of those very odd emotional states and I am all over.

When I open it the first thing I notice it says in blue and white you can not reply to this conversation. I thought no way, what. I went outside to get a connection and sure enough he blocked me.

Why would he do that? Why would he block me because I can’t do what he is asking. I have been upfront and honest with him.

I was going to tell him look I am interested in trying to be more. But there are a few things that have kept me from it. Tell him what they are go from there.

I am willing to try and do different things but he has to understand where I am coming from and how I feel. He needs to meet in the middle. Nothing wrong with swinging or what but I’m not into that. And the being able to see eachother and things with our hours.

I was going to tell him how he has been the one there for me and how I feel. Now I dont know what to think. Is he mad? He is upset and pulling away? I just seen him last week. I am so confused. Thought about texting him. Dont know.



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