{July 31, 2017}   Time is Flying

I can not tell you where this Summer has went. I feel like we just had the last day of school a couple days ago and it is already time for the kids to go back. I feel bad because I wasn’t able to take the kids and do anything with them. The start back the 16th, the rest of the schools start back the 10th. I hope to maybe get one small fun trip of some kind in with them next weekend.

I am scrabbling to get scholarships done and work and everything else right now. I feel like I went to sleep and woke up three months later and am trying to catch up. I haven’t even been back on here hardly or anything. I am thinking about taking my computer to work with me so that I can write on my break since I don’t eat and sit there most the time. Be perfect time to write and get caught up on here, they have inter net and everything. I think I may do that starting Wednesday. Not a lot but a lot going on here if that makes since.

I really need to get back in to the doctor because I am at the point of sleeping all the time and not being able to hold my eyes open. I am going to call them see where I can fit them in around everything else I have to do this week. I just don’t know. I guess I will see. I am going to go because I am just rambling now. I have some other things to update I am not sure I will get to it tonight but if not maybe tomorrow or the next day I hope.

{February 8, 2017}   Two Years Already

Today is two years since my dad has passed, two years it’s hard to wrap my mind around it and figure out where the time has gone. It feels like yesterday. I have been thinking about it for a week or so now as it got closer and closer to today it just keeps sitting there in the back of my mind two years two years over and over like a echo. I wasn’t sure how today was going to go at all it could have been really bad or could have been great I honestly didn’t know how I was going to feel today or if I was going to do anything. To top it off I had to go to class today. I was worried what if I was to bothered by it to go I would miss another day. I even thought about it in bed last night as I laid down to go to sleep.

This morning I woke up at 5 with the dogs wanting to go out, got the kids up they took them out and we laid back down. I could’t sleep so I looked around on my phone. It was the first thing that came to mind when I woke up part of why I couldn’t fall a sleep I think. I finally went back to sleep until the alarm went off and got everyone up. I got up got Little Bitty ready and fought with her to get her to get dressed and even go to school. Doctor said she was fine yesterday so she was going today. We got there I asked the kids to walk them in my side was hurting from my gallbladder again. Then I took the older kids and dropped them off, I walked Big Boys stuff up and put it in class for him I didn’t want him to drop it all and break it he had my bowl and other glass stuff in it. He has a habit of falling down. Not what I wanted to deal with this morning. I talk to the teacher and one of the students for a bit and left. I came home and was going to make something to eat but I didn’t. I put coffee on and came to check in with everyone here instead.

I started one post about something and it turned into a post about other stuff half way through and I had to leave to get to class so I just saved it. I have to go back split it up clean them up and then post them but I haven’t had time today or felt like it with everything going on and being sick.

I got to class and sat down and we started the teacher asked everyone how we were feeling or how our day was going and done some counseling examples with it and we went on with class. All this time since I got up to get the kids up until that point I had not even thought about what today was. All of a sudden it just hit me right in the middle of class. I just felt like someone dropped something on me I can’t explain it. I started to tear up I looked at the clock to see what time it was we still had half the class left. I had my hoodie sitting there I wiped my eyes with it a few times and just kept looking at my paper. I don’t know why I just started writing. I wrote about half a page or so, I had no clue what was going on in the rest of the class. I didn’t know what they were talking about what was said nothing. I still don’t and am not sure if we had something to do for homework or turn in Monday or when our test it or what it is on.

It was like I just blocked everyone out. All of a sudden I released the teacher was talking to me. Just like you see on tv where the kids is off in space and the teacher ask him a question and they have no clue what they said or what is going on. I couldn’t even fake it until I made it try to. I just kind of looked for the teacher and looked at him and he ask the question again. I had no clue where he had even walked to in the class by that point. He was asking about how the content of the class was going and the way he was explaining it to us and things like that and how it was compared to taking it online? It’s not great, it isn’t horrible either but it could be a lot better. I didn’t have any problems with it on line and understood it pretty well. But I feel a lot of it is pretty common since stuff if you read the definition to the words and look at the examples or case studies. I just told him it was good and that I liked it online and understood it but I also understood it here and it worked for me. After that he started talking and I wrote a few more things as he let everyone go and they all piled out. I was getting my things together and he stopped me and was talking to me. We walked down stairs together and talked some. I think that helped because before I started writing I was about to get up and walk out of class. I was debating on just walking out going to the bathroom across the hall or taking all my stuff walking out and going home. I don’t know what made me just start writing, but I did.

