1 Year And 16 Days Ago

I gave birth to my second baby girl. My itty bitty. She was the smallest of my babies and at just over a year she is still my itty bitty at just 16 lbs.

She started walking just a few days after her birthday. She had been crousing the couch tables and other things for months. Had started taking up to 5 steps on her own but wasn’t ready to fully take off on her own just yet. Then over night it seemed she was running every where. Every time I would walk through the house and seen her she was walking around. I love it, I hate the crawling stage. Now I have to get her use to shoes. I don’t like shoes and never put shoes on my babies til they started walking. She isn’t takeing to them as good as my other three.

It has been a hard but rewarding year. I think the hardest thing I have done so far in life is being the only one 100% responsable for a new baby. Her dad has still only seen or asked about her the one time when she was 4 1/2 weeks old. He is the one missing out now.

We have had a lot going on the last month and I feel horrible I haven’t gotten to do her a party yet. I was going to do one next weekend but I just don’t think im going to be able to do it. I decided to have everyone over for easter and just do a cake for her then. I am having a hard time with it because I had a party all planed for her. I have planed her party far longer than I probably should have been. But she is my last baby and I’m not going to have the chance to do all the first again after her. I know she don’t know the difference and don’t care either way. Its my self I am dealing with. I know that probably sounds crazy but I love doing all the stuff for my kids and knowing this is it. And the fact her dad isn’t in the picture and I’m still getting no help I don’t want her to miss out because of it. I feel she gets shorted because of things that have nothing to do with her and it isn’t right.

She is so smart, funny and loving, but boy does she have a temper too. She blows kisses and leans over for you to hug her. The kids will be sitting in the floor she crawls up them and hug them. Now that we have our dog back she just loves on her all day. He will lay down with her head on her or put her head on hers. The dog acts like she dont like it but you can tell she loves every min of it. She even gets in the dog cage when noone is looking and sits with the dog.

She has a bruse in the middle of her forhead right now thats been there a week or more. When she gets mad she head butts the floor or wall. She sits in the floor throws herself flat on her belly and screams. When she see we arent looking at her then she gets up and goes on. She is a handfull.