I left school and it was about 1230 by then since I had stayed behind and talked with the teacher, I just drove right to the older kids school to pick them up. I knew they would be getting out in 30 minutes. As I went by I seen they were outside playing so I parked and walked around there. I hung out there and talk to them and then we went back to class. They have a new kid coming who needs a ride and I was trying to figure out if it was the one I knew of and if they lived close. I am pretty sure it is I told them I would give her a ride in the mornings if she was ready when I got there. I am waiting to hear when that will start but she lives a mile or less away from me and if I go to her house I just follow the road around to the little kids school then go out to the main road and go to their school.

I was going to share what I wrote in class here tonight but I forgot it in the truck. It is late I am not dressed I am not going out there tonight. I will finish it up and share it another time. I will share my other post I was wrote this morning later as well. Probably one day this week or this weekend. I am sick and don’t feel good. And when I came back here this afternoon to read I seen another blog that touched on what I wrote early and it got me thinking a little more so I want to maul it over for a bit before I write it. Hopefully some good post to come in the next few days. My goal is to post at least once a day I would like to post more but at least once. But I may not be around much tomorrow, between being sick and trying to find a cage, we are supposed to bring our furry new pets home tomorrow and I still don’t have one so I am going to have to go out tomorrow why they are in school and look. If I don’t make it back you know why.

{January 12, 2017}   A Post A Day

I am going to still keep up with posting once a day. It may not be posted that day it maybe the next day or even a couple days later. But I am going to make myself sit down and write it and save it so it can be posted when I get back on line. Because if I don’t I will lose so many post and will not have a posyt every day. May not count as a post a day if it don’t get posted that day but I am going with it anyway as long as I write every day it will get posted at some point. It is spotty with the internet the way it is but you do what you got to do to save money and make sure the kids have what they need and get to school.

I have to sit down and write it everyday because I will have this great idea for a post and then before I know it I have thought the post all the way through from start to finish then I just forget it. When I write I write it all as I am writing and think it through right then if that makes since. If I do it before hand and then come here to post I have no clue what I was going to say or thought about saying. It’s like once I have put time and effort into writing it once my mind lets it go and moves on even if I haven’t really written it yet. There have been a few post I swear I wrote went back looked for them and they were not here I remember the basic what it was about or why I was going to write it and look but I didn’t. To try to write it at that point it don’t come out like it would have had I written it when I thought I did. So now I have to write them and save them to post later. That will keep me in the habit of writing everyday and taking time for myself. I can’t be the only one like that am I?

I am going to go see what needs turned into day and get it done then copy everything else and work on it at home. I am starting to freeze in here they keep it like a meat locker then being shut up in this little room don’t help. I should be back tomorrow or Sunday.

{November 23, 2016}   Been Reading

I have been around some and reading just not posting a lot. Since I been on this medication I have been sleeping more. More normal than before I should say, I have to take it at night because it makes me fall a sleep as soon as I take it just about. I am on more of a normal schedule now. I try to take it around 1030 every night and by 11 I am a sleep. Sometimes I sleep all night some nights I will get up once to go to the bathroom or fix the heat/air and go right back to sleep. I am up by 6/7 in the morning. The time I am awake I am busy running and doing stuff with the kids. The time I normally write is after the time I take my pill. But if I take my pill past 11 I still feel it in the morning and want to sleep later and I have to be up to take the kids to school. The last few days with the kids home and not feeling good I have been sleeping a little more in the day time as well.

I am trying to figure out how to get everything I need to do in a day done on my new schedule. I am use to having about 4 or 5 more hours a night to do the things I need to get done like my school work and writing on here. I have to start getting the kids back to bed by 9 as well. That will leave me a hour and half of free time after they go to bed. Still not the 4 or 5 I am use to. I am sure once things calm down a bit I will find time to write more.

In the mean time I am still here things are ok and I am reading just not writing as much right now. I should have some free time tomorrow I hope maybe I will get to write then. I plan to stay up with my oldest to watch Gilmore Girls. She is hoping they will put it on at 12am Friday instead of waiting until later Friday to put it on. Then we can watch it without the other kids being loud and interrupting. I told her we will put the kids to bed about 8 or 9 lay down until they go to sleep. I am going to have to figure out when to take my pill so I don’t fall a sleep on her. Maybe I can take it in the evening around 7 lay down and sleep for a few hours then get up and be ok. I will still be sleepy Friday from not sleeping much but that’s ok because I will not be going shopping Friday for anything. I think we may start putting up our Christmas stuff up outside if I can find a ladder. I also want to put up our manger scene. My Big Boy don’t want to put them up yet I am going to try and change his mind. Right now I am off to bed I am supposed to have everyone up and ready and out to lunch for tomorrow by 11. I see a nap in my day tomorrow for sure.


{September 27, 2016}   Black Cat Blue Sea Award


I was nominated by I Am My Own Island

The rules are……..

  • Anybody nominated can nominate eight other bloggers.
  • The nominee answers three questions posed by the nominator.
  • The questions you ask while nominating can be any three questions.

If any of the questions asked are offensive or the nominee simply does not want to answer, the nominee does not have to answer them to earn the award.

The questions I was asked are…..

1. Where was the best place you’ve vacationed at and why? I have never been on a vacation.  

2. What inspires you to write? I write to get stuff off my mind.

3. Do you have a life motto? If you really want something don’t take no for an answer, nothing is out of reach.

My three questions are….

  1. Do your friends and family know about your blog? Why or Why not?
  2. What pets do you have?
  3. What’s your favorite t.v show/s?

I nominate……

Writing About Passive Aggression

Mummy Fied

Daddy Stayed Home

Roadkill Goldfish

Excitement on the side


Lisa Tiller

Lessons From then End of A Marriage


That is a problem and that is where I am with one of my 5 classes I am taking. I don’t know why it seems so easy but I can’t wrap my mind around it and get the work done right. I got like 70% for the first week and he gave me points on that because it should have been lower. He said he was going easy the first week until we get things figured out. But this week I am sol if I don’t figure it out and get it right. We do not have papers and things due for this class like research papers so that is great, so I thought. But that means our board post have to be longer and a little more involved than most. That was fine as well, because they are easy to do, so I thought. Well he wants it done by the FAIR guide. I response has to be done by a guide to but that isn’t that hard I can get that. I do not know why I am having such a hard time figuring out how to write my responses in FAIR guidelines. It makes since but it don’t to me. I don’t know why. Last week we had two responses that needed to be done that way in one post. I did one but not the other because I ran out of time and because I was having such a hard time with it. He said my work was very lose and not very good basically I know it wasn’t I won’t deny that because I didn’t know what I was doing and I was just trying to get something turned in and do the best I could working around what I was supposed to be doing. It does not help that the work is due by 8 pm Friday night instead of 11 pm. I know it shouldn’t matter but I need those last few evening hours to work a lot of times. I am trying to transition over to doing it in the morning why the kids are at school it just don’t seem to work that way. I just work so much better at night when I get them to bed. I end up working most the night sleeping for a little bit, taking them to school then napping in the morning. I am really working on changing it and trying hard to. I went to be early last night then laid there for hours before I fell a sleep.

But the biggest problem is Figuring out how to write all my stuff in this FAIR format I can get stuff in when ever it is due rather I like it or not. But I can’t get it in if I do not understand it and it is not making since to me. I have researched it and read over it and looked at what he did and the examples. I thought about asking him but I don’t know what more he can tell me to get me to understand it. It’s just not how my mind does things or works when it comes to writing and I don’t know how to get it to break it down like that and make since too. At this point I would almost rather write a paper or two for the class and be done with it than doing the boards. I figure he is going to say your in college you should know how to write, it’s simple enough or whatever. I feel so stupid that I can’t figure out something this simple. Well it looks simple and I am sure it is to most but like I said it isn’t something I have ever seen or use to doing and can’t really figure it out.

I guess I got to go get the kids from school run to the store for my mom and then get home make dinner and get kids to bed so I can figure it out. Anyone use FAIR and can explain it to me in a way I may understand?

1. If you haven’t read the brand new blog by my friend you need to go check her out and welcome her to the blogging world. findingmeafterdivorce We worked next to each other about 9 years ago. I was so sad to when she moved a way and still miss her.

2. This is a blog I found not long after joining WordPress myself and was so relieved when I did. I sat down and have read every post from the beginning and continue to follow and read. Reading through a lot of her post I feel that I could have written them. Passive Aggressive Abuse

3. I have just started following this blog not that long ago but really enjoy it. having a son with disability myself I admire her strength in taking care of 5 kids. Raising 5 Kids With Disabilities and Remaining Sane Blog

4. Another one I have just started following but like her views on life and the happenings in it. Roadkill Goldfish

5. LadyRomp is always there with an inspiring quote and bringing light to things going on around the world. To try and improve things for women of all ages.

et cetera
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